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I think that's a false equivalency. You're correct, there's no convincing evidence that people can choose their sexual orientation

How is it false. A addict (for the want of a better word) are born due to their brains exposure to stress hormones during pre and post natal development. A homosexual becomes gay during pre natal development when their sex and genes sort themselves out. Different mechanism but occurring at the same time to create traits that will be with the individual for the rest of their lives.

but on the other hand there's plenty of convincing evidence that people can change their lives to the point that they no longer require drugs

Sorry but I've not seen any evidence to show that people have "cured" themselves from needing drugs. Some people can stop taking drugs but that's because the inflammation response has dropped below a certain level. Usually by removing themselves from a stressful environment.

But as we know that is a luxury that not many people have.

There is no guarantee that inflammation response will not return during a more stressful periods of one life thus triggering the all encompassing pain that motivates one to take powerful pain killers like heroin.

There is no research that shows once and for that once people have "quit" drugs that they stay sober. There is a huge body of evidence that shows that people stop taking certain drugs in their early twenties only to return to their addict 10, 20 even 30 years later. I remember the senior specialists at a major centre of addiction medicine saying how they used to believe that people would give up (with a little help from rehab/clinics etc taking drugs in their early adulthood and that would be that.

They've now discovered a legion of middle aged people with raging opiate addictions. See doctors hand out opiates like their smarties right. People with the underlying TLR/Inflammation problem are basically getting medicated because they have a "slipped disc" or whatever bullshit they've told a doctor. Of course with all the scrutiny doctors are coming under and a belief by our medical system that drugs are bad (and getting high is evil) there are increasingly larger numbers of older people finding their legal source of opiates drying up thus forcing them to get heroin/black market drugs.

As far as I can see its a struggle. I've gone through periods of sobriety and I can say without a doubt that I was in pain during those times. But its so insidious. I thought I was amazing that I had given up heroin, that all those junkies were weak. Withdrawals, pfft, easy peasy, not wanting to get high 3-6 months later no worries right. But in hindsight things were building up. My anxiety was getting worse, I was depressed, and I was constantly afflicted by small malaise. Sniffles here and there, bone and joint pain, weird stomach issues. Despite a zillion test and doctors visits nothing was ever found.

Working 60-80 hour weeks, having kids, not sleeping more then 4-5 hours a night. Dealing with death, families, money, renovations, fights, and all sorts of stuff saw the stress build up. The moment i took heroin it only just reminded me that I had been carrying a 100 kg of stress on my shoulders.

There are some people I know who have been badly abused throughout their life and I can say without a doubt they are in constant pain. Emotional and physical pain. Even though these people are causing me great cost at the moment and they're unwilling to help themselves I know that they aren't getting high because their lazy ass fuckheads but rather because they're in a lot of pain.

Unfortunately suboxone and methadone don't always itch the scratch that i'm talking about. There is something lacking. And that lacking nature of them is why people end up going back to heroin. Its effect is so encompassing.

What I'm trying to say isn't "man up and deal with it." What I'm trying to say is that there are routes you can take towards changing your internal and external environment, to undo the wiring in your brain which has resulted in emotional pain and to the resulting craving for drugs to dull that discomfort, and then the additional craving for drugs caused by dependence as your body adapts to their presence. Maybe you don't have the strength to deal with the pain you're experiencing here and now, and so you use drugs, and that's your choice, but there's no reason to believe you cannot change yourself and your environment to reduce that pain, reducing and potentially eliminating the need for drugs to numb it.

Do you have any research to back this? Yes the brain grows new neurons and connections but what we're talking about here is TLR4 being activated under the presences of stress hormones, when in normal individuals who aren't prone to drug abuse, their TLR4 does not activate ergo they don't have inflammatory chemicals causing anxiety, depression and outright pain?

I cannot see brain structures formed during the pre-post natal development period somehow being repaired.

I can see you reducing your exposure to stress helping to reduce the levels of cytokines in your body but curing it absolutely. No. I see TLR4 Damaged individuals always needing some sort of "medication".

There's nothing puritan about it, I have no moral objection to drug use. However all drug use comes with a cost - in finance, in physical and mental health, in neurology, in life opportunities and in the continuing dependence they cause. Sometimes that cost is worth it, and when that cost is worth it, by all means, take drugs. But sometimes, especially involving on-going self medication of the sort we're discussing, that cost mounts and the drug use becomes unsustainable.

The subxtext of your posts, and for that matter many others, is this belief that taking a drug daily is somehow wrong. I apologise now if I misread it.

Look in the current regime there are a million bad reasons to keep on taking drugs.

I hear your desire to be free from the negatives caused by the current regime and yes some free will is involved. But my fundamental thesis is even if you can stop taking them for a while, by improving the quality of your life, decreasing stress etc, that is not healing anything.

As the research I've read says your brain is primed for drug addiction. The right circumstances occur and bam you'll be IV'ing heroin in your car parked in a quiet street.

If you truly want be drug free find a drug that will suppress TLR4 function thus preventing the inflammation chemicals to be produced and thus ensuring you won't experience the pain that will motivate your need for pain relief.

In honesty I couldn't say, since I technically haven't been "free of drugs" in over 5 years (if we're counting suboxone maintenance), and not for extended periods of time in closer to 8 or 9 years. But I know other people have done it, I know that over the last few years I have managed to increase my happiness and significantly decrease my need to take drugs to deal with discomfort and pain (emotional and physical) as a result of a concerted effort to discover the source of this discomfort and pain and then discover the means to address it, and I firmly believe that I can continue to do so.

Hopefully I can do this to the point where I have complete control over my drug use and can choose to take them only when the costs associated are minimal or non-existent, but any reduction in my dependence on drugs, and so a reduction in the associated costs, is a victory by my count.

This kinda just reinforces my point. That suboxone / heroin / methadone or whatever the drug is are giving you pain release which is letting you get on with your life. Why do you need such pain relief, because your body & mind is in pain.

The idea of taking an opiate for the rest of my life to treat my physical disability does not phase me.
 
I'm really glad i don't take opiates anymore - especially not in a habitual, daily manner.

You might not have experienced all of problems and complications a physical dependance on opiates can cause, but since i quit i have a really strong immune system, and feel a lot healthier (in various ways) than i did when i was using.

Personally i find the idea that some people need to take opiates (because of some kind of physiological need) very problematic.
While there may be some basis in current medical understandings of addictions to support such a theory, it doesn't take away from the fact that some people want - or need - to break their addiction for the sake of leading the life they want to.

