Do you pay attention to your dreams?
Last night I had 2 dreams... dreaming is not something that's happened to me for a long time, I presume due to opiate addiction and the fact that I only take enough to keep withdrawals away, rather than really get high, so my mind is always in a pretty dull state.
Anyhow,
the first was a dream where I hooked up with a 13 year old girl . It didn't occur to me that she was young, heck it was a dream and somebody wanted some action... she looked older. It was only afterwards that I wondered.. Anyway this doesnt bother me, one way or the other, but it was the first dream I'd had in a long long time so thought I'd mention it. I was also happy during this dream. something which I'm not very much so in real life.
The second was a 'perfect life' dream. I had a partner, a house, a job, there were no lies in my life, or drugs, I was in a brand new city... I was happy. and when I woke up from this dream I felt that sense of terrible loss that you feel when you have a dream like this.. like look how far I am from ever achieving that, i loved her so much and she doesnt even exist, etc etc. I've always said how much I would hate to live such a dull life, work, buy a house, folliow the pre-cut path.. But then experiencing it in a dream, was it just because it was idealistic? Im not sure that it was - nothing out of the ordinary was happening in the dream, i wasnt rich, didnt have some crazy awesome job, or a way outta my league partner.. it was just.. nice.
Now.. none of that was 'real', but you feel real emotions about it.. you try desperately to go back to sleep to get back to that place... Do you take dreams as a sign that your mind is trying to tell you something? Do you value what happens in your dreams more than how you feel when you're consciously thinking?
Last night I had 2 dreams... dreaming is not something that's happened to me for a long time, I presume due to opiate addiction and the fact that I only take enough to keep withdrawals away, rather than really get high, so my mind is always in a pretty dull state.
Anyhow,
the first was a dream where I hooked up with a 13 year old girl . It didn't occur to me that she was young, heck it was a dream and somebody wanted some action... she looked older. It was only afterwards that I wondered.. Anyway this doesnt bother me, one way or the other, but it was the first dream I'd had in a long long time so thought I'd mention it. I was also happy during this dream. something which I'm not very much so in real life.
The second was a 'perfect life' dream. I had a partner, a house, a job, there were no lies in my life, or drugs, I was in a brand new city... I was happy. and when I woke up from this dream I felt that sense of terrible loss that you feel when you have a dream like this.. like look how far I am from ever achieving that, i loved her so much and she doesnt even exist, etc etc. I've always said how much I would hate to live such a dull life, work, buy a house, folliow the pre-cut path.. But then experiencing it in a dream, was it just because it was idealistic? Im not sure that it was - nothing out of the ordinary was happening in the dream, i wasnt rich, didnt have some crazy awesome job, or a way outta my league partner.. it was just.. nice.
Now.. none of that was 'real', but you feel real emotions about it.. you try desperately to go back to sleep to get back to that place... Do you take dreams as a sign that your mind is trying to tell you something? Do you value what happens in your dreams more than how you feel when you're consciously thinking?