Okay. I feel WD a bit now (7 days after last intake) and I need to work Wednesday, but it should be ok. If I needed to go to work today I would probably be able.
I'm a bit cold and that's almost all. And not cold like FUCKING COLD NOTHING CAN BE DONE EVEN 60° BATH that I experienced on heroin WD or jumping from 4mg of sub the last time. Mental is 70%, mental was worst yesterday and Friday (I was almost terrorised by the fact I can't begin working at the normal date and fuck another stuff in my life for 2 day and it was, looking at it now, mental symptom of WD (low "head energy", depression) that was coming. Now mental is better but physically it's a bit more shitty, as usual), so I hope everything is in the right track. I hope nothing will get worst.
I don't know if I can sleep correctly as I down 10mg theralene each night in order to be 100% sure to sleep (sleepless night is no1 problem of extended duration WD)
I can still refill if something get bad, but I really would like take this new opportunity (working) to STOP OPIATES INTAKE.
I really hope this time is the good one
aw an emotion
how precious lol was disconnected from them with all these opiates intake
Tomorrow will be the test day, if WD are at same strenght or less it's ball in the park confirmed, or I'm in the shit and work will be a problem wednesday
PS : an advice if you have a light habit and want to take sub for diminished WD : it should work, in this post Ive only done it bad and took to much sub at the end. If you want to avoid strong WD, you can :
- 1 -> test a major dose of sub some hours after your last DOC intake ("major" compared to your addiction), lets say 8mg, then nothing after. The goal is to profit from the long half life and the fact your addiction was light hoping that everything heal with no WD (rationnal abstract : the brain repair at the same speed sub go out of your system.). If I fall back in addiction this will be what I will test. The only difficulty of this method is getting 8mg sub, no more no less. Less : you will perhaps have some symtoms, more : you will binge and make a new problem.
- 2 -> Like Ive done now because of lazyness (didn't want to stop at this moment) : take sub no day by day but each 2 or 3 days. You should be able to do that if your addiction was light before and you want maintenance. There is paper on that on google but that's about doubling the dose in order to take only the other day, what I propose is more light dose each other days, wich should be manageable, and will make you avoid extreme sub withdrawal (this is not something you wan't. If I should re-endure what hapenned 4 month ago, I probably will never stop sub taking. Jumped from 4mg, 2 week with 7h sleep (I downed 30 xanax 0,25 for that night of sleep but I was at the extreme, this was this poor action or hospital for fluid & sleep), 1 month for the head beginning this feeling will not be like that forever, desydrathed, hallucination (probably due to sleepless night), total 1,5 month of horror)