x2stpsfrmnowhere said:
Man I have so many Q's. Are your eyes open when it happens?
For me, this is something I can't discern, although during most of my episodes, I am in the room that I was sleeping in, and the detail is extremely accurate, so I believe that for some of my episodes, my eyes are open and taking in some sort of outside stimulus. Other episodes feature completely immersive hallucinations, although my eyes may be open during this too. I can't tell.
x2stpsfrmnowhere said:
How long has it been happening? How old were you when it first happened?
It started two or three years ago. It happens perhaps a few times a month for me, but for some, it can happen every night, or extremely rarely. Statistically, they say most people experience SP at least once or twice in their lifetime.
x2stpsfrmnowhere said:
Why do you get scared or anxious if you know what it is and that it might happen?
For me, it doesn't frighten me anymore, although there was one night in which I tried to get to sleep several times, and every time I would drift into sleep, I would just drift into SP and this irritated me. Each experience is naturally different, and I can understand how people can be anxious about this.
x2stpsfrmnowhere said:
Is it the same thing as when your waking up and still half awake half asleep and can't move or is this limited only to before you fall asleep?
It is the same thing. I've experienced both, although the waking-up version is far more common for me. Both version produce the same hypnagogic hallucinations and temporary paralysis. Upon full waking, I usually have a pins-and-needles effect sporadically around my body that disappates quickly.
For me, most of my experiences are neither good nor bad, but just weird. Sometimes, if I am aware that I am experiencing SP during an episode, I can shape the experience by attempting to move around in certain ways or intensely focusing on certain thoughts. In this regard, it's almost like a psychedelic experience. I usually am more entertained by SP now than scared by it.
My most recent experience: I was slowly waking up, and I saw my bed, but suddenly, the image of reality (and it was reality, it was extremely lucid, and I'm mostly convinced that I was partially seeing the waking world when it was "pre-empted" by SP) slowly faded into the backseat of a van, and the van was driving through a canyon, without anyone in the driver's seat. I felt a bizarre sensation, as if the air pressure in the van dramatically increased beyond comfortability, and I could not move. I heard a voice vividly whisper in my ear, "Slow down, slow down, slow down..." as the car accelerated. Everything slowly faded into the waking world; the sound of the voice slowly faded into the sound of my apartment air conditioner. I couldn't move right away but I quickly regained feeling in my body, with a slight residual tingling sensation that faded gradually.