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How are things going for you? I am having bit off a MDMA comedown but nothing that a good cup of coffee and bacon breakfast can't handle.

Thank god for summer. It is always nice to be able to go out for a cigarette without having to think about freezing to death while smoking.

Our cabin neighbours called the police as we were having a threesome with my fiancee and our friend as we were being noisy and they thought that there is some perverted middle aged man humping young girls on their neighbour's yard.

What is wrong with being 27 and 22 year old and looking a bit like teen still.

I am 33 years and I don't consider myself being a middle aged pervert although I have a healthy libido.
 
Hello Zephyr, Hello mr. root. Don't know the fuck you're talking about perverts in the OD thread. They're certainly as welcome here as anyone.

Speaking of perverts, I thought I might get really high and skip the usual (not that usual) porn stuff and just get back into the swing of posting everywhere I can.

Some folks I overheard have already 'shooped or VR-helmeted me fucking any kind of thing a pervert could think of, I'm hoping to get some previews soon.
 
Hello fellow bluelighters. I have been rather misanthropic this year. Kicking opiates for the millionth time and all. I have 5.5 months today, May 15.

I think it is a matter of healthy living at this point. The benzos are unthinkable right now I have a heavy alprazolam habit. I am giving myself at least a year off opiate before beginning to tackle that as I feel that I would eventually reach for opiates for relief.

I was in short acting benzo withdrawal for a week recently. All my connects gone just like that, certainly a synchronicity not in my favour. I managed to stretch my alprazolam supply but it took another week to recover from the stress of that as I felt like I was going to die from a really stupid past mistake. It is summer time here which we really cherish, I can't snowboard anymore because of my back problems, at least for now, I am working on healing myself through hatha and yin yoga.

I find that I get exhausted very easily now, and that the subtle cravings and desire for a line of heroin will likely never go away. I made life a lot harder for myself but if I make it in the end it will be all the better... minus the years of wasted time. When I crave those pebbles of tan #4 and crushing them up that whole ritual, waiting 15 minutes to go from heaven to hell... yeah. Then I remember the hell part very quickly as it was cold turkey and really has not been fun.

I am still not sleeping, wonder if that part ever comes back. I average 4 hours a night so it's not that bad but I find myself seeing stimulants as a tool. I never used to have coffee but do every day now, can't function without it. Did a little coke today I was with my friend and you know when you don't have to pay for it, apart from the crash, well that is hard to pass up. Did a half g I should be good it was very euphoric and mellow. Teeth got numb after a couple minutes. Very pleasurable but with my panic disorder it really isn't my thing for more than the odd binge. A half gram of good stuff will last me a day at least. If only my downer tolerance was like that. It was in the early stages, I needed 2.5mg of oxycodone to get high. That was going up by orders of magnitude I can never go back.

Anyone ever relapse after a really long time I bet it sucks and like I can totally see it happening this is a lifelong thing at this point...
 
ShroomySatori said:
Anyone ever relapse after a really long time I bet it sucks and like I can totally see it happening this is a lifelong thing at this point...
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Definitely a lifelong struggle :/

Not sure what you would consider a really long time but I made it 3 years sober from opioids last time I kicked. Thought I was gonna be in the clear finally... Felt like I could make it the rest of my life after such a long time (mistake). Then I relapsed and have been at it for over three years now. I really need to kick again.

Good luck shroomy. Benzos are a bitch...
 
Thank you I will need it. Good luck kicking again. I consider 3 years to be a long time to be clean. Despite you relapsed that is great. Anyone who kicks dope for that long is a badass. I am just shy of 6 months, and my body is so unstable. I need to be more productive and I really can't see for myself how much better I am because the improvements are more abstract than tangible, like feeling a lot better, but not having a job or social life yet and being frustrated. Do you remember if you don't mind me asking what led to the relapse?

Everywhere I look, like my bank account or residence or just plain life in general, it seems like everything is about to fall apart. I still don't feel right, it is hard to take all this responsibility on. For myself, the cravings have always been impulsive, but subconsciously planned weeks in advance. The cravings are not too much of an issue yet but all it takes is one time.

Alprazolam is definitely not fun to stop, giving myself at least a year of time off opiates before starting that and I have no idea how I'd control panic attacks without it. Tried so many things before that.
 
crazy nate said:
Well today is the day. I guess I'll just try I.M'ing these opana 40mgs, and see what happen's.
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Read some threads on the various Opanas. There is junk in there, you don't want. At the minimum read the inactive ingrediant list and make sure you scrape the outer coating off. Alcohol works, but no water, if thats your thing.
 
Probably quite lucky that there was never oxymorphone around, considering how much I have enjoyed hydromorphone and oxycodone.
 
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ANYWAY: my short but triumphant return and contribution is now over. I have, finally--despite strong efforts by a number of you "friends" to prevent even a single jaw-clench of useful information from ever reaching me--come to an answer that satisfies my simple simple requests, you shitstains.

And I hope it was worth it. Sure as fuck wasn't worth it for me, and I did leave more than once.

Those anonymous agents, possibly here, but I think in fact, all not from here, or formerly of here, who did offer assistance, I am grateful. Thank you. Get in touch if you can.

The rest, don't worry, I'll never be back. If you see me on your circuit, please just keep going, I don't want to play. You never had anything to extort, and you can't extort a suicidal man anyway.
 
Whats up all? I'm TrayBuck been on opiates for 10+ years now.. working on a 220 mg a day methadone habit..
 
Wassup tray, nice to see the old school guys around.

I been clean off opiates for bout 3-4 years now, meths been bout 9 months with about a week lapse.
 
Recently i went to a detox to get off heroin and other opiods and they used Methadone to help with the Withdrawls. The taper was for 5 days. And my opiate habit was pretty significant so it didn't help very much.

Day 1.) 25mg
Day 2.) 20mg
Day 3.) 15mg
Day 4.) 10mg
Day 5.) 5mg

I plan on dosing 8mgs of Suboxone 48 hours after my last Methadone dose. Im hoping that since i havent been using methadone for an extended period that it wont be an issue. I have also been eating tramadol daily to fight back the sickness, will that also pose any risks. I'd really appreciate anyone's advice about what i should do in this situation.
 
I'm doing alright went on a pretty hefty binge but im trying to bounce back up again as quick as possible.

How are you?
 
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