I’m in the exact same boat. Same results, same cavalier attitude to the risks because of it all being Stims.I don’t think I was ever really at much risk of dying directly from drugs since 99% of my use was stimulants and psychedelics. The first time I seriously tried opiates I woke up in an ER though - so I came pretty close
I actually used to have a pretty egotistic sense of invincibility using drugs since I often had narrow scrapes from the risky behaviour that followed taking them though.
Probably the narrowest scrapes came from taking benzos to come down from stims or trips. One minute I would think I was drifting off to sleep and an hour later I’d wake up behind the wheel of my car or walking the streets miles from my house.
For years I’d congratulate myself that I’d never stroked out, had a heart attack, got a venereal disease, or been arrested through drugs - but I’m now learning there has been a bit of long term cardio-vascular damage.
I should get my Cardio-Vascular star checked out.