Maybe not visuals as such in the standard sense. Possibly either real vision or a projection from your own imagination and past.
I forsure am taking notes. I have an outfit ready that abandons my normal dark attire, bright shirt comfortable clothes, all chores are done. I need a shower and one last smoke of weed so that it has time to wear off cause I’m not trying push this. Just gauge the potency, learn and grow from whatever comes. I have a piece of paper, in front of me with 6 positive words I wanna gain. But I keep meditating and thinking about the word peace. I’m ready to meet the shadow If he wants to talk and I have klonopin just in case but I think it’s time I’ve waited and prepped as much as I can, to the point of over analyzing. It’s time to let go, I have a loved one around. I wouldn’t say I’m as happy as I could be but I won’t dwell I have to let go and let grow. Thank you trip you giving me good vibes for this. I’ll definitely try to take as much notes as I can I’ll need y’all’s help interpreting. I know I got this one of my first experiences was 10-14 grams can’t remember. I made it and other then weird feelings I’m not use to I wasn’t paranoid, I’m looking at it like this. I’m taking a substance to learn, my body will do the rest I just have to accept it. Atleast with one gram i can find out if this is for me or not. I keep thinking of laughter and happiness. And I’m looking forward to the after part where creativity and openness is boosted. I think things are as they should be I just need to jump from the plane.
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My ego is holding on too much, I know exactly what to do the days have been about as good as they can get, yet I remain stuck in this frame of mind that keeps reminding me remember last times. I’ve always overdone it and this literally is the smallest dose I have ever taken, yet is the most significant. I don’t know if I will or I won’t. I keep saying well if I have already tripped hard before what’s the point now. Mainly when I smoke marijuana, I get an on edge rush and it deters me from taking mushrooms, currently trying to curtail my oxy, kratom and weed usage.. as I’m really not trying to influence anything. Does anyone else find this the same, especially after your first trip that certain amounts of marijuana can induce the same feelings of come ups of marijuana. It’s strange it’s been 10 years since my last experience yet I can associate it with my trips before. I’m wondering if klonopin would help me ease into my first experience. And If so I have to increase the dosage. I don’t wanna blunt it just be ok with psychedelics and not so scared of them. I feel good regardless I’ve got until pretty much 6 pm to take it so I can have a trip sitter to watch over it they have to go to work. And I’m afraid to try it without them and I know this is all my ego and that’s all it’s not even fear it’s my ego wanting to remain in tact and stuck in its ways and I don’t want that I’m tired of living a mundane life cause of my fears and insecurities, I’m tired of no peace I just keep thinking about thoughts that make me happy and I’m loading up on green tea and triple calm magnesium just in the off chance I’m ok. Would you refrain from a klonopin mushroom combo guys if I can’t do it any other way. Maybe .5mg to a gram of shrooms ? Or would that blunt it too much ?THIS!!
Good insights, just trust and it will be rad! If not, ride it out for 90 minutes and the peak will be over and you’ll be down too soon anyway. But it will be fine, and better than fine. Just enjoy
Well I got enough to do all of it, but I’m probably going try small 1 g dose just to see where my heads at, worst case scenario it’s as much as an edible I got klonopin to kill it. I still wanna microdose I just wanna see if it’s of any service wish me luck. LolYes, weed can do that, once a person has taken psychedelic. But it can only go so far.
Maybe you already got the message and for now, maybe it’s time to hang up the phone.
If you’ve already done large doses in the past, you’ll likely not find anything novel in a 1g dose.
So, if it was me in your same boat, I’d maybe split it into 6 - 10 actual microdoses and see how that works during the curtailing of the oxy and kratom.
Maybe there’s someone (other than yourself) who wants to see you get off oxy (or would want to, if they knew), and that can be the reason to dive headfirst into the mushroom, taking on the chin any “punishments” it sees fit to dish your way. It’s in the inevitable comedown and return to normalcy where the strength is gained.
Or, just store them well . . . and wait for another time.
No mines more sorta just the paranoia that Joe Rogan refers to, it actually makes me feel like I need to get my shit together. It’s a waste in itself as I’m smoking just to smoke. Tired of blowing through money with weed and oxy, and I’m not afraid of what I’ll encounter in my consciousness I just only remember the intensity of the dissociation I faced. And a couple times my setting was off, it’s not really like that here. Sometimes things can be annoying or negative but that’s only how I process it, not even hats going on. My SO kept asking if I was going do it yesterday, but I psyched myself out of it and ended up not doing it. I’d just like to revisit them. Now that I’m older, I respect them and I’m generally in a better mind frame then I was as a 17 year old. I do have anxiety but generally only when I’m using other substances does it seem to get out of control as baseline I’m able to control my emotions, bipolar wise I don’t really get manic Thank God. My ego is afraid of what it knows I wanna do it it. I wanna shed myself, I wanna shed the mindset that I’ve had for a while, where depression is all I see and I react in anger and anxiety and drug abuse. I see my opiate usage as an extension of myself, I don’t wanna face my feelings, opiates help so much with that but my dose keeps increasing. I’ve talked with my psychiatrist, confirmed it’s okay with him but we never talked macro doses only micro, I’ve been researching Jung, to understand what my mind my show me as far as psyche, shadow, etc etc. so that I can acknowledge it within the trip and integrate it within my life. I wanna change but it’s like my ego or my shadow has too much control, I can’t tell which cause it just keeps wanting to resort back to numbing instead of exploring. And now I’m debating my dosage.. 1 gram seems enough to see a glow but that’s not what I’m trying to encounter is everything looking fun or maybe I am, maybe I just need a mental break and exploration of who I am cause I’m 29 years old and have no idea what the fuck I want out of life. Such a sad excuse from my dreams as a child.
Do you think lower doses provide this? I would say I’m depressed but I also have racing thoughts that go negative quick. I’m about to say fuck it and take a gram and play the sims. If no one comes by..
Got some of that yesterday. Yogi stress relief. Took a klonopin last night. Hoping that will carry over today yet not blunt my gram
Impossible here, I won’t divulge to much but I’m thinking doses of 2g or higher. There’s always some kinda package arriving but it’s usually dropped at door, if I can avoid a nurse coming by though that would be perfect. Thank you for your response
Yeah they are and I’m having amazing support for it by family, Significant Other, psychiatrist.. it’s almost as if everything is lining up I just gotta take the plunge. I’m not frightened of psychedelics, I just abused them as a teen, which led to experiences I wasn’t mentally, emotionally ready for and it was kinda a waste ideally the best time to trip shouldn’t of been while I was staying in a seedy crack motel, that I got so my PO could verify an address especially 11 grams. But I made it. And i know I’m mentally strong enough to make it through that I can do anything. I have a powerful mindset, it’s almost to powerful I fear making more connections like that with psychedelics cause with my analytical nature seems like that would be idk too much, but regardless i grew these for a reason, and Terrence McKenna claims that if you can successfully grow them you are ready for them, as growing mushrooms teaches you patience cleanliness and attention to detail, I’ll link some of the videos here. If a mod can combine this with my Psychedelic Spiritual Journey thread I think this has became relevant enough to be combined