I'm very hopeful, I don't want to feel so optimistic to protect myself should something go wrong. I don't think it's the case though. I realize it maybe took almost 2 years and half being totally sober, so that I could feel so confident as I used to be when I needed drugs. Not only to be confident but also to afford nights without sleep followed by long working days, socializing and all the rest. It makes me happy as I can have this palpable feeling that things do get better after all, also with my children and closer relatives.
I really thank Bluelight from the bottom of heart for having given me so much hope, inspiration and, most importantly, the strength throughout these past years when I most needed it to built the confidence I knew I still had it in me, somewhere. I wish I could have been here earlier when I started trying to come off of opiates I needed daily together with all the benzos to get through the day. As I often mention here, there's nothing we can't achieve. We can all stop it when we truly want it regardless of all sadness and depression that comes along after the neverending withdrawals.