Thanks Bill
I love my acid and mdma, but am also not doing that as much as I was... more focused on work than "raves" and festies. I went way too fucking hard last year and fucked up a lot of shit. I really need to go back to college. Other than that, heroin will always be my favorite drug... the way it makes me feel is like nothing else I've ever experienced, but you're right it is boring nodding your ass off and waking up to cigarettes burnt down to the filter. Also I don't miss throwing up everyday all day. I regret trying heroin when I was eighteen. I am now twenty one and time has flown by... I lost out on so much shit because I was always more concerned about getting high on dope. I can't keep doing this..
I'm not going to lie I've been thinking about seeing my "friend" tomorrow and relapsing, but I know I shouldn't. I would feel like an asshole especially after my brother overdosed last night. His heart stopped beating three times apparently. Shits crazy. I also had to witness my mom breakdown and cry over "us kids". I know she wasn't planning to have heroin addicts as children.