If you've stabilised your use to the point that you are happy being on maintenance - all power to you. That's great, and i'm happy for you.

But given that this thread is for people discussing quitting and tapering, i really cannot agree with you that financial (or legal) issues are the only problem with opiate addiction.

My own history with opiate addiction is one of a long journey (at least, that is how i see it).
When my habit was dominating my thoughts, my time and my life, a lot of things suffered; my physical and emotional health was compromised, and rather than deal with or work to improve emotional shit that was bothering me, i was simply blocking myself off from it.

Saying that i'm glad to not be hooked on those drugs any more isn't any kind of anti-drug statement, but simply stating that i'm proud of what i've been able to achieve, in getting off them.
It is possible, and for those who can achieve it, i think it is worthwhile!

When i have spent time around other drug users - be it socially, in detox or on this forum (!) - a common trait i see with a lot of addicts is indeed pain.
But not all pain is forever, not all pain is untreatable - and in my experience, a lot of psychological pain is difficult to treat or deal with if you are still self-medicating with opiates.

I went through a few years of regular counselling to get to the point that enabled me to really explore the emotional and psychological causes of my addiction.
The first part of the journey was to seek support and discuss my options with a nurse, doctor and social worker at a drug and alcohol treatment centre.
Then i underwent an outpatient detox, and checked in regularly with the health professionals supporting me, and dealt with that.
I then spent several years seeing a clinical psychologist regularly through the same organisation.

Having a history of various depression/anxiety related issues - along with instances of trauma - i had been using to block out a lot of these feelings. While i was on opiates or benzos, there was little to no point in trying to deal with these underlying causes, because they were all but out of reach to me.

Once i kicked opiates, however, i suddenly had do deal with these things without the protective sedation or emotional cushion of the drugs i'd been on.
Emotions were raw, i felt things i hadn't felt in years. At first that sucked - but over time i came to realise that i couldn't make any progress with my mental health issues while i was still dosing on the regular.

After going through detox and lots of counselling, i finally began to be able to trace the underlying causes of my drug use, and address them.
And honestly, i made more progress with my counsellor in a few weeks while "clean" (not on opiates or benzos) than months - even years - when i was using.

If i'd still been on opiates, i wouldn't have been able to do that, to put it simply.

Now, obviously i'm rather fortunate to be in this position - but it took determination and support to get to that point.

Which i guess is what i'm kinda getting towards here. It's all well and good to be happy to remain on your DOC for the rest of your life - that's fine. Your choice, and if it works for you - great.

But given that this thread is devoted to people reducing, tapering and quitting - is it really necessary to throw around words like "puritan" for those wanting to not be stuck in addiction?

I have a pretty good idea of what halif (for one) has been through in his battles with addiction, because we've kept in contact and discussed our relative progress over a period of several years.
The fact that he has "cleaned up" (to use the language of prohibition) and put himself through the ringer in doing so - in order to improve his lot in life - is to me a courageous and inspiring thing.

Yes, his brain may be wired to tell him he needs drugs to cope (after years of doing so) - but that doesn't mean he lacks the autonomy to reject that, fight against it and do what he can to improve his life.

One thing we do seem to know about the human brain is that it is highly adaptable and able to withstand change.
You can train your brain out of "needing" opiates.

I'm really proud of him for doing this, because he's a mate (and a good guy!) and it's always positive to see people you care about doing things to improve their lives - and i offer him nothing but kudos and congratulations.

Not saying that everybody is able, willing or desiring to go down the same path - some people's inclination to take narcotic drugs is stronger than others - but for those of us who do happen to be tapering, quitting or thinking of doing so, i think it is best for all concerned if we offer all the encouragement we can muster.

I don't mean this in the sense that i want to strictly define what this thread should be for - it is for whatever people want it to be for, and we already have the "support forums" section for people seeking help with these things (with corresponding rules as to how such things are discussed). This thread is just a useful point of contact for Aussie/NZ/Asian bluelighters to discuss these things with other in a local way, which i think is especially useful as we - in australia at least - have some different support services available to us than american bluelighters (for instance) do.

But at the same time, i'm a little uneasy with the idea that because you're convinced you're happy to live in active addiction, that it is somehow a biological need or something, and that anyone who develops a habit is the same.

I can tell you from personal experience that this isn't true of everybody - and that i'm really happy to be off that stuff. It held me back in a lot of ways, and i've achieved a lot of things that are important to me since dealing with my addiction.

Each to their own, of course - but i have learned to adapt to life post-opiates, and frankly i wish i'd had the courage to tackle it earlier.

As for halif or anyone else that is seeking support or encouragement in getting off addictive drugs (whether they are opiates, benzos, amphetamine, tobacco, alcohol or whatever else) i wish you all the best, and hope you find positivity encouragement in this thread or elsewhere.
I used to feel like i'd never be free of the monkey on my back - but i did, and i'm really glad about it.
Halif has as well, and i'm really impressed and proud at how hard he worked to be at this point.

Addiction research is a field with many different perspectives within it, and it think from a HR point of view, the best we can do is to support one another's choices regarding maintaining vs quitting, and acknowledging than exceptional people are capable of many exceptional things!
 
How is it false. A addict (for the want of a better word) are born due to their brains exposure to stress hormones during pre and post natal development. A homosexual becomes gay during pre natal development when their sex and genes sort themselves out. Different mechanism but occurring at the same time to create traits that will be with the individual for the rest of their lives.

I think that's a vast oversimplification. There are dozens of factors which go into people's personality traits and subsequent behavior - fetal hormonal exposure is one of them, but it's not the only one. That kind of biological determinism was thrown out the window a long time ago.


Sorry but I've not seen any evidence to show that people have "cured" themselves from needing drugs. Some people can stop taking drugs but that's because the inflammation response has dropped below a certain level. Usually by removing themselves from a stressful environment.

But as we know that is a luxury that not many people have.

There is no guarantee that inflammation response will not return during a more stressful periods of one life thus triggering the all encompassing pain that motivates one to take powerful pain killers like heroin.

There is no research that shows once and for that once people have "quit" drugs that they stay sober. There is a huge body of evidence that shows that people stop taking certain drugs in their early twenties only to return to their addict 10, 20 even 30 years later. I remember the senior specialists at a major centre of addiction medicine saying how they used to believe that people would give up (with a little help from rehab/clinics etc taking drugs in their early adulthood and that would be that.

