Okay, tomorrow is the day.
No 41mg of methadone today, I'm enduring this day of no opioid with etizolam and etaqualone, all shit they can't detect olol. But seriously I still feel like shit, I've had diarrhea twice today....for the first time in almost a year (started done in mi oct last year), my musles and bones hurt and I get sick of sleeping it away like that...maybe I shouldnt have forgotten to reload on hydroxyzine...i'll do so before I show up at the hospital again, or maybe not, I don't know. All I know is that I want to have the bupe as fast as possible and this unfortunate encounter with methadone to be over after all it did to me (endocrine system fucking up, water retention, all that at relatively low dosage...never went up 60mg.)
I wonder how much more time I'll be in the hospital bed until they decide to give me the bupe....this is getting really uncomfortable and I wonder how I'll go through the night. I guess mort etaqualone.
At least I'm not too afraid of precipitated wds..i'm a pretty fast metabolizer...i managed to never go upwards 60mg because of being allowed benzos, hydroxyzine, tagamet etc. during treatment and 41 is as low i could go without feeling absolutely nothign from the done.
And I forgot to mention to my previous detractors....it's been 46 hours without anything right now....I'll have waited more than I previously said, especially the fast metabolizing taken into action...basically at 6-7pm i didn't feel anything I took at 8 am, so 41mg lasted me 12 hours at best.
Now Subxone doesn't have generics here yet, it's a pretty new med (3-4 years give or take), brand name, superior as the usual right ? I won't have to pay for them because docs can put a special code to the script and I'm all good.
I just want to be next week, with my 7 pills a week (i'll have my last priviledge then) and for this painful sleeplessness to go away (ate 350mg etaqualone + 4mg xanax + unknown eyeballed etizolam dose (my scale goes to 10mg..i do what i can with that).
I just want to collapse and wake up next week this is unwidstandanble.