All I am is emo right now. I can't sleep and I cant' eat. I dont' know what to do. I read these messages from people and I understand what they feel.
I miss you. I would give 1000 lifetimes for a kiss from you right now. You said yourself I was the best kisser you know, and I said because I mean it and I do. I love you and I know you love me. You told me and I believe you even if everyone told me I was naive. We are amazing together and nothing anyone says will sway me. My friend gave us 6 months and said you were using me, and I refuse to believe he's right. I am willing to wait for you even though I know right now is horrible timing. I would rather have days of heartbreak now and wait for an amazing future. I would give up 1000 lifetimes to be with you right now with the two of us like we always end up lying together naked under the covers and rambling to each other about something stupid. These stupid ramblings are what matters. These stupid ramblings are what I would give up everything for. I remember arizona and what you said, even if I pretend I don't. I was guarded, and rightfully so at this point, but I would do anything to be in that room telling you exactly how I felt, which is exactly how you feel about me. We are incredibly one, and it's scary how well we fit together. I know we would be happy together, and I would rather have a buttload of heartbreak now for some amazing happiness later. I am tired though. I want a life and a relationship with you, but you aren't ready. I would sacrifice my job and my career for you and leave now to be with you.
I would give everything I own and wouldn't think a second of it, because I love you. I don't care about things. Things can be replaced. Things are worthless objects that mean nothing, because I am secure enough in myself to know that I can replace things. I can make things and I can replace every materialistic object I own. I don't care about things. At the end of the day when it's dark and you look into your life, things are not what you think of. Things are objects you trade for things you want, and I want you. I would give up everything for a lifetime with you and I would never regret it.
I'm an idiot and a romantic. I don't care about anything but those things that make feelings, because everything else can be replaced. Things never matter, but that's easy for someone to say who only owns things. The funny thing is that no one knows you like I do. We both take advantage of playing a role online that we aren't. I take abuse about you all the time, defend you, because I know you better than anyone on this stupid forum.
Even #1 dads deserve to be happy with someone they love. No one should be alone.
I am tired. I am making a fool of myself, but I won't care because I don't want to sober up and admit it. I gotta go to work soon and won't be able to be stupid romantic.
I miss you and wish kisses. Misses and kisses and hugs.
, you boy drew, and i want to take you away in my arms, out of this shitty country and go live somewhere peaceful and a place that hasn't yet been populated so we can fuck and reproduce like rabbits (minus the blow jobs you give me 
