Seems like these are the comments of one person and there are allot of people who like and respect you here. Why do you care what other people think about you, your doc, or the manner in which you have decided to address the addiction?
"I feel ASHAMED n HUMILIATED that I couldn't get off codeine n went on suboxone n this is something that bothers me n most people who talk to me know this." Why do you feel ashamed and humiliated at this.. I sure there are more than a few people here on bluelight who couldn't get off codeine so they just went to a stronger opait on their longer more miserable road to the same suboxone your on? What other people say is just their opinion and you know what I say about the opinions of other people.. Fuck Them.
"For the first time yesterday I felt I didn't belong on BL. I felt judged, humiliated, torn apart. It took me months to get to a good place where I was not feeling like a weak person who is laughed at n a complete joke because I could not overcome a weak opiate like codeine."
Why did you choose to think this.. i feel you put way to much emphasis on what drug people are addicted to.. sure codeine may not have as harsh withdrawal as fentanyl or methadone.. but since methadone can have very harsh withdrawal does this mean that people who have kicked methadone are superior to people who are having trouble kicking morphine. Addiction is the real battle not a couple of weeks of being sick. When the acutes are over then the real battle begins. I mean the most addictive substances dont really even have severe withdrawal. The psychological battle is the real hard thing to master. And the drug a person is addicted to does not change the underlying toughness of trying to win against addiction. I know some people rase they eyes at a marijuana addiction.. I agree that the likely hood of a person developing a marijuana addiction is much less then other drugs.. but for the people who develop the addiction is just as hard for them to battle it as anything else. Sure they live a higher quality of life generally than a addict of another drug because a marijuana addiction is less devastating to peoples live mostly. But it really doesn't matter what drug got us here.. all that matters is how we are progressing in the recovery we decided was best for us.
Why do you care what other people think about your drug of choice.. why do you care what stupid people say or do.. the world is full of pigs and morons.. they are everywhere and they are always running their mouth.. non stop.. so there is no way to avoid them so if you if you dont want to continue being as slave to what they say and think then you are just going to have to begin to value what you think over what they think. Who knows whats right for you? you do.. who is right about whats right for you, you are... if someone makes a comment or expresses an opinion that you dont share does that make you wrong.. of course not.. do you need everyone to like you.. nope this will never happen. do you need the approval of others to make your ideas and plans right.. fuck no. does what drug you did to get here make anyfucking diffrence.. not unless people are using this as some sorta status symbol... if I were you I would use how your recovery is going and how your life is improving as a status level.
what do you use as a technique of letting things that are out of your control go.. if we are unable to recognize when something is out of our control go then this can cause a whole lot of absolutely useless resentment, anger, anxiety, and frustration. Do you ever identify whether a situation your are in is in your control or not? If a situation isn't in our control then we need to accept the outcome and work on how we perceive the situation as that is in our control.
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.. keep at it this shit is hard but you have come so far and are fighting hard to keep moving forward in this battle. 
