uncle_jocko
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 8, 2018
- Messages
- 55
Hi gang - just thought I'd check in and say hello. Life has been really stressful the past week; and I realize that when I read those words from someone else that I really don't take the time to understand. I really want to honor the stress that you people are going through - it's the real deal. I was doing quite well on 20mg of Percocet last week ... but my job has really taken a lot out of me. In addition, an unexpected guest - and old friend - came over (for what I thought was going to be a day or two), and it turned into a week (he's running some errands right now, but tonight is his last night). In case you haven't guessed, I have the reputation as a "nice guy". I guess I am, in a sense. If someone needs a place to stay when they're near me, my door is open. The thing is, it's hard to keep it together. On top of the tapering (let's face it, 20mgs isn't that much), I have a LOT of anxiety coming up around my new teaching position. It's a promotion, new material to teach, and a bit overwhelming. The idea of coming home to a nice drink and 30 mgs of oxy sounds SOOOO tempting. But I know that will put me right back at square one again. I get worried about the level of anxiety; again, it seems overwhelming. Luckily, my friend will be leaving tomorrow, and I can get back into my routine again. Anyway, I just wanted to check in - probably a rather "boring" share, but I want to keep in touch. Hope everyone is well.