I used methadone from March 2010 until 2 weeks ago. I can't cope with the withdrawal. I am also addicted and tolerant to benzodiazepines, I had been prescribed 4mg clonazepam / day for some time before all this happened. If it's too much reading (I know it is), just skip it and go to questions in bold.
I tapered down but my schedule definitely wasn't perfect. I needed split-dosing because methadone held me for ~16 hours only. I tapered down a bit too fast and spontaneously, one reason for this was doses like 6mg - 4mg didn't help me any more so I rushed (why put more of it if it doesn't help any more?). I will list a few recent weeks to show you how I did it wrong and how I possibly caused myself hell of a withdrawal:
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1. 14mg - 8mg 2. 13mg - 7mg 3. 13mg - 7mg 4. 12mg - 7mg 5. 12mg - 7mg 6. 12mg - 7mg 7. 12mg - 7mg
8. 12mg - 7mg 9. 12mg - 7mg 10. 11mg - 7mg 11. 11mg - 7mg 12. 10mg - 6mg 13. 10mg - 6mg 14. 10mg - 6mg
15. 10mg - 28mg 16. 11mg - 9mg 17. 9.5mg - 0mg 18. 9.5mg - 5mg 19. 9mg - 4.5mg 20. 8mg - 4mg 21. 7mg - 4.5mg
22. 40mg in total 23. 38mg in total 24. 9.5mg - 4mg 25. 8mg - 5mg 26. 7mg - 4.5mg 27. 6mg - 4mg 28. 6mg - 4mg
29. 6mg - 4mg 30. 5mg - 4mg 31. 4mg - 3mg 32. 4mg - off
47. 450mg codeine phosphate intramuscularly
As you see above less than 2 weeks before I tapered off I took 2 "big" doses 2 days in a row, I guess this was the problem. The other mistake is I tapered too fast later. I've got just one week before I have to get back to my university, that's why I wanted it fast, also I jumped off it just like that because I started feeling sick on
day 27.
I didn't go to a psychiatrist until the 7th day of being off. He prescribed me mianserin (30mg before going to bed for 6 days, I should take 30mg in the morning today as he wanted me to go for 60mg / d eventually) and ketoprofen. Mianserin just made me a bit sleepy for like 3 days, that's all, and aches from methadone withdrawal are so strong that ketoprofen doesn't help a bit (it did help in the past when I was off morphine or heroin cold turkey). It was so bad that I called the hospital to find the doctor and he told me not to increase clonazepam from 4mg to 6mg. Well, it's no difference to me, e.g. today I haven't taken clonazepam at all, my addiction lasts 8 years so I don't feel any high from e.g. 20mg, it doesn't make me sleepy or amnesic. It's obvious but I mention it because the increase in daily dose was supposed to be simply psychological.
Yesterday I had a second visit (14th day of being off). Problems? Elevated blood pressure (120/80, my normal BP is 100/70, low), feeling of my heart sky-rocketing (only 72 BPM while lying in bed), terrible sweating (I've never had such a problem with this kicking morphine or heroin cold turkey - 10 days and I could go out; now I have to change my T-shirt every 30 seconds so I wear nothing), feeling cold (no hot or cold flashes, it's a constant feeling), goose bumps, shivers, diarrhoea, insomnia (I sleep 4 hours a day at most and it's usually 2 hours at night and 2 hours on the afternoons from exhaustion), and of course terrible mind-fuck (embarrassing memories from the past, inability to think about the bright future without opioids, I can only think about things connected with my previous lifestyle), panic attacks, anxiety...
I asked the psychiatrist if there is any medication that could decrease sweating and help with my heart (sweating and feeling cold are actually 2 symptoms that I can't take any more, that's why I took 450mg of codeine to chill...), he replied "no". Nonetheless, I told him "well, I won't pretend that I'm as green as grass in this field, I know clonidine is used to help withdrawal symptoms". He said that clonidine is an old drug and nowadays when we have methadone or tramadol, such drugs are very rarely used, besides it could cause bradycardia easily in my case. He asked me if I still have some methadone - he wanted to suggest going back on a low dose if it's so severe - I replied "yes, but I don't want to touch it seeing how I'm freaking now because of it".
