I've caused all kinds of havoc hiding things trying to trick myself. Fucking disaster.
I had lots of trouble in the past controlling use of a-PVP, so I'd divide it up into five little bags, and hide them around the place. Problem was, I was using benzos at the same time (to deal with anxiety of heavy PVP use), and I finished all five bags but was absolutely convinced that I'd had only four.
I turned the house upside down for TWO DAYS looking for that bag, refusing to believe it was gone, even though I clearly remember the five spots I'd put them. I swear I turned into Gollum, scrambling, throwing things everywhere, crawling like a crack addict searching the carpet for a bit of rock... I may even have been talking to myself at the time (possibly "where are you my precious?!")
Very shameful to look back on. I realised that hiding shit means it's time to have a good look at your use of a substance and be realistic about it instead of trying to trick yourself because you're out of control.