They've now discovered a legion of middle aged people with raging opiate addictions. See doctors hand out opiates like their smarties right. People with the underlying TLR/Inflammation problem are basically getting medicated because they have a "slipped disc" or whatever bullshit they've told a doctor. Of course with all the scrutiny doctors are coming under and a belief by our medical system that drugs are bad (and getting high is evil) there are increasingly larger numbers of older people finding their legal source of opiates drying up thus forcing them to get heroin/black market drugs.

As far as I can see its a struggle. I've gone through periods of sobriety and I can say without a doubt that I was in pain during those times. But its so insidious. I thought I was amazing that I had given up heroin, that all those junkies were weak. Withdrawals, pfft, easy peasy, not wanting to get high 3-6 months later no worries right. But in hindsight things were building up. My anxiety was getting worse, I was depressed, and I was constantly afflicted by small malaise. Sniffles here and there, bone and joint pain, weird stomach issues. Despite a zillion test and doctors visits nothing was ever found.

Working 60-80 hour weeks, having kids, not sleeping more then 4-5 hours a night. Dealing with death, families, money, renovations, fights, and all sorts of stuff saw the stress build up.
The moment i took heroin it only just reminded me that I had been carrying a 100 kg of stress on my shoulders.

There are some people I know who have been badly abused throughout their life and I can say without a doubt they are in constant pain. Emotional and physical pain. Even though these people are causing me great cost at the moment and they're unwilling to help themselves I know that they aren't getting high because their lazy ass fuckheads but rather because they're in a lot of pain.

Unfortunately suboxone and methadone don't always itch the scratch that i'm talking about. There is something lacking. And that lacking nature of them is why people end up going back to heroin. Its effect is so encompassing.

Look, I'm sorry you're going through all that stuff, it sucks. It really does. But let's be realistic here, anyone would want to self medicate under those circumstances - it would be abnormal in the extreme to not self medicate.

Maybe some people would do so in a less extreme manner than using opiates. They might go for a milder or more socially acceptable drug, or they might use something like gambling, sex, video games or pornography. The determining factor might be stress hormone exposure in utero, but it could just as easily be that they don't have access to heroin, whereas they do have access to weed or booze or porn or slot machines.

I feel that you've got a bit of cognitive dissonance going on here. You blame your addiction on your brain being "primed" for it before birth, but then you point out all of the environmental factors which you admit are huge stressors. Of course you want relief from that stress. That doesn't mean you have a dysfunctional brain, it means you're human.

And while it might be the case that you personally feel that you can't escape your current situation, I think you should maybe do some introspection about the role all of these factors might be playing in your craving for drugs.

Do you have any research to back this? Yes the brain grows new neurons and connections but what we're talking about here is TLR4 being activated under the presences of stress hormones, when in normal individuals who aren't prone to drug abuse, their TLR4 does not activate ergo they don't have inflammatory chemicals causing anxiety, depression and outright pain?

I cannot see brain structures formed during the pre-post natal development period somehow being repaired.

I can see you reducing your exposure to stress helping to reduce the levels of cytokines in your body but curing it absolutely. No. I see TLR4 Damaged individuals always needing some sort of "medication".

I'm not going to go trawling through pubmed looking for studies - the reality is that there are thousands of people out there who were once intensely addicted to drugs but no longer are. That's evidence enough for me. Whatever theories you have backing up your view of addiction as a life sentence, they simply aren't being played out in the real world.

Yes, some people are predisposed, through genetics/hormone exposure/developmental environment, to feeling certain ways (pain, anxiety, depression), and thus predisposed towards using addictive drugs to medicate those feelings, but there are ways of dealing with those feelings which don't involve drugs, and ways of reducing them significantly so that the desire for self medication is less prevalent (of course suffering cannot be eliminated entirely - that's just the human experience).


The subxtext of your posts, and for that matter many others, is this belief that taking a drug daily is somehow wrong. I apologise now if I misread it.

Well that certainly wasn't my intention.

Look in the current regime there are a million bad reasons to keep on taking drugs.

I hear your desire to be free from the negatives caused by the current regime and yes some free will is involved. But my fundamental thesis is even if you can stop taking them for a while, by improving the quality of your life, decreasing stress etc, that is not healing anything.

Firstly, the "current regime" is reality. We have to live in the real world. It's nice to hypothesize about a world where we can walk down the street and buy a week's supply of pharmaceutical heroin from our local chemist, and god knows I've had that fantasy often enough, but that just isn't the way the world is right now. We have to live our lives based on the way things are, not the way we want them to be.

Secondly, the negative effects of drug use aren't entirely caused by prohibition. No drug is without side effects, and those side effects were my initial motivators to start tapering off my maintenance drugs. Maybe there are people out there who can take opiates their whole live and never have problems with inhibited hormone production or gastrointestinal dysfunction, or take benzos their whole life and not have problems with memory and cognition, but I'm not one of them, and I know I'm far from alone in this.

And, of course, there's tolerance. Even if you have access to limitless pharmaceutical heroin, you're eventually going to have to start injecting impractical doses to get any effect. My tolerance increased 10x in the three years of opiate use I had before going into suboxone - what would it have been like in 10 years, or 20?

If you've never done it, I'd recommend reading the book Candy by Luke Davies. I'm not usually a huge fan of junkie lit, but it's a great novel based on the author's own heroin addiction, and provides a fascinating insight into the late 80's/early 90's heroin scene in Australia. More to the point, there's a very interesting segment of the book where, after years of scrounging through petty crime and prostitution to pay for their habits, the protagonist and his wife convince a chemist friend to teach them to cook homebake.

They figure they can maintain indefinitely on an endless supply of pure heroin, and for a while, they do exactly this. But eventually, not only do their veins start to give out under the weight of the constant injections, but their habits mount to the point that they simply can't cook enough in a day to feed it. The whole sequence is an apt and rather poignant demonstration of what actually happens if an addict does arrive in that golden land we so often dream of when broke and hanging out (and for the record, the author has gone sober since the mid 90's, after quitting an 8 year habit).



As the research I've read says your brain is primed for drug addiction. The right circumstances occur and bam you'll be IV'ing heroin in your car parked in a quiet street.

If you truly want be drug free find a drug that will suppress TLR4 function thus preventing the inflammation chemicals to be produced and thus ensuring you won't experience the pain that will motivate your need for pain relief.

Plenty of people have reached the point of being drug free without that. And if you're holding your breath for a life free of pain, you'll be holding it a long time. That isn't going to happen. Not ever. Not if you had the most ideal brain chemistry in the world. Not if you could snap your fingers and reorder your life however you think would make you happiest. Not if you could set up a 24/7 heroin drip.

