The other night on a combination of MXE, 3-MeO-PCP, and DXM I had an unpleasant vision unlike any I've ever experienced. It was like being gripped by a sudden waking dream, which was focused almost entirely on sensations in my throat of relentlessly expelling chunky gelatinous vomit, and was furthermore tied to somehow reversing time for a split second over and over again while remaining stalled at the same point. It was as though swallowing normally was the arrow of time and this vomiting process metaphysically stuttered its flow so I was swirling in place trapped helplessly within a temporal eddy. I remained stuck in this bizarre tactile vision state for what seemed like perhaps ten minutes,
I can't say I've had THAT experience, but I have had things similar and equally bizarre. I think the word BIZARRE is about as appropriate as it gets when do 3-PCP/MXE/and other things together.
I've had intense psychedelic trips before. Many, in fact. But the warping of space/time and resurrection of memories in full dynamic living, breathing totality have been enough to make me wave the white flag and declare: Life is mysterious and attempting to understand it or process it is far beyond the grasp of the human mind.
Magic exists. There are no limits. NO LIMITS. Take a deep breath and just appreciate the fact that your very presence here is in fact, inexplicable. I would warn people against pushing boundaries too often because it is so intense that it takes a toll on body and mind. If what I'm writing resonates with you - if you've experienced the indescribable and lived and breathed impossible situations - then consider yourself extremely lucky.
I believe we are pushing into realms which we're not ready to handle - I'm speaking for myself here, but also for people who seem to be experiencing miracles and life changing events - and we must ask ourselves: Was I fully present and aware throughout the entirety of that experience? Could I navigate it again WITHOUT the chemical catalysts?
In my case, the answer is NO. I have experienced things that are beyond my comprehension which to this day haunt me and excite me. We're playing with fire, as it seems humans are hard-wired to do, pushing boundaries. But, personally, I've come to a point where I want to step back from this, let the swirling energy settle, and see what remains. I am positive that there IS truth in there, but I personally am not yet complete enough to distinguish what's imagination manifested, what's existing in its own right, what's merely psyche-fireworks, and what deserves to be treated with appropriate respect.
The human mind is extraordinarily complex and capable of generating and manifesting actual circumstances and even entities.
If anything I've written rings a bell, I ask the reader to centre (center) themselves, take a deep breath, and allow the Earth to reveal what is and what's not. Let's slow it down a bit. The very ground underneath us has been witness to many many eras. It is important to 'ground' oneself with the Earth, because this is a time of incredible change and novelty which can easily become overwhelming. If life starts to feel like a cosmic roller-coaster ride which has de-railed, take solace in the solidity of the ground beneath you. Ultimately, it's where we came from. We need to reconnect with our source before we try to go beyond our protective home base.
Just my 2c%)
