I don't remember posting on here, I probly did, but want to post again.
I voted for Heroin.
That w/d, was the only 1 that I wanted to commit suicide on, I literally couldn't handle 30 mins of it, it's just so fucking INTENSE. I was smoking black tar heroin, never IV'd, for a little over a year.
But the w/d got so bad because, I was on other opiates before I started heroin. 3 years of hydrocodone abuse, 80-120mg daily, 3 years of oxycodone abuse, 120-200mg daily, after pills got WAY too expensive, I made the biggest mistake of my life and started chasing the dragon (smoking heroin), after I hit rock bottom, sold everything, stole almost everything in my parents house, I had no choice but to commit to them that I am an addict and need help, it was that, or 6 feet under. My parents saw me sick like a dog, it was winter time, they were wearing jackets, and I was literally sweating like I just got out the shower, puking everywhere, my legs would not stop twirling around in pain (RLS), dehydrated, I was puking yellow stuff, that tasted so bitter, I knew for a fact that's the poison from heroin trying to come out of my body. So my parents rushed me to the hospital, the nurses saw how I was, and they literally let me in a room in less than 30 mins, compared to a 6-8 hour waiting list, they imedialtey IV'd me Ativan for the shakes and anxiety, promethazine for the nausea, and morphine for the pain, after I got medicated, I finally calmed down A BIT. I never lied to the doctors or nurses or my parents what im in the ER for, but they were cool enough to take care of me THAT DAY. The doctor said to my parents, you have 2 choices to save your son, REHAB OR MMT. Now, we're not a rich family, who can afford $15k-$20k a month for rehab, so they rushed me to MMT, and I can honestly say, methadone DID save my life. Imagine their was no such thing as MMT clinics or such, its an addicts worst nightmare, but I thank god for methadone, it's literally a life saver for addicts.
After that, I never touched heroin again, its pure fucking poison, who knows wtf people put in that shit.
Ever since then, I never fucked around with street drugs, Pharmacuticals are CLEAN, and you KNOW what you're taking.
So yeah, Methadone, I love you, and thank you for saving my life.