i've used benzos a lot but never long enough consecutively to get severe withdrawals. i do my best to avoid that situation by using benzos sparingly. i never really do more than 4mg in one day, although i have a few times. i never use more than 3 days in a row, and i usually don't even use weekly. i mostly just binge occasionally. i sometimes will go months without them.
i have been a heroin addict for 3 years now. the first year was strictly intranasal and smoked, on and off for about 8 months before becoming a daily user. i IV'ed for the first time and immediately quit for 3 months. i came back to it and became a daily IV user to this day. that 3 months was the only time i ever quit for more than a week. i've only gone a week without H a handful of times. i go into withdrawals quite often since i'm broke a lot or can't get a ride to cop. going through heroin withdrawal is complete agony every time.
after 12-24 hours, depending on how much i've done, i begin to ill. i know i've entered withdrawal when i sneeze for the first time. my mind goes into a state of despair and shitty anxiety. scoring some dope will be the only thing i think about. some people get the sweats but i only get chills. even in the summer i will feel extremely cold. my body temperature feels like it has dramatically dropped. i can be in sweaters, or under a few blankets, have the heat on full blast, etc but it won't help that much because it is my body that is cold. the only thing that helps is a bath/shower. i don't get nauseous or the shits, although i will have to take a shit and it usually hurts because of how dry it is. plus it sucks to sit on the freezing ass toilet seat. i will sneeze often and every time i sneeze it is 5 consecutive sneezes. i can't stop yawning and it makes my eyes super watery all day long. it is pretty hard to eat even though i'm hungry. it's mainly just getting things down my throat that is the hard part, and the fact that my stomach feels all turned around and whatnot. one of the worst parts for me is that i am extremely weak and feel like i have no energy. getting out of bed, walking, picking something up, changing my clothes, basically "doing" anything feels like a chore. it is very difficult just to move, but laying down sucks too. i don't feel that much better by not moving. if i stand/walk for any amount of time i will feel sore very quickly. my legs and feet will feel like i just ran 3 miles just from walking DOWN the stairs. having stairs in my house sucks pretty bad. there's also a feeling that i wanna just crawl out of my own skin. it's hard to explain but other junkies will know what i mean. it's an irritable feeling that never ends. the sniffles bug the shit out of me too. my nose will run and run and run yet my cough will be so dry and my throat will be super itchy. can't forget about the RLS. i will tap my legs and feet every single second of my withdrawal. insomnia will make me want to shoot myself. i'll be awake for 36 hours and finally get to sleep but i will just toss and turn and wake up every 30 mins and every single time it will be a challenge to fall back asleep. even though i haven't slept i will never even feel tired at all. the anxiety is horrible. it is impossible to feel content doing anything. i cannot focus on anything and i constantly feel like i need to be doing something else but i just can't, unless it involves scoring dope. i think that covers just about all of the symptoms i feel...
all of this is relieved the instant a bit of heroin enters my bloodstream through a syringe... this is all i live for... it is depressing...
I sure had severe night sweats cutting down, but that was it. Did you ever get clean off Sera?
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