Not to put too fine a point on it, but all of this deterministic talk of brain chemistry just sounds like a post-hoc way to justify your unhappiness. I'm not trying to pass judgement, there was a very long period in my life when I couldn't imagine living without drugs, and I think I would have loved a neurological hypothesis which validated that feeling.

Or maybe you can't change your life for some bizarre reason, in which case, I feel sorry for you. But plenty of other people have and can, and quite frankly, I feel it's a tad irresponsible of you to run around on a forum where vulnerable people come for advice in dealing with their drug use, telling people their brain is broken and thus there's no reason to strive for anything better.

Let me ask you this - other than medicate with drugs, what have you actually done to try and address the fact that you're so miserable?


This kinda just reinforces my point. That suboxone / heroin / methadone or whatever the drug is are giving you pain release which is letting you get on with your life. Why do you need such pain relief, because your body & mind is in pain.

The idea of taking an opiate for the rest of my life to treat my physical disability does not phase me.

Actually they impede my life at this stage. Tapering is a pain, but not as much of a pain as living with the side effects of being on suboxone and valium constantly. I want my hormone production back to normal so I don't need to supplement my testosterone levels to stay awake more than 8 hours a day, I want to have a GI tract which moves at a regular pace instead of causing constant constipation, fatigue and indigestion, and I want to get the valium-fog out of my mind so I can think clearly. I want to travel without being tied to a chemist, and I want to live a life that isn't knotted to a schedule of popping pills and dissolving yellow plastic goop in my mouth every day.

The only "relief" I get from suboxone is from the withdrawals caused when it starts to wear off. The process is entirely circular. I certainly don't feel any better psychologically than I did without it. As you said, it doesn't "scratch the itch."

It's true that it gave me a mild relief from physical pain and from cravings when I first started taking it (although not so much relief from cravings that I didn't spend the first year on suboxone dropping off constantly to get high), but I've since found better methods of coping with both, and have reduced them to manageable levels. They will, I imagine, return when I finally drop off the suboxone, but with the progress I've already made, I'm confident that in the long run, they can be overcome.

If you're truly happy with a life of self medication, then more power to you I guess, but claiming it's the only way forward for drug addicts is patently false. A brief glimpse at the world is all you need to confirm this - if addiction was a life sentence, there simply wouldn't be the number of people who were once addicted to drugs but now no longer use them that there are.
 
The reason I went on and off on in the past years is that the pain condition that I took them for was severe but I didn't want to get addicted so I would take a month off . And many years before that I had to take them for a while for the same pain condition that improved and then didn't need them for many years .

Thanks for your reply my main pain condition is tolerable now without narcotics. I've actually been on benzos for a year-and-a-half also. You're right the slower the better. Especially since I've been on them for so long now. Doctor suggested going on a low dose of buprenorphine and try a short detox using that.

Most replies and other threads didn't recommend using Bupe for that level of dependency. But I also read that a few people did use buprenorphine to help them come off of 60 or 70 milligrams of hydro. They only took a very low dose of buprenorphine for short period.
 
foreword; i'm enjoying our discussion so don't think i'm getting upset or anything ok, and i hope the same applies to you.

I think that's a vast oversimplification. There are dozens of factors which go into people's personality traits and subsequent behaviour - fetal hormonal exposure is one of them, but it's not the only one. That kind of biological determinism was thrown out the window a long time ago.

No your wrong. The research of Dr Mark Hutchinson and Professor Watkins has proven without a doubt exposure to stress hormones during pre and post natal development is responsible for priming individuals to drug addiction. This research has been independent validated by that of Dr Gabor Maté who has long argued that exposure to stress during pre-natal development causes brains structures to develop differently.

But to clarify this position and the fact that opiate, alcohol and amphetamine addiction appear to have similar causes (considering that their all getting ibudilast trials), and that the withdrawal affects are actually inflammation responses I would direct you to the below which shows this isn't just some made up shit on my part but that some serious research has proven.

Its paradigm shifting:

1. The “Toll” of Opioid-Induced Glial Activation: Improving the Clinical Efficacy of Opioids by Targeting Glia
2. Exploring the Neuroimmunopharmacology of Opioids: An Integrative Review of Mechanisms of Central Immune Signaling and Their Implications for Opioid Analgesia
3. Opioid activation of Toll-Like receptor 4 contributes to drug reinforcement
4. Glia as the “bad guys”: Implications for improving clinical pain control and the clinical utility of opioids
5. Evidence that intrathecal morphine-3-glucuronide may cause pain enhancement via toll-like receptor 4/MD-2 and interleukin-1β

I feel that you've got a bit of cognitive dissonance going on here. You blame your addiction on your brain being "primed" for it before birth, but then you point out all of the environmental factors which you admit are huge stressors. Of course you want relief from that stress. That doesn't mean you have a dysfunctional brain, it means you're human.

Yes i've had stressful moments in my life. What I'm saying is that the stress hormone my body produced, caused my TLR4 to activate at greater levels then if I wasn't afflicted by the deformity that occurred during pre-natal development. Ergo I felt more pain then a normal person which explains why when I used pain killers, the relief was far greater, far more palatable.

And while it might be the case that you personally feel that you can't escape your current situation, I think you should maybe do some introspection about the role all of these factors might be playing in your craving for drugs.

I've escaped that situation long ago. You need to use someone else as an example if you want to go down this path.

I know that when i was in the womb my mother was subject to great stress/terrible events. There is no way I can become "introspective" about those events. Those events literally malformed my glia but I only experinced in a second-hand sort of

I'm not going to go trawling through pubmed looking for studies - the reality is that there are thousands of people out there who were once intensely addicted to drugs but no longer are. That's evidence enough for me. Whatever theories you have backing up your view of addiction as a life sentence, they simply aren't being played out in the real world.

Really? Who, what are their names? Where is the research that shows large scale Large-scale observational epidemiology studies on groups of people who after being rabid junkies have gone on to being clean all their life?

I'm sorry but its not true. Like I said before I was talking to a senior Addiction Medicine specialist who said that they used to believe that but when they started getting people in their 50s and 60s coming for help to treat their addictions they realised the idea that people who have "quit" drugs in their early life were really just ticking timebombs, waiting for a series of terrible events that would see them end up using again.

I suspect another reason is the huge crack down on doctors on prescribing opiates. See in the 60s, 70s, 80s and even 90s doctors would hand out to older patients powerful opiates with little to no regulation or control. This meant that huge swathes of our older population were basically getting cheap subsidised dope.

