Well, I've been having a rough time lately. I guess the good news is that I've been diagnosed with severe sleep apnea and I mean severe. I wonder now if that had anything to do with the bad reaction to rolling. Problem is that I don't get the machine for like another month and my sleep patterns and quality of sleep are just atrocious. I feel like I am walking around in a daze all day lately with bad fucking head pressure. Ugh!!! My cognition has been shit as well. The hopeful part is that when I do get on the "tube" as they call it in the sleep apnea world I may see a dramatic difference in all my symptoms because I'll actually get real sleep. But, right now, I am as exhausted as I've ever been in my life. I just want to lay in bed all day and fuck around on the computer. I have zero energy.
Hopefully you'll be able to tolerate the breathing apparatus.
I was diagnosed with central sleep apnea, but, I could not fall asleep with it, nor handle it.
Maybe I had a broken and/or improperly calibrated model, but it was rather loud, and actually made it harder to breathe.
Not to worry, I was told most people get along with them just fine.
It's weird the number of stages I've gone through already. I just got out of a phase where I was soooo thirsty all day long for a few weeks. I was drinking huge sums of water, but I felt pretty decent. Now that the head pressure has returned 24/7, I am not thirsty at all and I feel like complete shit again.
Reading this really worries me.
Have you checked your blood glucose levels lately?
Excessive thirst is associated with type 2 diabetes (among other things).
Do you have a family history of diabetes? In any case, you should let your doctor know about your excessive thirst for water, as it may (or may not) indicate abnormally high blood glucose levels.
Please know that I'm not trying to scare or stress you. If I didn't care, I wouldn't bother saying anything.
What a fucking nightmare LTC and severe sleep apnea!?! Dear god, I don't know how much more I can take.
I understand it can frustrating as hell. You'd probably give anything to get back to your old self.
Even after I managed to recover after 19 months, I still had to take medication for a number of medical issues (and it continues to this day - for the most part).
There are days where I get extremely frustrated, and I think about how I would flush all my remaining meds down the toilet if I could without going into massive withdrawal.
Even so, whenever I get asked by family/friends/acquaintances how I'm doing, I tell them that I have a lot to be grateful for, because it could be A LOT worse.
For example, I'm so grateful that I'm not dependent on others to help me take a bath/shower, use the toilet, eat, drink, etc.
Don't get me wrong, I would do it for my loved ones if I had to, but, I'd feel terribly guilty if it was the other way around.
Also, I'm beginning to wonder if all of us who have experienced this condition all have something in common (other than MDMA use) which led us to eventually react in a similar fashion? A really stressful and traumatic childhood perhaps?