Cliffy thanks for that I agree with you completely. Ok so what's more important to society? Keeping people who don't have chronic pain from the freedom to take opiates (and even get addicted to them and occasionally overdose and die), or helping chronic pain patients live normal lives? Prohibition doesn't fucking work anyway! Making them illegal doesn't change shit for people who want to get high except jack up the price and it makes it damn near impossible for people like us to get relief. It's a fucking hypocrisy I've honestly lost faith in society.
The propaganda, scaremongering about 'the devil drug oxycodone' and bullshit like that is fucking garbage. I know a guy indirectly, like a friend of a friend, who died when he SHOT UP oxy while DRUNK. These SCUMBAGS deserve to die for making it impossible for us to get the medicine that we need. Honestly I've tried everything for my back - acupuncture, chiro, cortisone shots and guess what, it's all fucking waste of money pseudo-treatments, an attempt of doctors to try and show that they care, or that they have some reason to deny us opiates. Which are the only thing that has ever worked for me and they work so fucking well. 10mg of oxycodone and I go from being bedridden in agony, to being practically normal and I might even crack a smile!
Pure heroin is the best, I just can't stand the brutal constipation or I'd be on it around the clock. I was incredibly high functioning on that drug, really creative and productive. I could care less if some careless individual decides to kill themselves with it, the drug is inherently harmless... it's the careless individual that causes problems.
All I can say is FUCK the government for putting us through this garbage. And you know what, when you are in this much pain, I don't know about you but I get fucking desperate. Nothing and I mean nothing is going to stop me from giving myself the freedom of mobility, the freedom to get out of bed, the freedom not to suffer. I don't give a FUCK how many doctors think tricyclic antidepressants are the answer because they're not, just what the fuck are they fucking with my serotonin system for? I can't even count on both hands the number of times I have left a doctors office infuriated... and I mean it takes me days to calm down from their ignorant garbage.
The same goes for benzos and panic disorder. I mean, if I ran out I could fucking DIE and they still wouldn't prescribe me enough! I get a measly little xanax a day, which is about a 6th of what I need... LOL.
And you have to lie. It's part of the game. You lie on the opiate abuse screening quiz or whatever. You say you never touched a drug in your life, you don't even drink. You act like you don't even know what a narcotic is. And you NEVER say that they are not working anymore even though it's common sense that tolerance is a huge issue. Like, why the fuck do they prescribe us drugs they know we will get a huge tolerance to and then refuse to even discuss raising the dose? This isn't rocket science. Being dependent on opiates for pain is only a problem if you don't have a doctor who you can be completely honest with and who is willing to prescribe you the medication that you say you need to be out of pain. And if they overprescribe? Guess what. I don't give a FUCK about some asshole who doesn't have chronic pain shooting up heroin for kicks. That should not stop me from getting my meds. And people should be allowed to shoot up whatever the hell they want anyway regardless of the intention, it's just freedom of being able to put what we want in our bodies. And they deny us of that, because they think they know better! LOL suck a dick if you're gonna tell me how to live my life, especially when you have NO IDEA how much my god damned spine screams at me all day every day, I can't even walk without my oxy's but yeah, tricyclic antidepressants are the answer.
Can you believe that one asshole doctor tried to cut me off of benzos and opiates completely, cold turkey, because he said they didn't work? Oh my god, thank christ I have connects or I would have been FUCKED. I hope these doctors get reincarnated as people in excruciating physical pain, they deserve the same bullshit treatment times a million for being such heartless, brainwashed douche bags. It boggles my mind because in my experience, these doctors are actually dumber than cops (I don't mean to be too stereotypical... but seriously most doctors I have known are dumber than the pigs I've kno
Ok and everyone is all about legalizing weed. Ok hold on a second... of course that's common sense... but to expound its medical properties? I don't know about you, but weed just got me high. It actually increased my pain, it's proven medical uses are extremely limited and pretty much subjective. Like it's always some stoner saying I take it for insomnia or whatever? But you say the word 'heroin' and it's taboo, it's like you're an asshole for even mentioning such a thing. Well I'll tell you what it's the best pain med I ever took and it was the happiest I've ever been since I hurt my spine. And I only ever dosed a small, small line when my pain came back. So guess what I'm all for the legalization of heroin, opium, oxycodone, and all opiates / opioids in existence for everyone in the world and especially for anyone who claims to be in chronic pain. It's the choice of the individual and just how is this fucking up society? I'm not even impaired on opiates, I'm energetic and happy. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY OPIATES ARE ILLEGAL, LET ALONE HARD TO GET FOR PEOPLE IN SEVERE CHRONIC PAIN. WHO. GIVES. A. FLYING. FUCK.
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