But with the crack down of the last 16 years, and the death & retirement of the older baby boomer doctors, these older patients are no longer getting access to their legal opiates. Hence why their now swarming drug addiction services.

Yes, some people are predisposed, through genetics/hormone exposure/developmental environment, to feeling certain ways (pain, anxiety, depression), and thus predisposed towards using addictive drugs to medicate those feelings, but there are ways of dealing with those feelings which don't involve drugs, and ways of reducing them significantly so that the desire for self medication is less prevalent (of course suffering cannot be eliminated entirely - that's just the human experience).

So on one hand you accept my argument and then you go, without any evidence to argue that a person can somehow (but you don't describe how) reduce the pain created by inflammation cytokines.

How exactly? Good diet? Exercise?

I think people are deluded into thinking that once they've "quit" using heroin, and gotten past the first 1-5 years that there in the clear. Life I've discovered has an ability to throw at people some fucked up events that make it difficult to eat healthy, exercise regularly and all the other things that you'd imagine might help mitigate your bodies response to inflammation.

But at the end of the day lets not pretend we live in la-la land.

Firstly, the "current regime" is reality. We have to live in the real world. It's nice to hypothesize about a world where we can walk down the street and buy a week's supply of pharmaceutical heroin from our local chemist, and god knows I've had that fantasy often enough, but that just isn't the way the world is right now. We have to live our lives based on the way things are, not the way we want them to be.

Well actually there are several countries that have prescribed heroin, Canada being the latest one. There are also several countries that have either decriminalised or are looking to decriminalise all drugs. Its only a logical step to legalisation/clinic prescribed heroin programs from there.

SO no i don't think its a fantasy to believe that one day legalised heroin will be available in Australia.

Considering we have suboxone and methadone I would argue that we're 1/3 of the way already there.

Secondly, the negative effects of drug use aren't entirely caused by prohibition. No drug is without side effects, and those side effects were my initial motivators to start tapering off my maintenance drugs. Maybe there are people out there who can take opiates their whole live and never have problems with inhibited hormone production or gastrointestinal dysfunction, or take benzos their whole life and not have problems with memory and cognition, but I'm not one of them, and I know I'm far from alone in this.

Ok i never said anything about Benzos but outside of people with Kidney issues opiates are extremely non-toxic. Look at the LD50 50 mg / KG / 10M. Gastro dysfunction as I said boils down to constipation which can be mitigated through all sorts of measures.

And, of course, there's tolerance. Even if you have access to limitless pharmaceutical heroin, you're eventually going to have to start injecting impractical doses to get any effect. My tolerance increased 10x in the three years of opiate use I had before going into suboxone - what would it have been like in 10 years, or 20?

The phase 2 and 2b trials for ibudilast have proven it to be an effective agent in reducing tolerance (which only goes to reinforce my argument that heroin and drug addiction, tolerance and "withdrawals" in general is caused by an inflammation response).

Once ibudilast is available you'll be able to take it with your heroin, which means;

- no more gram a day habits
- being able to quit with little to no opiate induced sickness.
- improved analgesic effect from opiates.

If you've never done it, I'd recommend reading the book Candy by Luke Davies. I'm not usually a huge fan of junkie lit, but it's a great novel based on the author's own heroin addiction, and provides a fascinating insight into the late 80's/early 90's heroin scene in Australia. More to the point, there's a very interesting segment of the book where, after years of scrounging through petty crime and prostitution to pay for their habits, the protagonist and his wife convince a chemist friend to teach them to cook homebake. They figure they can maintain indefinitely on an endless supply of pure heroin, and for a while, they do exactly this. But eventually, not only do their veins start to give out under the weight of the constant injections, but their habits mount to the point that they simply can't cook enough in a day to feed it. The whole sequence is an apt and rather poignant demonstration of what actually happens if an addict does arrive in that golden land we so often dream of when broke and hanging out (and for the record, the author has gone sober since the mid 90's, after quitting an 8 year habit).

I saw the movie.

Only the uneducated who fail to follow appropriate Harm minimisation and IV best practice end up with fucked up veins. There are thousands of people out there who have to inject non narcotic substances. I myself have been using for good on 6 years (like every day) and had only one adverse vein event (which was easily solved by rotating a little earlier then normal). I had several creams that I used that would quickly help heal the wounds.

It takes practice and care. But shit here is the thing. Heroin legally costs like $20 per gram. At that price you could simply drink, snort or shove it up your ass. You don't need to inject it so its a false choice to claim that in a fantasy world of cheap and accessible heroin that a person couldn't use regularly (because their veins would collapse).

My argument as i've expressed else where is that herion would be made available from clinics and approved chemists where patients would be required to be certified on best IV/ROA practices, be required to dose at clinics if they were dysfunctional whilst functional users would get takeways from their clinic/chemist. (just like with suboxone/methadone).

Plenty of people have reached the point of being drug free without that. And if you're holding your breath for a life free of pain, you'll be holding it a long time. That isn't going to happen. Not ever. Not if you had the most ideal brain chemistry in the world. Not if you could snap your fingers and reorder your life however you think would make you happiest. Not if you could set up a 24/7 heroin drip.

huh but that's my point. Without drugs your exposed to pain and stress. The problem is in glia damaged individuals this pain is magnified because your glia and the TLR4 are far more hyperactive when activated. Causing greater levels of cytokines.

Not to put too fine a point on it, but all of this deterministic talk of brain chemistry just sounds like a post-hoc way to justify your unhappiness. I'm not trying to pass judgement, there was a very long period in my life when I couldn't imagine living without drugs, and I think I would have loved a neurological hypothesis which validated that feeling.

Lol

Your choosing to deny science because you think i'm unhappy? How do you know i'm unhappy? Because i worked alot 5 years ago. I like my life. I'm having a good time. Nothing going on here. Really. I've got a good job, pays wells. I work from home 3-4 days a week. I get to see my kids far too much and i've got far too many animals. No one is dying yet and apart from the odd issue no one fights or yells. In fact I barely even fight with the wife these days.

I used an older example to explain the pain and anxiety I used to feel and how that (and I wasn't even using then) it was insanely bad.

Or maybe you can't change your life for some bizarre reason, in which case, I feel sorry for you. But plenty of other people have and can, and quite frankly, I feel it's a tad irresponsible of you to run around on a forum where vulnerable people come for advice in dealing with their drug use, telling people their brain is broken and thus there's no reason to strive for anything better.

No what i get upset about is when people come onto harm minimisation sites and make it sound like the only option is to quit drugs, and that (edit) its all about being "clean".

