FnX, I wish you well in overcoming your withdrawal experience and well wishes to everyone else too. I am doing okay... I made it over 2 weeks then took 80mg extended release today. My back has been killing me and I haven't had the greatest start to the new year. I wouldn't call it a relapse, I was sick of feeling like shit and I can't afford to have a habit right now so that was it. Paying my bills and important stuff, healthy foods, tea, and stuff before drugs for once. But yeah I got fed up after about 2 and a half weeks that I was still depressed, so I got high. I stopped tripping. I tripped for a really long time. When I stopped, I slept for about an entire day. I have felt fine ever since. Trying to keep positive. My friend from Europe is hanging out with me for a second time today, the first time was the day I got my triple conch piercings. So, that should be really great, I have not been around a friend in about 2 weeks. My brother might be stopping by too, come to think of it. I need good friends around and social support like keeping in touch with and being kind to my brother and sister or I can't get clean, I find. That 80mg extended release floored me, though. It's nice not to feel like shit but I'm not interested in being a junkie anymore. Cold turkey as most of you likely know, is sheer hell - I might start taking 5mg extended release every 12 hours, in fact. That wouldn't be enough for me to notice any sort of high, and then I am taking less than prescribed and it would ease the withdrawals without me noticing, and possible give me a touch of pain relief. It's hard for me to get through as many yoga classes as I'd like to. Well, I am in a lot of pain generally speaking all the time - I guess I'm just used to it by now, so used to it that I forget what it's like to live without chronic pain. The thought of it sounds amazing. I'm limited in what I can do. I think it is a good time to stop psychedelics for a while being the new year and all but I will definitely keep smoking dmt once in a while, whenever my friends want to, really. That one is a splendid experience, and great for times when I'm feeling low. Pretty psyched to see my friend today! Life should get better for me, and my two works friends will be back from vacation soon. That will help, both of them are amazing new friends so I've been missing them. This dude I'm chilling with later today is one of my best friends, all the way back from the highschool stoner forest, skateboard and snowboard crew aight so we're probably going to hit some dmt and well that will be perhaps 30 minutes of our time together. We have conversations that are highly intriguing to each other and we like to hang out just us, we talk about a lot of inside joke type stuff that nobody else but us would get wtf we are talking about. Kind of like how I freestyle rhyme with my other good friend. I'd like a cute girlfriend though :_ (I hope I can get my life together, generally speaking. Was a good time to stop tripping daily. I switched to dabbing shatter so my lungs should clear out all the tar and stuff from the weed smoke, too. And yeah Squeaky dude I was going to say something to ya but now I forget man. Yeah dude cold turkey withdrawal is sheer hell especially in the later stages when the symptoms lessen. At that point it has been going on for so long that I find the body and mind become exhausted and very irritable. I used today out of sheer boredom. I have felt dead inside for over 2 weeks despite being highly active (the withdrawal wasn't THAT bad this time... it has still been sheer hell) - anyways, gonna write in my journal about what a bad idea relapsing would be. I don't consider a single use a relapse. I consider two consecutive days of using a relapse though, personally, as that is what it iakes to give me serious withdrawals to contend with.
