Holy Shit! I miss Dextrostats! Those were way much better than Badderrall! LOL!! I read that now Zenzedi is the new dextrostat. I don't know if they make Dextrostat in generic anymore which would be dextroamphetamine. I miss them days that were actually prescribed in years. I was prescribed 120 dextros 10 mg pills monthly for like 8 years up until my doc retired
i was on 2 10s qid ,,,, 80mg 240 a month ran me 88 on goodrxgold then went to 112 or some shit,. they make it still but am glad to see zenzedei though.... if a prior auth covers vyvanse it would prohably cover this. but 3 30s a day isnt that much with good rx gold at osco or regular marianos.... im glad they did it. its name brand for a while but im sure since its name brand its good shit, some amphetamine generics suck. i miss dextrostat and dexedrine ER as well, i used to be on 4 15mg capsules and eventually 80mg dextrostat, could have done 90, maybe 120..... im sure i could ask for desoxyn as ive been on all of them , especially the good ones, then on a drop i wont have to hope the nurse is dumb enough to think vyvanse or adderall or dex causes a methylated amp to pop in my urine... usually it works but id take 5mg a day even just to have it and use vyvanse in the background. 10mg midday, 60 a month desoxyn good rx gold isnt that much, not all pharmacies take gold. here osco is the cheapest, cvs does but for most shit theyre pricey still for some reason addies theyre not. when i leave here ill keep the vyvanse and ask for adderall from my outside dr to bump to 90 or even 75 if he feels like its too high, the third dose will be half a tab lowering quantity and saving money....
another cash dr i had for years did dex ir and was on 80mg as well 2 benzos subutex and now its all the same basically .... both drs temporilly lost their controlled rights but the one i have now isnt a sub dr i get that elsewhere. i really want to go from 3 2mg kpins and 4mg (two bars scheduled not even prn lol its how i ask it to be on the bottle and he always says that makes sense or im on board, always.... i use lingo that my pharmacology knowledge and addict history knowledge and BL and reddit lessons and research journals and books and shit to help achieve my goals.... we small talk then its like ok doc lets cut to the chase fuck it, lol.... my dr now i see twice a year 100 bucks every 6 months, usually i push off 2 times to get to 8 months, call office in between for changes or refills or issues, 2 amps 2 benzos lyrica remeron.... perfect combo... im on an agenda... drop bars, for restoril, max me on temazepam keep kpins and 2 amps and lyrica... put lyrica back to bid 300mg just because its only good for cycling, i dont need it daily it stops working. i may as well abuse it fuck it done benzos i use less than im prescribed... less dependency less problems, bars ill use one when i fill it, but after that unless heavy stim breakthrough anxiety then i use a mg or as little as possible, bars are a problem waiting to happen... and 6mg kpin generally covers it, bars just work , and even a mg of one, so after 2 more fills to save up illl swap to 30 or 60mg temazepam whateber he maxes me out at, then ill have "REM" sleep, i was gonna try triazolam but sometimes insurance makes me pay out of pocket for one benzo, sometimes not, triazolam i see on good rx as pricey and the mg arent as strong as i remember... i wanted 1mg bid prn basically same as bars but it shows .25 and less.... twice the potency of alprazolam.... either way, if temazepam is stocked up on and i have bars or someshit and RC benzos stocked a little, and then im ready to ask, ill say drop kpin to 4mg a day unless 6 is still fine, i usually use 4 if possible, drop lyrica to twice a day for sure, ill stop subs for this one, but ask if he can do Xyrem or Xywaav, surprised theres a new one, sodium oxybate in other terms GHB with a different name so it doesn't sound so bad.... is my guess... ill use for sleep, and explain the main reason is the dopamine rebound, the stims and that greatly would be affected in a good way.... i used GHB with meth over the summer not to sleep but to try G a few times, and the effects were reminiscent of benzo relaxation, 3 hrs later i was still relaxed but had no crash from my last meth use, in fact was laughing my ass off like up again and knew what it was, the damn rebound. the effect was so profound, and i knew of this combo for years.... i can explain my pharmacological theory to mr dr "That makes sense" or "I'm on board" and then be good, maybe i wont need as many benzos and G dependency isnt as deadly, plus maybe ill make it with my Rx amp dosages no need to take more....
you know what happens though, but at my disposal is so much at hand plus viagra which i dont need i just say all this shit and my mid age fucks my dick up, so i trade em good rx gold for ice 15 bucks for 30 100mg tabs generic.... worth a g for me. fuck it. good deal, fuck it, even a half g once a month...
then the next appt is when ill drop the bomb if xyrem is obtainable or not, on desoxyn.... keep vyvanse free or zenzedei or dex spansules with a prior auth and or just add 10 to 60 mg of desoxyn and pay out of pocket with gold, then like said above probation cant touch me at all especially if i did 10mg with prior authed vyvanse or dex spansules in the background.... i doubt he would go for 10mg morning desoxyn and 30mg zenzedei or adderall IR bid with xyrem lowered kpin and bid back to 300mg earlier in day of pregabalin.... he may or may not be more strict when he gets his magical dea abilities back... but it does "make sense" and pharmacologically on paper he could tell the fucking DEA why.... i can even go 1mg bid kpin low low low and use rc benzos theinos whatever... the only drop that differentiated benzos what diazepam.... idk why... i do and don;t i mean, i didn't know that jobs checked that far into metabolites of benzos when a rx to kpin (this happened to an ex, i was on kpin with valium) didnt show (which is odd, at 6mg it still barely pops on a stick, 4 or less i look like i am not using them... when in fact i was, and in halfway homes that dont allow benzos, id always use 1mg bid to allow my rx to be used without notice...) but valium differentiated FOR A JOB and she didnt get it due to my valium, but 0.5 xanax or 2mg ativan and ill drop dirty for benzos, hell 5mg valium is not only detectble but distinguishable....
