Reading this thread scares the crap out of me. Because EVERY SINGLE PERSON thinks THEY are going to be the one that can stick to the rules/schedule they put in place. And most people who think that, don?t. More than most, I?d say almost all the people that think they can stick to a schedule end up addicted if they don?t stop all together.
This is true. Addiction is a disease and not something you can just exert willpower over. The first times a person uses something as habit forming as heroin, they are likely in control, and further usage is something they choose. However, once you become addicted, your brain is now rewired to the substance, and you cannot just will your way out of all of addiction or the success rates wouldn't be so low.
I have used all of the common drugs, and some more esoteric ones, and to most of these drugs, I did not develop dependence or addiction. Opiates are special to me, and I fell in love the first time I got high. There is no high without an equal low. Remember you can't get something for nothing. There is a cost to being high.
I would personally recommend you find another source of enjoyment in life. Heroin will not solve any problems for you, but it will rule your life and reduce you to nothing. Take it from the people that got there. Once you are addicted, say goodbye to regular life.
No one wants to tell you they told you so, bro...we are here to help people.