To all those out there I hope you're having nice evenings.
I've had quite the polyfecta tonight. That codeine/caffeine mix, diphenhydramine, a tiny amount of pheanzepam, some diazepam, a tiny bit of clonazepam which I found (have been holding for the last 10 years), some oral mephedrone , ~75mg, some etizolam, and another ~40mg meph, vit. C, tryptophan, and 10mg of MDPV. Not quite done yet though; when it comes time to pack it in I'll take some zopiclone and melatonin. Then... tomorrow I'll get back to ze verk.
I need to study for finals, and equally important; need to write a CV and get a damn job.. fast.
All this was during a showing of LOTR; TT. Simpsons/KOTH for the remainder.
When I was in that (albeit brief) mephedrone induced state of lucidity and relaxed awareness; I was contemplating kicking the crutches and going to see a psychiatrist to help get the anxiety and drug addictions off my back. I've decided if I do it, it will be after exams when I have the time for such things. In the meantime I fully intend to not use amphetamine/derivatives for studying; they're counterproductive and overall bad for me. They lead me to benzo use and impair my ability to retain information. I'm going to get back on my tea drinking regimen. I always found it mentally enhancing, yet calming, without the body side-effects such as the brutal acne.
As for recreationals (we all need em') I'm going to look into GHB. I loved the stuff and it has a good safety/healthy profile. Alcohol never really tickled my fancy; when it works it works great but then my body is uselessly toxic for 2 days, and quite often it just makes me feel half-sick when it's supposed to be 'the high'. GHB seems like the perfect pressure release valve and social enhancer.
I know all that is easier said than done. Part of me wants to try out CBT, openly spill the beans about my drug use, get a blood screen (especially for endocrine/hormone issues). But I also don't want any record of any kind. I want to keep my firearms license (I'm no threat to others or myself and target shooting is my 2nd favorite sport), I don't want to be red flagged at borders, I don't want to be red flagged in any way. I still have a desire to use drugs sporadically, recreationally and spiritually. Going camping without amphetamine or any psychedelics wouldn't be quite the same.
After exams I really want to have my first psychedelic experience since last summer; TMA-6 is calling me
About 4-sub trypts mentioned above; there's a lot more out there since I last looked for them. The only 2 I have are 4-AcO-DMT and 4-AcO-DIPT. The latter is short lived and wild. The former has tryptamine depth but clear like LSD.
What would you guys recommend for a light hearted 4-sub tryptamine. I know the -DPT's are for the hard knocks. I was wondering about the -MET, and -DET substituents. I know it's an bad question for the Social, but I'm just looking for some braonstorming and a synopsis.