A drug addict is going to try and get through his or her life without using but considering the fucked up past most of us have had (the ones that have faced physical and sexual abuse) we're fucking sponges of pain. Everyone has their breaking point and when it happens and they end up up using again they'll read your words and think fuck if Crankinit can quit drugs then what sort of person am I who fails.

I read countless stories of people quitting. Shit I was like that 16 years ago. I quit heroin. I said the same words you said crankinit. But I came back to my real wife and it was weird because at the time I didn't even realise how stressed I was.

It was only in retrospect when I had that shot again, thinking that I could control this bucking bronoc, only use once a a fortnight, (and then once a week, and then only weeks, and then only fridays and weekends and so on) that I realised that I had never quit.

Let me ask you this - other than medicate with drugs, what have you actually done to try and address the fact that you're so miserable?

see above.

Actually they impede my life at this stage. Tapering is a pain, but not as much of a pain as living with the side effects of being on suboxone and valium constantly. I want my hormone production back to normal so I don't need to supplement my testosterone levels to stay awake more than 8 hours a day, I want to have a GI tract which moves at a regular pace instead of causing constant constipation, fatigue and indigestion, and I want to get the valium-fog out of my mind so I can think clearly. I want to travel without being tied to a chemist, and I want to live a life that isn't knotted to a schedule of popping pills and dissolving yellow plastic goop in my mouth every day.

I don't have fatigue, indigestion or constipation from suboxone (well my stomach was always pretty slow so its no bother to me). I don't take Benzo's so I really can't comment on that. Re hormones I find the number one issue that dictates hormone levels is physical activity. I like to think i keep myself busy enough. I definitely noticed higher hormone levels when i've been doing a lot of stuff.

The only "relief" I get from suboxone is from the withdrawals caused when it starts to wear off. The process is entirely circular. I certainly don't feel any better psychologically than I did without it. As you said, it doesn't "scratch the itch."

What does suboxone do for me.

- relieves pain and aches. Before I was on daily opiods I was getting regularly aches and pains, colds and sniffles. Not anymore. I still get the odd infection but even my family have noticed that i'm way less sicker then i used to be.
- calmer, happier and less anxiety. I don't lie awake for hours on end fearing a dozen things. I don't get soul destroying panic attacks in public anymore.
- more active, endurance.
- huge reduction in wanting heroin. I'm not distracted all the time wanting it.
- I don't find the taste that awful. As i'm up at 3-4 am (babies do that) I tend to take my dose then, go to sleep to wake up crisp and happy. Taste dissolves away.

There is nothing wrong with suboxone and although its no heroin in today's legal and social environment its an acceptable consolation prize.

It's true that it gave me a mild relief from physical pain and from cravings when I first started taking it (although not so much relief from cravings that I didn't spend the first year on suboxone dropping off constantly to get high), but I've since found better methods of coping with both, and have reduced them to manageable levels. They will, I imagine, return when I finally drop off the suboxone, but with the progress I've already made, I'm confident that in the long run, they can be overcome. If you're truly happy with a life of self medication, then more power to you I guess, but claiming it's the only way forward for drug addicts is patently false. A brief glimpse at the world is all you need to confirm this - if addiction was a life sentence, there simply wouldn't be the number of people who were once addicted to drugs but now no longer use them that there are.

I've used for over 23 years. I've had breaks sure but i've always come back to it. Even when I was confident that i had fixed the issues in my life, made breakthroughs with therapy, and reduced my stress levels. Even when I told people I had quit and that quitting, the withdrawals, the desire to get high was beaten i guess my cockiness came and bit me on my ass.

I only recently stumbled upon the research that I linked above, and its taken me a good 1-2 years to understand a fraction of it. It's clear that the drug addiction world is utterly in the dark to the ramifications of it. Users, doctors and the public seem to want to believe that drug addiction is something that can be solved with gumption and hard work.

There is no care or consideration given to the fact drug addicts are born deformed. I know its a brutal awful truth but if you think a good diet, no stress and exercise is all you need to quit drugs then i'm sorry but your deluding yourself.

No one quits being a drug addict.
 
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Addiction research is a field with many different perspectives within it, and it think from a HR point of view, the best we can do is to support one another's choices regarding maintaining vs quitting, and acknowledging than exceptional people are capable of many exceptional things!

i like that attitude.

I just don't think most people can quit taking opiates. I really think we need to face the reality that the ideal of being clean and drug free is impossible for millions of people who have suffered terrible trauma's throughout their life. Multi-generational abuse.

I can see why my genes have made me predisposed to drug use. My great great grand father was a solider in the polish russian civil war, his sons died in world war 2 at the hands of the nazis. He himself had robbed the family casino and stolen the days take. Only to see his parents die on xmas eve one year after the next (supposedly from shame). He himself gutted himself on xmas eve like 40 years later. He was a violent awful man who beat his family regularly. My grandmother (his daughter) who suffered such terrible abuse obviously went on to wrought some pretty awful stuff on her kids (my mother etc). My grandfather, captured by the nazis, a prisoner of war, went through some awful stuff. And that's just one side of my family.

That sort of shit comes through our genes. Especially how our bodies manage and deal with stress. It affects the fetus in pregnant women and how the brain develops.

Reversing that sort of effect on newborn children isn't simply something that a good diet and exercise ain't going to fix.

This sort of multi-generational abuse thing is why we have such a terrible drinking problem in this country. People are self-medicating. Its so depressing watching people drink themselves away.

I strongly believe though that anti-depressants are bandaids to the true issue. That individuals have "stressed" brains. The TLR4 and other TLR receptors are being improperly activated (like they do in MS but not to the same level). The constant cytokine cocktail, binding to Mu, Ku, and GABA receptors and many other receptors are the reason why we getting anxiety, panic attacks, and depression.

Stop the chemicals attacking these receptors and you won't need anti-depressive agents.

But in the meantime let people get access to in a regulated and controlled means to opiates, or whatever works best for them.

Medicine dictates to people so many drugs when they themselves have such a poor understanding on this stuff.
 
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This thread really does have some food for thought.

I can see excellent points on both sides of the debate.

Surely, as has been previously stated, we can all agree this is a complex issue, an issue that undoubtedly has both physiological and psychological factors.

The information that chugs has presented has solid and importantly, recent scientific facts behind it and in my opinion makes a lot of sense.

However, even assuming some individuals brains can be considerably more prone towards addiction in the end it still comes down to the individual making a choice.

