all hail pregabalin
Hey all,
I have a long history of brain problems, I am on a variety of medications , antidepressants, antipsychotics, but still I have anxiety where my limbs shake and I feel physically sick . I've also had restless leg syndrome since I went on SSRIs. The doctors won't give me benzos except fucking lame 2 mg diazepam which does nothing (two, not twenty) . I try not to break down in front of doctors because that would just be weird for them, but they judge that relatively calm me and think I'm like that when I'm at home or when I'm out trying to socialize and trying to get a girlfriend. I was looking for a non addicting benzo, and came to pregabalin. It was expensive as f**k , but I had to get it asap.
First time:
Took 150 mg , waited 30 mins , felt nothing. Took another 150 mg, now it was coming on after about an hour -- my leg became still, and in my chest I felt relief -- usually my head and my chest are doing overtime. Pregabalin erased all of that physical stress inside when you are worried. Then I took another 300 mg , so 600 mg total. At this dose I began to appreciate music... on a different level... it was like, sounds I had not noticed before jumped out of hiding, it was a different level of consciousness, it was still very subtle -- I was still in my right mind (not like on DXM) -- it was pleasant, warm and fuzzy, but not extremely so. There was no intense, orgasmic high as on certain street drugs. I stayed up all night dancing to music, it was like my own one man party! Thanks to pregabalin...
It seems such a friendly drug, with no adverse effects and everything it does is beneficial. The only worrying effect is not being able to walk straight.
Second time:
The next day I took 900 mg. I fell asleep. Damn. I woke up feeling great, a warm pleasant feeling that made me feel love towards other people, want to talk to them. I still couldn't walk straight but I talked to my family in ways I never have done before. THEN, I sat on the couch, after standing up with my head forward, and leaned back, rested my head backwards with my back relatively straight on the back of the couch. I felt an
orgasmic rush through my entire body. I kept my head backwards (as in a hairdresser's hair washing sink) and willed it to continue. I felt if I had positioned myself in a different way, thought different things, etc. , I could have improved the high. The rush had potential to blow me away but it stopped and went away...too soon... I was left thinking, WTF WAS THAT. It was funny because my family had no clue what I just felt, and that I was high off lyrica. It's sort of like being drunk, but clean, yes there is poor walking and blurred vision,, but you are able to act normally and it's not as debilitating as alcohol.
As for talking to strangers, specifically hot girls, I haven't tried it yet. But I will. So far, when I think of doing it, pregabalin will make me feel they are my friends and on my side, instead of my irrational negative automatic thought, that they will hate me or laugh at me or be hostile in any other way. I tried CBT to cure this irrational thought, and have beaten it through sheer audacity in the past, and from experience the vast majority of people (including pretty girls) are friendly, I'd say from the hundreds of people I've talked to, at least 95% of them are nice and friendly, so the thought that xyz group of girls are going to laugh at me or be hostile in any other way, is completely irrational. I feel like I am not 'on their side'. Pregabalin makes me feel like they are already my friends, I just haven't met them yet.
Also, when in bars, I often go into the state of not wanting to talk to anyone, of exhaustion, like emptiness in my chest, I can't talk to anyone else. I just don't get into a talkative state sometimes... What I can say even before trying it out, Pregabalin fills that emptiness, it fills my chest with strength and fuzzy warmth. mmm... Pregabalin makes me talkative, as I said though I have to try it out in the real environment, not just in my house. I will naturally update on this thread, with my findings.
I've just taken 1500 mg a couple hours ago and now shoved 300 mg up my ass. Like butters, 'just slide it up in my anus'.
For anxiety Pregabalin works but in a way different from benzos. I'd say this drug just makes you a bit drunk, not care so much and a but more empathetic. A lot of people have automatic negative thoughts, that the 'world is against' them, which CBT can't solve, not properly. Pregabalin has potential to do just that. Once we realise that we can love eachother, that we ALL can win if we help eachother out, no one has to 'take' anything from anyone and leave others to lose out. Think about a guy and a beautiful girl getting together. The guy thinks he is so lucky to have the girl, he feels he is taking something from her, because having sex with her and loving her feels so good... surely it must cost something... but the girl, she feels the same... she gets so much pleasure from her man ... she feels so much love for him, that she feels she must somehow 'pay' for it one day... But you see, NEITHER of them will lose. BOTH of them win, they get the greatest prize the world has to offer, for absolutely NOTHING. That is LOVE, how we can all help eachother with no one losing out whatsoever.
Can you tell I am high on Pregabalin right now but the above still stands
