I just know it is over for me, I have way too much going for me right now and far too much to lose. I am really busy building a relationship for my future, she is such an amazing person, and finding a little job somewhere to get going again and pay back the 15 grand I spent on that garbage this year and get out of debt. I have no interest whatsoever in that disgusting fucking filth. It sickens me that people get rich off that shit and they don't see the suffering of millions of people burying their fucking kids. I am just not going to support that or play any part in it whatsoever ever again except help others get off this shit because it's easier than you think it is at first. Don't get me wrong it was hell. I had to torture myself, in the end I was no longer interested in tapering as I would lay in bed 5 days of the week cold turkey sick, then I'd get very high on the weekend and that was my life. It was a total wreck and I literally destroyed everything I had going for me. I hurt so many people without realizing it. It could have ended so much worse though: jail, death, secret coming out, suicide, etc etc etc
Pokemama cold turkeyed as well. It's because the both of us are drug addicts and tapering just wasn't working. A taper should not take very long. If you are continuously taking unstable doses and fucking up, just kick the shit cold turkey. Isn't it worth it to suffer unbearably for 2 or 3 weeks to not require that drug to get out of bed in the morning? I'm honestly against tapering, at least for myself, I tried so many times and it never worked. Just fucking stop taking the pills if you don't want to be any addict. It should be anyone's #1 goal because there is nothing worse than being addicted to this fucking trash. If you want to quit. Get rid of your pills or dope and fucking just ride out the sickness and you'll feel better than you have in years.
If I can do this anyone can. I just know that. But, I really think for a lot of people it HAS to be cold turkey. You are tortured so thoroughly, that going back to it would make you feel so fucking stupid and the memories for me bring me to tears it was so painful and nobody knew. I laid in a basement for a few weeks puking, shitting myself, dry heaving, thrashing around like the fucking exorcist. That's what it took and now I feel great most of the time. I already have a girl and we are completely falling for each other, I will soon have a job. These are things that I cannot have if I want to sniff a disgusting powder up my nose all day that I am so enslaved to that I am physically tortured for weeks on end, completely immobilized if I decide not to take it anymore. Isn't slavery illegal these days? I was a slave. Whoever is responsible for this mass suffering will get what they fucking deserve when the time comes to be judged. You just can't get away with shit like that in this universe. It's disgusting to me now and I used to think I needed it to live.
I highly recommend cold turkey. In my opinion, suboxone and methadone should not even be considered unless you are on the verge of death. People switch between subs and dope all the time, it's almost like a crutch when you don't have any dope. Methadone is an opioid. You are not clean if you are taking it. Just decreasing your chances of dropping dead I guess because at least you know the dose? Fuck rehab too, you need to have access to the drug and decide not to use it and just fight fight fucking fight. By the way I guess these things help people but I'm totally against it. The fastest way to freedom is to cold turkey and believe me if you do that you will think twice about a relapse. You will think 100 times before a relapse, and remember the fucking hell that your life was. Pay the piper. Grow some balls and fucking just stop taking the stupid drugs that are going to kill you if you don't stop. Think I ever thought I'd be sticking needles in my arm when I took that first half of a percocet? I was tapering because I couldn't let the shit go. When I really wanted to quit I simply stopped using, endured the sickness, and now my life is great! Things will only get better too.
Also, just a heads up. If you are a heavy long term user (at least like 3 years on opiates) it's not going to be over in a week. Not even two weeks. I still get physical withdrawals on some days, just not every day. Just the other day for 10 minutes I had to thrash around in bed until everything was soaked in sweat and I was having a hardcore panic attack trying to fucking breathe. I was pretty much beating the shit out of myself as hard as I could leaving bruises just to distract myself. If you really fucked up, you are looking at AT LEAST 6 months to feel like your good old self again for a short acting one like heroin or oxycodone. My friend who is nine months clean still has days that remind him of withdrawal symptoms. It takes, in my opinion, a solid one or two years to get over something like this. It's not like you're sick for 10 days and you're good, but once things get going, you get back up on your feet really fast.
Once you start feeling better after cold turkey - exercise, sex (low testosterone is a huge issue and that fixes it, just have to say it), healthy eating, hydration, just anything good you can do to yourself is going to speed up the process. You can't just sit around, you have to behave in a way that was similar to how you were before you started using. Like a normal, busy human. Just trying to warn people that if you actually want to do this, you're not going to be in the clear in a month, and I know that for myself as well. I have a long way to go but yeah... I feel like you will just know deep down when you're done with the shit. What is it doing for any of you exactly, anyways? I know I sound like a hypocrite but I don't have a single pill in this house let alone fucking dope.