i hope not, and sincerely don't think so.
literally getting lorazepam. i can have xanax or diazepam in the house and don't find them recreational so will only use them when i'm desperate for sleep. i got the chance to get some loraz, and have found it recreational, and therefore abused it. i'm not doing loads, like usually not even more than 1 mg in a day, not every day, and never more than 2. i have absolutely no desire to
i've managed not to b/p for a few weeks, despite having quite a few opportunities. cos i think i did myself some serious damage. i had a bad episode that had me lying in bed in pain for 2 days and have not been right since. i'm scared to it right now, which is not the best reason not to do it. i suspect this sudden inability to b/p probably contributed to the drinking upswing last week come to think of it.
argh that's not a great combo health wise, i'm surprised you managed to stay awake.
i'm honestly scared for you doing smack for a week when you get home. the combination of hard drugs and the possibility of rehab soon is a killer, addiction convinces you to have one last blowout. i don't know how i survived my last week of using. please be careful. check in with your family several times a day. whatever it takes.