The fact is, as has once again been previously stated human beings are capable of overcoming extreme adversity, it could in fact be argued that the way we deal with the challenges that life throws at us is a critical measure of our character.

Having said that I have been an opioid user now for nearly 23 years and at this time don't feel particularly confident of escaping it's grasp, and for that matter cannot think of more than a couple of the many people I have encountered over those years who have managed to get clean and stay clean.

Even the small number who I know have escaped opioid dependence are now either self medicating on something else, ie pot or piss or both, or they are on anti depressants.
I am currently on suboxone and am not particularly happy with it, I was much happier on methadone and in fact had a productive and good quality of life while on it.


When I consider the information presented by chugs I feel it does apply in my case, heroin seemed to totally fix the social anxieties/insecurities I had and make me feel like a complete person, comfortable in my own skin, methadone had a similar effect to a lesser extent.

Then again I wonder if it is just taking the easy road and justifying me continueing on the program.

I would think that this forum is benefited by having this kind of discussion and that an intelligent person could look at both sides of the debate and make an informed decision regarding their own circumstance.

In conclusion I would firstly say that I definitely agree that the best thing we can do in the interest of hr is help/support/listen to each other regardless of individual opinions as to the factors behind addiction.

Secondly I am strongly of the opinion that the zero tolerance/prohibition policy is a complete failure and one of the best things that could be done to reduce harm to both users of illicit substances and the broader society in general would be a complete reversal of the current policies.
 
I just don't think most people can quit taking opiates
True as that may be for some (not all) people, i think this discussion is getting a bit off track in terms of the purpose this thread serves.

I'm finding this converation interesting, but i wonder if this debate would be more appropriate in its own thread than in the quitting/tapering thread?
It's not about whether or not i agree with you - because, frankly, i disagree with quite a few of your conclusions...but for the purpose this thread serves - allowing people to talk about their plans, their progress, their stategies and their struggles with addiction (in a specifically Australian context - which is relevant because the addiction support in this country is nothing like the situation in - say - the USA) i'm not sure this debate belongs here.

I'd like to hear what other people think about this - but as someone who was addicted to opiates for a decade, and am now clean (never went down the maintenance path - i just didn't want a monkey on my back, so i fought it - and hard as it's been, it's a positive thing i'm proud to have accomplished).
My health was going to shit when i was using - i got sick regularly, my immune system was obviously compromised - and without dope, my body feels like it is so much healthier.
I used to be susceptible to all kinds of illnesses - cold, flu, any ailment that people around me had - i would catch it, and generally quite severely.
The last two times i caught a cold, for instance, were after air travel - and were nearly two years apart.

When i was addicted to opiates, i used to get sick all the time - upwards of 5 colds or flus each winter.

As for my mental health (including my happiness and sense of emotional wellbeing) that's a work in progress; but unlike when i was using - i'm actually making progress!
When i was perpetually opiated, i was cutting off much of my emotional response, which blunted my ability to feel anything properly - good or bad.
Sure, the "lows" are lower, post addiction, the hard times feel harder than they were when i was always stoned - but on the flipside, the good times are better - more joyous and real; and when i was seeing a counsellor, i made more progress in a few months free of opiates and benzos than i did in years of being emotionally cushioned by the hazy embrace of dope.
That emotional cushion is great if you're in pain (emotional or physical) - but i personally am able to enjoy life more without it.
Dissecting and attempting as best i could to deal with the roots of my addiction was all but impossible when i was still using - but once i kicked that habit, my emotions returned in their full spectrum.
Though this was very raw at first, things settled down after the initial shock of feeling things again.

I respect people wanting to do whatever suits them, with regards to addiction - maintenance saves lives, and i fully support it, but it's not the option i ever wanted to take.

What i do take a bit of an issue with is the suggestion that overcoming opiate addiction is impossible for "most" people.
I wouldn't go so far as to say the opposite is true - because addiction is a very complicated issue that has been further complicated by politics, stigma and the "recovery industry".

I respect your opinion and the research you've put into formulating and supporting your argument - but i am a little wary of this debate happening in this thread, whicb is one of the most active in Australian Drug Discussion - and i think very helpful to a lot of people.
By no means am i saying that i consider your opinion unworthy or inappropriate - but i don't want the encouraging nature of this thread to be undermined by a back-and-forth discussion about whether or not it is possible to overcome opiate addiction.

My own experience may be isolated, anecdotal - or whatever - but it's important to me to be able to help support other people through their addiction, through their efforts of recovery - and to acknowledge that an opiate habit is not a lifelong affliction for everybody.
I know enough people that have changed their lives and broken the patterns of addiction, to know that it is absolutely possible - and i like encouraging people to do the same.

While this is not the Sober Living subforum, and i don't want to have any sort of "rules" as to what should and shouldn't be expressed in this thread (outside of the obvious forum guidelines and BLUA) - i do find the idea of opiate addiction being something people can't or don't ever recover from to be a bit out of place in this particular thread.

How would you feel about me starting another thread on this topic, and moving the discussion there?

My intention is not to be critical or dismissive of your argument - i just think it is a bit of an unhelpful tangent, in terms of the support people are often seeking when they post here.
 
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Hi I am a college student and my friends and I have been introduced to many new drugs, however my one friend has gotten addicted to xanax. He takes them and after taking them he just wants more and more and has been taking extremely large doses lately. After a scare with him taking multiple xans without me knowing and then drinking a large amount of alcohol. I was extremely worried for his life and wasn't very informed on xanax and its affects. Now after some research I would like to hear some opinions and suggestions from users/ other people in my situation.

He is not himself when he takes xans and he would like to limit or quit his xanax addiction because it is taking away from his studies and affecting him mentally. Most of his friends are either encouraging him to do more or cutting him off because of how he acts when he is on them. He is one of my best friends and his safety is very important to me.

From what I heard it is dangerous to quit a xanax addiction cold turkey, Please any insight onto how to help him manage/ quit this addiction would be greatly appreciated.
 
Benzos are indeed very dangerous to quit cold-turkey.
Not only physically very risky (seizures, psychosis and all kinds of horrible [and life-threatening] things happen if people addicted to benzos cease using them abruptly, or are cut off from their medication.

Not only this, but benzodiazepine withdrawals are so notoriously unpleasant, that abrupt cessation of their use is often unsuccessful, as the rebound anxiety and other withdrawal symptoms tend to make people want to get back on benzos to counter them.
A slow taper is the safest, most sustainable and successful way to kick a benzo habit.

