Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
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- Nov 3, 1999
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But I've come to grips with why I use and after 13 yrs of maintaince I wanted to live drug free...like the "normies".
I don't think you should question why anyone wants off drugs...anymore than someone should question why you need them.
when you say maintenance, do you mean methadone? or just maintenance of the drugs you were using?
I'm 31, so I am not saying I am an old timer but I've been on this opiate train since 18. OC 80's were the beginning of the end. sooner than later it all came to dope. it was a life wasted; time wasted; money wasted; years wasted. since I have ATTEMPTED and have GIVEN UP dope over the last 4 months life has truly changed in every way possible. yes, 4 months seems like nothing but you've read before what I've done and been through.
I just dont want to see people RUSH and make WRONG DECISIONS because they have it in their head that the bupe is SO BAD FOR YOU when in reality it is actually a good drug that will help in many ways other than just keeping you clean and safe from harm.
I've played this game too many times now; I've been on the other side where I laughed at those who used bupe to stay "clean" and saying "bupe is a drug, so youre not clean". times have changed, life has changed, and drug studies have changed. do not be in a rush to get clean, stay clean, and change your life. after all, you were in no rush dig that hole 6 feet down and fall in it over and over again.
I am glad you are fully clean now and things are working out well; but as you said, its been 13 year. there are some on here looking to stop for the first, 2nd, 3rd time. so why rush? let's play this out the right way and make sure it gets done. take your time, be medicated, see your doctor and let them watch/help you though the process.
its just how I have been going about it and how its worked for me.