Okay so honestly there really isn't anyway to describe this drug, how it works, and it's effects, because in an attempt to be discernible, it all comes back around to
"that just has to be the t-4." So when it was taken, rather than any kind of increase in emotions there was a heavy zoning. Everything slowed down to a grinding halt.
Time literally went on forever. We listened to alot of bluetech and Ott and Eskmo for the first 4 -6 hours of the trip. During that time, we shared the couches.
I asked Celeste what she was feeling, and she said she was just in absolute tranquility and ecstasy. We pretty much didn't move or speak until like 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
i'd like to say that the first 4 hours of the experience are MARKED, with a somatic ecstasy that i don't feel is easily repeatable with other compounds. Unlike other compounds where the worlds are shared, we were each taken into the Atom Heart mother of ourselves, and there was no way we could "share" the experience outside of physical contact. This compound is one where if you give yourself unto it, and don't occupy your mind with anything other than the fact that you have just taken a compound it will take you very very very deep. When most people take a drug, they are doing it to see more from the world around them an increase in external senses.
t-4 if definitely about the world inside of yourself or an increase of internal sensors. It's one of those things, that if you had taken, the perfect dose, or if you were alone, instead of getting juiced, it's more like being wrapped in all of the greatest aspects of yourself.
Around the 5 hour point, i asked Celeste what she was experiencing with eyes closed. She said, it was like there was a brand new program running inside of herself. But only in the background.
i told her my thoughts during that time were running in a very non congruent pattern. But it was kind of like having the ability to think in absolute free form, how the tail end of one thought immediately using like the last word of the thought, would then evolve into a totally brand new conscious mind frame. then if you can reach the end of that, "bam" upgrade. Like it's really weird stuff... it felt like an SoS machine ... --- ...
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like that is honestly how i felt my thoughts were running if i had to dedicate a path, the tail end of one would begin another one, generally on a totally different field of thought.
yesterday it still felt like the effects were running fairly high in the background. This morning even, before work. Like i still feel as if this compound is working out something or like upgrading my conscious projections.
I kept on taking myself out of the trip by seeing if i could do normal things around the house. I.e. Make toast, grab some juice. This compound gave meaning to my repetitive cyclical actions and made me feel extra happy to be doing so.
around the 7th hour, i started to note an increase in body energy. It felt like a tryptamine buzz in my feet, it honestly felt like the switch from the internal to the external had been flicked.
We watched The Watership Down, got extremely involved with those bunny rabbits, i made some Yaki Soba, and fried some spring rolls.
The whole entire night it was like Celeste was a 5 year old kid, and everything was new and exciting and very emotional. For me, this reminded me of a High dose allylescaline with less Bad physical effects.
The only other compound that i know which can put me into the zone like this, is 4-aco-dmt, but it's spirit, isn't the same as what lies within the t-4. When alexander shulgin said that a truly depressed person would have a hard time with this drug, as they would have no way to get away from it. I totally understand that. He was working in the pharmacology and psychiatry world. If you are dealing with a depressed patient and you have a compound that is going to make them better, the hardest part is convincing them to take the compound, after that it's easy peasey, the doctor guides the trip as much as, the drug guides the soul. t-4 has no manic edge, instead it literally goes in takes everything that is bothering you and obliterates it into something that just no longer exists in that temporal moment in time. There needs to be more research done with this one out of all of the 2c's i've tried. I honestly feel that this one has THE most therapeutic potential.
it's also really hard to report on effects when they are extremely personal. Like you would have to know me to understand what i mean by a few of these. This drug is by far the most up close and personal i've ever been with myself in a very good way. Never got insane visuals. But their geometry is Defiantly different from other visuals that i had. Celeste on the other hand however, was a +++.5 she was robbed of being able to voluntarily do things, thus leaving me to be in control. Like get some water, get a blanket, ect. So i am excited to experiment more with this one, and i think you all should do. But for the variety of feelings that i was getting during the deepest points of this experience.I gotta say i am really happy i havn't done any drugs in a really long time, because there is something so subtle yet, so remarkable about this, that i feel any amount of just general brain numbness due to the use of other compounds leading up to this one, would just over shadow it completely. I feel like i have more i want to say, but i wasn't the one who had the fullest experience. Celeste on the other hand, did, but even she said that the sheer level of personal aspects that changed in a subtle way deep down withinside of herself, are impossible to describe, because it's like trying to examine the neuron that was causing the issue to begin with. It's gone, it's upgraded, the experience totally changed something, Neuroplasticity has now evolved into jiggly and full of juice and the new head doesn't have the vocabulary the old head had.