I know it's all typical for opioid withdrawal. Yesterday I seemed "happy" when leaving and definitely I was better mentally. But last night was terrible, I woke up at 2 AM and couldn't sleep any more. I was very anxious and nervous. I can't stand being alone all day and that night upset me even more. I just see my mum for like 8 hours. I don't have anyone to open my mouth to and I'm freaking out, minutes are like hours, hours are like weeks, weeks are like months... And I did it, I injected 450mg of codeine intramuscularly at 1 PM, it helped for sweating, I even felt it in in my head but my hands were still cold. Anyway, 1 PM means I don't have much time before withdrawal starts again and I guess I will move back in time. - the question is by how much I extended the withdrawal?
I've got a few questions:
1) By how much could I extend duration of withdrawal?
2) Is it normal that withdrawal from methadone lasts 2-3 weeks (physical part of it) even if one decreases doses? (I know I didn't do it right but I didn't quit cold turkey from e.g. 30mg, right?) I guess the key part here is that I ingested methadone for 2.5 years.
3) It's clear that I can't cope with anxiety and sweating, that means even these 2 things alone will drive me crazy. The psychiatrist said that the withdrawal from methadone can last up to 3 weeks and physical symptoms like feeling cold and sweating will stay for much much longer. This means sooner or later I will take again like a idiot, just what I've done today with codeine.
4) I've been addicted to opioids for 8 years. Is it still possible I can live without substitution? The doctor didn't suggest anything, even temporarily so I can study. And it's clear that even if I hadn't taken codeine today, I wouldn't be in a good shape in a week (on the 25th day of being off methadone).
5) Should I ask for Suboxone? Taking it would guarantee I wouldn't take any opioid agonists, also, buprenorphine never gave me foggy thoughts, to be honest I was more active, more sociable, and less depressed (I don't know if it's mianserin or not, but now I even think about getting morphine and going for the last hit...). Anyway, getting on Suboxone is time-consuming (just like methadone). First, a week on the detox ward to get me on the right dose, and then I would have to collect it every day for like 2-3 months (the act on substitution states that one can't get a 1-week supply right after entering the program).
Should I ask for tramadol taper-down? If he agrees, let him prepare the schedule so nothing goes wrong this time?
Also, there's an extended release medication with dihydrocodeine here but Polish law doesn't state that this medication (or dihydrocodeine itself) can be used for detox / taper-down (it doesn't state that tramadol may be used for detox / taper-down but I know this doctor uses it for taper-downs outside the detox ward, he once prescribed me tramadol starting with 100-100-100-100 but then I had a 200mg morphine / 40mg levorphanol problem so it was useless, now it would seem all right if 450mg of codeine brought me relief for 4-5 hours (I guess, I'm starting to feel cold).
I used Cannabis (Indica) twice a day (once during the day and once at night, otherwise I couldn't fall asleep even with mianserin). Mianserin should be a great drug for opioid withdrawal looking at its action in CNS but it doesn't do much + gives me suicidal thoughts... Antagonism/inverse agonism on some 5-HT receptors could help with the thoughts and eating problems but it doesn't, I feel anorectic and nauseous when I put any kind of food into my mouth, acting on alpha-adrenergic receptors should be calming but it's too weak there. I stopped using Cannabis as I thought there could be rebound effects from smoking twice a day like more perspiration and anxiety (only Cannabis helps me for sweating, it just stops it by reducing anxiety totally). Now I know if I smoked in the morning, I wouldn't inject codeine. It helped me the same way on the 11th day of being off methadone, I calmed down and decided that it would be stupid to take any opioid if I survived 11 days.
Thanks in advance for any reply, this withdrawal is a shock for me and every option seems bad except waiting for the end of it which I'm not capable of (I didn't think much, there was just a thought and there was a codeine shot).