I've been taking recreational drugs for years and never had a problem before. Took a 3 year break and thought about a month ago it would be a good idea enjoying some MDMA for the last time as I'm now getting older and have more responsibilities etc. What a mistake that was...
I got it from a trusted source and it was in pale yellowish crystal form. I've never seen it like that before but didn't really think twice. Divided it up into 5 equal parts and took the first 200mg. Waited for the all too familiar feeling of pleasant fuckedness, only to be greeted by an uncomfortable speedy trip that wasn't euphoric in the least. I've always had a tolerance to drugs so within 6 hours I finished the gram, hoping in taking bigger doses I would finally get to enjoy the trip. It never came...
Then the trouble started. Head pressure. Anxiety. Brain zaps. A feeling of disconnect and uncomfortability. Lack of concentration. But worst of all, DEPRESSION! Something I've never experienced before. It lasted for days, something that's completely foreign to me. I never had comedowns, and if I had, it would be gone in hours or maybe a day. When I got to day 7 I felt the worst yet. It got so bad I thought I was going to lose my fucking mind. Luckily I'm a strong minded person and knew I had to ride it out... that is until I did some research about long MDMA comedowns and saw that some people got it for months/years. FML!!! I nearly crapped my pants.
Then I realized I had some cannabis oil left and decided to take some in case it would take the edge off. What a lifesaver that was! Bizarrely enough the next morning I felt noticeably better for the first time so I took some again that night, and the morning after that I was back to normal. I've never been so relieved in my life feeling like myself again. I'm not sure if the cannabis oil had anything to do with it, or whether it was coincidence, but I'm a firm believer that there is nothing it can't treat/cure. So for people in my shoes, it might be worth trying it.
And can I just say, I have the world's sympathy for anyone in my shoes. Especially those who go through this for much longer periods. Nothing in life really phases me, but this nearly broke me. And I had it for only 9 days.
Safe to say the shit I took doesn't even resemble the MDMA I took in the good old days, so that's it for me.
I got it from a trusted source and it was in pale yellowish crystal form. I've never seen it like that before but didn't really think twice. Divided it up into 5 equal parts and took the first 200mg. Waited for the all too familiar feeling of pleasant fuckedness, only to be greeted by an uncomfortable speedy trip that wasn't euphoric in the least. I've always had a tolerance to drugs so within 6 hours I finished the gram, hoping in taking bigger doses I would finally get to enjoy the trip. It never came...
Then the trouble started. Head pressure. Anxiety. Brain zaps. A feeling of disconnect and uncomfortability. Lack of concentration. But worst of all, DEPRESSION! Something I've never experienced before. It lasted for days, something that's completely foreign to me. I never had comedowns, and if I had, it would be gone in hours or maybe a day. When I got to day 7 I felt the worst yet. It got so bad I thought I was going to lose my fucking mind. Luckily I'm a strong minded person and knew I had to ride it out... that is until I did some research about long MDMA comedowns and saw that some people got it for months/years. FML!!! I nearly crapped my pants.
Then I realized I had some cannabis oil left and decided to take some in case it would take the edge off. What a lifesaver that was! Bizarrely enough the next morning I felt noticeably better for the first time so I took some again that night, and the morning after that I was back to normal. I've never been so relieved in my life feeling like myself again. I'm not sure if the cannabis oil had anything to do with it, or whether it was coincidence, but I'm a firm believer that there is nothing it can't treat/cure. So for people in my shoes, it might be worth trying it.
And can I just say, I have the world's sympathy for anyone in my shoes. Especially those who go through this for much longer periods. Nothing in life really phases me, but this nearly broke me. And I had it for only 9 days.
Safe to say the shit I took doesn't even resemble the MDMA I took in the good old days, so that's it for me.
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