I got ethylphenidate, running around my brain
vaped diph mixes well with (moderate doses of) vaped ethylphenidate for the kind of high that lasts for days
OK guys I want to stress that this was a very, very, very bad idea. PLEASE NOONE DO THIS. It's wreckless, stupid and very dangerous.
After my last post I got carried away with Eth and got waaaay too high with it, possibly because side-effects such as high blood pressure were masked by the diphenidine. For a couple of days I was like god, the sky was my little blue hat, the earth was my comfy pillow and all the people were put there just for my amusement, so I wouldn't get bored. The world was crystal clear and my mind was racing. I felt invincible. I had some weird ideas like that I should pull out my nails and teeth because they are not needed and that if I do I will become perfect. This made perfect sense at the time. Absolutely no sense of danger. Then, fortunately I was so wired I dropped and broke my glass pipe. I started going to the shop to buy a new one because of the sheer dread of not being able to smoke more Ethylphenidate. I fortunately still had some reason in me and at the last moment before going into the shop I decided to go back to my house and throw the Ethylphenidate away. I've never thrown drugs away before and I thought people who did that were stupid and should just take it easy and use less. But Ethylphenidate is something that no amount of willpower can manage, it's like having an unlimitted supply of crack cocaine to smoke. I am soo glad I threw it away. I went through a breakdown Charlie Sheen style, or like the movie Hurlyburly. The most upsetting thing was I didn't know what I was supposed to feel any more, which eventually made me break into tears.
It's three days later now and I'm still high as fuck but fortunately I at least feel somewhat human again. I have some strong but manageable cravings for it which come and go in waves. When I crave it I get sleepy, obviously from the lack of dopamine. I now take Tyrosine and B12 daily and try to eat healthy and maintain a normal-ish sleep pattern. I lost over 5 kilos of weight in a few days; I was eating just a small salad per day with no dressing, which I had to force myself to eat. No permanent harm was done except I worried a few friends with my behavior. I probably fried more than a few neurons too, but at least I didn't end up in prison or dead, although I'm sure it could have happened.
If my pipe hadn't broke and I had gone on for a few more days I would have been hooked for life, I'm sure. This has almost nothing to do with diphenidine, except maybe that it contributed into me getting carried away with Ethylphenidate.
I never really liked cocaine or ritalin anyway and now I never want to take something similar again. Not because it's bad but because it's so damn good. I threw the diphenidine away too, although I didn't really have to, there was less than half a gram left anyway but at the time I felt it was the right choice. In fact I'm sick of addictive stuff altogether. I learned my lesson. From now on if I want to get super high I'll stick to the psychedelics, thank you very much. I got really scared guys, this stuff is evil. It short-circuits the reward circuitry like it's nobody's business, till very soon (sooner than you think) nothing else in life gives you pleasure besides smoking that shit. I am lucky to be back.
Cocaine used to be the most expensive drug, now its analogues are so potent that they are the cheapest drugs around, and are also perfectly legal at the moment. For the first time in history an average joe like myself can get hold of the equivalent of half a kilo of cocaine in some analogue substance. This calls for some maturity, to know that you should not do it, even though noone is stopping you currently. I do not think anyone has the willpower to control such a powerfull addiction.
So, if you mix diphenidine with other stuff, be careful because it might mask side-effects that you should normally be aware of.