Glad I found this little (yet growing) forum. I admit that I have not been able to really read over everyone's posts & replies yet. I have a "headache" at the moment after having just spent an OVERKILL length of time trying to just reorganize my classic rock music collection.... including all the right album artwork & "folder" images showing up vista style! - O.C.D.!
But I've been wanting to say "HI" since I discovered this forum earlier today, and I also may have some good stuff worth sharing!
I happen to know Howard Lotsof, or at least I have talked to him on the phone several times since he met my father who is a now retired Clinical Social Worker (M.S.W).
Although my famous friend's health is suddenly not looking very good, which I just learned last weekend on the phone, and he wasnt in a very positive mood & we didnt even talk too long. Honestly, we should all keep him in our prayers....or at least in our positive thoughts! Its actually pretty serious, and we may not have the one who discovered Ibogaine's anti-addictive properties around very much longer. I dont know if anyone else has heard this news or not? I heard it straight from Howard himself just a few days ago, and according to him it is serious.
About ibogaine, I am trying to do it myself. I know a lot about it....since I have been wanting to do it for a long time, and I am now FINALLY getting close to its reality!
I cannot continue taking "Subutex" (Buprenorphine) for the rest of my life and I do not want it anymore at all! I really do want freedom, and personal enlightenment would of course be a wonderful thing as well.
The way I SEE it.....breaking free from "drug addiction" (of any kind) and "personal enlightenment" are both two sides of the same coin! How can they not be totally, intimately 'inter-connected' ........since any addiction is a more than a physical disease of the body, but a disease of entire self, physical, mind & or spirit----- Whatever you choose to call it, its an illness that reaches into one's "deeper inner self" of which the disease is it's probably much more destructive to than we consciously realize. Probably more so than we have any idea!
Its this 'ignorance' in us, of not realizing or recognizing the the full destructive reality that chemical addiction causes deep within us, on mutiple levels...and therefor destroying the fabric of our lives. Often ruining the most important things within our lives---- Relationships with family & loved ones, all being effected and often ruined....becauses the relationship with our own inner- inner self is all screwed up, & out of tune.....making it impossible for us to connect to anyone else in any meaningful way, since we are not connecting with our own inner light or higher self....or (dare i say it?) GOD. Oh no.....whatever deep rooted sense of self & light we had always connected to in various conscious & subconscious ways as a child.....is gone. Those connections are now interupted by a chemical that fools the soul into letting go of the connection of true self & true meaning or inner light.....and distracting us from it long enough for us to lose the ability to easily get it back.........if ever!
All hope seems almost to be completely lost in this MOVIE..........expect for one thing---- IBOGAINE! (like RAMBO!)---The band of 'addictives drugs' thought they had won the battle................ - They thought WRONG. IBOGA! (this film has no yet been rated)
Anyway so....let's say Ibogaine works in an amazing way, which I do believe is more than just chemically...(not simply working purely on just a chemical level). But instead I believe ibogaine must work on deeper "spiritual" level as well.....with powerful visions taking people back to childhood memories, and glimpses of who they once were long ago before they lost sight of that light. So let's suppose ibogaine enables them to re-establish some deep roots of spiritual self---- their real self which they never knew they lost until Ibogaine helps them see,.....and see how drugs caused their view to get hazy.....and then finally blind to who they are truly. Perhaps Ibogaine helps one somehow remember and reconnect to their inner truth & light of which they were once fully *rooted* in-- inside . Now maybe this is what makes it truly "anti-addictive"......and enables them to sort of **SNAP!** back... back to their real truth, enabling them to "grab" onto it inside again! Maybe its the the "personal enlightenment" ITSELF (whether it is a truly 'harsh' awakening or not)....is the "actual" anti-addictive mechanism in ibogaine. ? Ibogaine only helps the person re-connect to what they once lost touch with altogether, but its the individual who makes the real change inside which Ibogaine merely helps make possible. Its up the the person to hang onto that change for as long as they choose!
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BY the way.........NOT EVERYONE's Ibogaine experience is alway ROUGH! There are a good number of reports from people who have had experiences with ibogaine which you might even call GLORIOUS! Not to say they were "EASY" or fun.......but very deeply meaningful and profoundly rewarding! It seems (from people such as like- Dr. Deborah Mash) that it often seems to be those people with the most solid spirituality- belief system going into the Iboga experience as the ones that are most often less grueling and more positive & rewarding, or meaningful!
But there are no solid rules as to what a person's experience will end up being like!
So I think its best to go into it with gratitude and humility! That is my plan.