Neuroborean
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it happens the same to me.. I remember once writing and enormous wall of text while on a-php and probably that happent to me more than once while on other stims... but... I don't like the kind of stimulation most of them give me, some of them make me feel dumb or brain-dead, like NEP or lately 2-fma. I'm a bit frustrated cause I discovered that I have undiagnosed ADD and I wanted to find something that works for me, 1p-lsd microdoses do work but I feel them too strong for everyday basis. As you said, stims feel forced and don't increase my motivation, I just get hung on whatever I'm doing, preferably the easiest thing like scrolling... like a robot. Shitty drugs.Strangely, drugs like meth have never really given me more "motivation" or really "more energy". Sure they make me awake, but I'm not necessarily alert.
Most of my motivation goes toward sex on meth. lol
The only class of drugs that has ever made me feel like getting up and cleaning or doing responsible chores is opioids. And the energy flows naturally & isn't "forced" like stimulants feel.
In the case of kratom, it helped so much but this last year/months is not doing the same, I'm now tapering to do a loooong t-break, of more than a month. When on the honeymoon and first year I've never felt so RIGHT and normal.. in all my life. I guess the dopamine was flowing properly. Kratom energy and motivation feels not forced at all, is completely all-emcompassing and it seems to come from the deep, so to speak. Never tried other opioids and I prefer it that way.
btw, yohimbe is a great stimulant that is very underrated and most people don't know how to use it. very low doses are the trick, and building a tolerance.