Being a western man of scientific mind I found it awkward and laughable previously, that belief that certain or maybe all psychoactive plants have an entity consciousness inside of them, separate from man.
Now I say after consuming Datura roots & seeds for over 6 months almost daily that Datura certainly is a female entity consciousness that is very manipulative, being such that she can give a man incomprehensible physical power, yet there are many strings attached.
Hello ziggo, I read this and I had to respond. I am saying this out of the utmost and sincerest concern: I really hope that you decide to take a break from the datura for a while to let these experiences sink in, and consider what they really mean to you and just what it is you're saying here from a sober perspective, before deciding whether or not to ultimately continue down this path. While certainly I cannot speak more knowledgeably about your experiences than you can, I feel it would be irresponsible of me not to point out how much of a red flag what you've said here sounds like.
Regardless of how you feel about the recreational effects of datura or deliriants in general, and even if you have decided that the physical risks are worth the rewards you desire, it must also be considered that anticholingercs have been shown to contribute to dementia, and scopolamine itself is actually used to recreate a model of Alzheimer's disease in animals when administered chronically, and recently has been shown to promote similar neural states in humans after acute doses through MRI tests. Therefore, taking it in psychoactive doses on a regular basis for long stretches of time seems as though it would pose a tremendous risk to your psychological health, no matter how you handled the experience in the moment.
This is what gives me so much concern: you introduced yourself as a man of science, claimed to have taken a neurodegenerative drug almost every day for six months, and then went on to describe how it made you realize that the drug contains a living spirit that desires influence over men and can give you incomprehensible power. I'm pretty open to a lot of things that people might call pretty out there, but that specific progression of events screams to me that it is at least as likely compared to everything that you said that you really are just destroying your mind through your regular deliriant use, and that you are getting yourself into a hole that you are just going to have a harder and harder time getting yourself out of it the longer you continue with this behavior.
So, I say again: I really hope you take a break and evaluate this again from a sober perspective, rather than just continuing on like this. It seems like a small price to pay for the wonders you describe if they really are valid, and the best shot you have at saving yourself if they're not.
I guess just listen to your gut to find out if I speak the truth or not. Or... take about 30 seeds with no tolerance and go to sleep, try to become lucid in your dream and then yell out-loud to speak with Datura. Find out on your own this way, but be mindful of the danger of doing such a thing.
Speaking from quite a lot of experience with lucid dreaming, doing this would result in something interesting most of the time regardless of whether or not there's a real spirit involved or if you even involve datura in any way at all. It doesn't really prove anything....