I'll have to tell my counsellor at the drugs support place i go to today about my latest intentions regarding kratom; they are to completely 'break the back' of addiction first, so that may mean waiting 2-4 weeks before i use it again. Then i plan to use it occasionally just for treats. I know most people say ex addicts can never do this, but my attitude has changed, it will not do to be an addict, i have to learn again how to live the majority of my life opi sober, but why the fuck should i deny myself an occasional indulgence. Im not a fucking monch or anything. I am a weird/different/unusual person. If any ex addict could break the mould it might be me. I dont mean to sound arrogant, im probably sounding very foolish and in denial. We shall see, i have to try this new strategy. I know that i can stop taking the stuff now, and that the world will not come crashing down when i do.
If i tell my keyworker this she may 'throw me out' as they advocate total abstinance and their services are intended for people who want to work towards total abstinance. It would be very regrettable if i was to get thrown out as i still have a benzo problem, and speaking to my counsellor every week helps me, as well as meeting other drug users who are friendly and supportive, and some other workers i see there. Maybe I'll just have to keep quiet about my sneaky little plan. I prefer total honesty and openess but sometimes you are forced into a corner where you cannot be.
I would keep that to yourself
Many people have this "once an addict, always an addict" view. It is certainly possible to be a kratom "chipper", swampy does it for a start. I used to drink every single night. I drank to get drunk. Not massive quantities, one, maybe 1.5 bottles of wine, I'm a lightweight compared to some, but that's 13 units a day, over four times the government's "safe limit", and I would drink more at the weekend. I don't know if I was addicted, I didn't drink during the day, but for at least 15 years I was inebriated every night, and I "liked a drink". If I was meeting someone, then the pub would be my first choice. I would be uncomfortable without an alcoholic drink. I needed it in social situations, probably self-medicating social anxiety.
Anyway I no longer drink that much, for the last couple of years I've really cut down massively on alcohol. Sure I've been taking plenty other stuff :D But I haven't
missed my previous levels of alcohol use one bit, and I'm quite happy to be alcohol-free for many days in a row. So it seems possible to go from problematic alcohol use to very moderate use.
Opiates and opioids are, of course, a different game, but I wouldn't rule out the possibility that you can do that. I think it would be very important to have something else to keep your mind occupied during your drug-free periods, though. And you'd need to be disciplined. I'm sure some people will say that you're fooling yourself, and they might be right, and I might be fooling you too, and myself, but in my own case, I would be very reluctant to give up my little treats altogether, and if/when I stop using kratom daily I would be planning to do exactly what you're planning. Actually I far prefer poppy tea to kratom, so I can imagine me cutting out the kratom and having a cup of poppy tea on a Friday night or something. Once I get a bit of structure back in my life then I think it'll be doable.
(in many ways but this is likely not the time or place for my drugfuelledfreewomanexpressions 
)![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Saying that I had read this thread in its entirety before ordering. God knows if it will suit me. I have a pretty high tolerance to opiates and to speedy highs..In fact after nearly twenty years of swapping ad changing substances around I am pretty tolerant to many things..with the bizarre exception of Zopliclone (for now)..odd!