And write your intentions or goals, or just things you’d like to consider down on an actual piece of paper. Post that on the fridge or other prominent, often seen place in your house. I also sometime put things on there in addition to my goals/stuff to work on - like “cops don’t know you’re here,” “this is your time, enjoy it,” “you took a substance on purpose to alter your thoughts and feelings and it will fade away in a few hours.” Make them relevant to you and your concerns. It’s like a way to show yourself during scary moments that you intended this, or part of this, and that it will wear off soon enough.
The moment I find I’m on the downhill slope and it’s wearing off, I’m a bit relieved (even though I’ve done hundreds of trips).
It’s normal to be nervous, even shows great respect for the compound - just try these little pre-trip notes on the fridge.
And breathe deep and smile. Making it through a difficult trip teaches me the most, even though it sucks at the time.
Seeing those little signposts on the fridge or wall can actually help steer the trip back the way you want it, you being the driver after all, and you’re following your own instructions.
That’s the big one for me - just knowing it’ll be over soon.
Also note that
redosing during the trip has diminishing effects, compared with eating a dose total all at once.
Best of luck with things,
@FuneralFather - let us know how it goes!