wonder if i used flubro or clam or flualp if theyd differentiate it as well..... ive never seen a positive benzo stick proceed to lab tests with confirmation and distinguination of a different one, such as diazepam which does have many metabolites and would be like librium how it breaks into temazepam lorazepam diazepam which also breaks further into other shit as well.... explains why librium is hypnotic like temazepam... temazepam is the shit, i would only get it once a day however so id love to have 2 30s.... then use as needed maybe make a solution and volumetric dose with ppg or IM IV anything that way too... considered lorazepam for that as well specifically for a solution that could be injected like in the hospital.... its a good sleeper too.... and lorazepam is actually partially water soluble... "makes sense, im definitely on board" lol.
gotta love this dr man hope his little set back has to do with not paying his insurance, they said i could use his associate but he is more stiff and may take shit awayy or lower shit, i am on a LOT of hard drugs... one shrink in a hospital asked if thats not drug abuse they don't know what is... "but im dependent im prescribed i dont need rehab" we all laughed.... 17 this started and im 34 now "makes sense" i worked my way up to all these meds at these dosages.... lol at the makes sense but it does.... half my life. abused, misused, and more recently begun even with meth, use as medicinally/recreational touch a tad bit, benzos i dont abuse anymore at all 3 years now..... learned why, just use em, they work and taper with a dr or the ashton taper method on my own if need be..... wish etizolam was a script here... it should be explored for its less dependency type shit thienodiazepines are well known to maintain effects medicinally without growing tolerance and dependency.... it took heavy etiz dosing to grow a tolerance, wd never happened, i used flutoprazepam a long half lifed benzo to drop off as 2mg resta is 0.4ish kpin ,... i got from japanese pharmacy, coreminal i believe was flutazolam 4mg equal in mg to diazepam.... very short (triazolo) and cheap 100 for 18 bucks, so id use a 10 strip to get a buzz like 40mg diazepam a "bar"s worth on the table....
etizolam though is great even off stims it doesn't make me tired, doesn't make me groggy, shit works 2mg is like 2mg ativan on the table with basically noside effects and is short as shit, id use 20mg a day sometimes.... 2mg every 2 hrs then 5 mg on a rail fat rail of ice after work closed and fell back and chillaxed eventually slept till 3pm woke up (this was iowa wheni had no dr) did a line dropped some etiz 2mgish balanced myself... spaced my meth dosages like it was a TID med with a afterwork kick it dose. id make 5g last 2 weeks and 300mg etiz last with 60 flutoprazepams from japan in blisters... id use that only at night and it would linger iinto morning to avoid any rebound wd from nonstop etizing short half life.... ate slept usually, slept anyway maintained.... worked 50 plus hrs and quit kratom with ice and benzos/theinos...... ive done a good share of RC benzos and im satisfied with my scripts but would rather have etiz if i could and just sell the bars, those bars are very likely to cause dependency easy, i try to prn as low as much as possible.... even 4mg kpin 6mg max MAX kpin a day im generally covered.... its nice to have all 4 scripts plus the lyrica to just have.... i am self diagnosed with partial complex seizures and it stuck and get kpin lyrica combo and it is also psych covered as well so fuck a neurologist.... if it came to it, id say why change what works....
the seizure thing got me botttom bunk in the joint and followed me everywhere till i actually had one one day from wellbutrin, it was definitely something to aide my case of fake disorder, ill get disability for sure, andam the only fucking person in this nursing home on all this shit, they just verified my meds and then one day i said fuck it and asked for lower subs back and sure thing, fuck it..... i just can never go on a pass and take meds with as they wont allow controlleds to leave out the buiding.... if i left id have to save (I have 6mg kpin rn stashed, hell i use less remeron too and lyrica)
in terms of meds it is med time, and speaking of this post, thread, piss time. lol..........
piss... extend the stim,
medicate medline kpin bupe and hope lyrica came today, should have.... had an insurance issue, locked into one pharmacy and now its unlocked..... since we only use omnicare here to get residents bubble packs...
no one here is on the same combo.... the medical dr is my psych dr.. medical trumps psych in a psych nursing home which is odd.... and she hates me i got kicked out for taking amphetamines of the last one, and she worked there too, so she dont see me, i dont need to be seen im good.... i got what i need and dont need to sneak around in their eyes and if i do the cup wont lie.. im clean.... my outside drs meds are waiting for his dea to be back and in action. gotta peeeeee badly this one will taste like coffee.... i cool it with cold water and slam that bitch then go medicate my other meds....
good ranting and pissing yall...
dexies,... loved em 120 isa lot i remember old dr fucked up and doubled to 160mg 4 4x daily, cvs wouldnt fill it thinking it was fake, had to go to walgreens... i said narcolepsy idk "Drs orders"
now at 34 half my life on this shit gets me this shit at insane doses.... legally and im in 2 feet in with the door closed.....
dexies... mmm.. wanna try zenzedei.