The best advice to give you (or your friend?) is to seek a medically-supervised taper.
If the xanax is prescribed, they should ask their prescribing doctor for help coming off them safely and with the greatest potential for success.
Generally, the xanax is replaced with a longer-lasting benzodiazepine (such as diazepam) which allows for dose reductions to be carried out with greater ease.
It's not something i would recommend people do without medical assistance/monitoring/supervision - but if your friend does not have any possible access to the required medical help, there are tapering plans which you can follow - such as the Ashton Manual.

i got hooked on a nasty analog of xanax/alprazolam called flubromazolam a few years back.
After it almost destroyed/ended my life (no exaggeration), i spent about a week in a detox clinic, where i was changed over from flubromazolam to diazepam - and they stabilised my dose before dropping it quite sharply.

Because i was under full medical supervision, this was a hell of a lot less scary (and less risky) than trying to detox myself.
The final stages of my detox were done in an outpatient setting - i was scripted diazepam, and the dosage dropped each week - with help from my drug counsellor and a doctor.
Unlike a lot of people, i experienced little to no withdrawals, which was rather amazing.

On the other hand, when i was using stupidly fucked-up amounts of flubromazolam and forgot to take a dose one day, i had a couple of seizures, ended up in an ambulance then spent 3 weeks in hospital because it took the Emergency Dept staff a long time to stabilise me - i was delirious, delusional, psychotic. It was the worst experience of my life.

The in-patient detox, on the other hand, was a breeze compared to that nightmare.

The best advice i can give you (from first-hand experience) is to seek medical advice - preferably from a doctor that specialises in addiction treatment.
For me, the additional support of a psychologist (again, one specialising in addiction counselling) made a huge difference as well.
Most Australians are fortunate enough to have such drug and alcohol services available to us for free (most, but not all - people in rural areas sadly don't have the same access to drug and alcohol treatment centres - and i'm sure the quality and accessibility of these services vary quite a lot from state to state) - but i'm guessing you're not an aussie, jake?

Either way, i wish you all the best.
Benzo addiction is pretty scary - and the sooner you seek treatment (to reduce or completely cease using xanax) the better.

Bluelight has a Recovery Support subforum, which you may find helpful and more informative :)
 
Thanks so much, I will see about the medical help, but I doubt he will want to take part in that. There's a good possibility I might have more questions, so Ill probably leave some updates on how things are going. Thanks again!
 
foreword; i'm enjoying our discussion so don't think i'm getting upset or anything ok, and i hope the same applies to you.

Of course, I love a good debate, and those can only happen with people you disagree with :) But I do understand if the mods are concerned about this dragging the thread off topic, and would be fine with the discussion being moved into a separate venue.



No your wrong. The research of Dr Mark Hutchinson and Professor Watkins has proven without a doubt exposure to stress hormones during pre and post natal development is responsible for priming individuals to drug addiction. This research has been independent validated by that of Dr Gabor Maté who has long argued that exposure to stress during pre-natal development causes brains structures to develop differently.

But to clarify this position and the fact that opiate, alcohol and amphetamine addiction appear to have similar causes (considering that their all getting ibudilast trials), and that the withdrawal affects are actually inflammation responses I would direct you to the below which shows this isn't just some made up shit on my part but that some serious research has proven.

Its paradigm shifting:

1. The “Toll” of Opioid-Induced Glial Activation: Improving the Clinical Efficacy of Opioids by Targeting Glia
2. Exploring the Neuroimmunopharmacology of Opioids: An Integrative Review of Mechanisms of Central Immune Signaling and Their Implications for Opioid Analgesia
3. Opioid activation of Toll-Like receptor 4 contributes to drug reinforcement
4. Glia as the “bad guys”: Implications for improving clinical pain control and the clinical utility of opioids
5. Evidence that intrathecal morphine-3-glucuronide may cause pain enhancement via toll-like receptor 4/MD-2 and interleukin-1β

I'm not disagreeing with any of this, I'm simply saying it's not the only factor. I never disagreed with the idea that some people are "primed" for addiction, just that that "priming" process isn't an unalterable life sentence. And I'm not seeing anything in any of what you link which claims that it is.


Yes i've had stressful moments in my life. What I'm saying is that the stress hormone my body produced, caused my TLR4 to activate at greater levels then if I wasn't afflicted by the deformity that occurred during pre-natal development. Ergo I felt more pain then a normal person which explains why when I used pain killers, the relief was far greater, far more palatable.

Which is, I imagine, the experience for almost every addict out there. It doesn't mean that that they're stuck with the choice of either living in pain or self medicating, that's an absolute false dichotomy.

I've escaped that situation long ago. You need to use someone else as an example if you want to go down this path.

I was just going off what you posted - my impression was that you were discussing more recent events.


Really? Who, what are their names? Where is the research that shows large scale Large-scale observational epidemiology studies on groups of people who after being rabid junkies have gone on to being clean all their life?

To start with, I don't follow the published research to the degree that you do, so I don't have any piles of bookmarked studies to back my points up. I imagine I can look them up if you insist, but I really don't feel that it's necessary. A simple glance at the public sphere will show plenty of people who were once active addicts to the point of severe dysfunction and yet are now no living fulfilling lives without constant self medication. Authors, musicians actors, assorted other celebrities, politicians, harm reduction activists, etc etc, even posters here on bluelight and other HR forums. I'd rather not trot out a "who's who of celebrity junkies," but again, I absolutely can if you want.

rabid junkies have gone on to being clean all their life?

I want to address this point in particular, because it ties into your next few paragraphs - I don't feel that it's necessary for someone to become completely and perpetually "clean" for the pursuit of self improvement via. escaping from addiction to have merit.

What matters is that someone is happy, satisfied and functional. So what if somebody relapses after being sober for a decade or two? That's still a decade or two in which they managed to stay drug-free, and hopefully live a more fulfilling and productive life for it (if they didn't, then that's a whole other issue), and I feel that if someone can stay sober for a decade once, then all that proves is that they can do so again. Relapse happens, that's life, but people can (and do) choose to get up on their feet and keep striving to improve, to become the best possible version of themselves.

The reality is that, especially in our current social setting, increased consumption of opiates (and amphetamines, alcohol, etc. for that matter) is associated with a whole slew of social and psychological dysfunctions and physical ailments. For the majority of people, attempting to reduce their consumption of these substances is going to result in an increased ability to live a fulfilling and meaningful life.

And there are, on the flip side, people who have the exact same problems as addicts - in utero stress hormone exposure, environmental stressors, psychological trauma, physical pain - and yet they never become addicts themselves, even if only because they never have the chance. The connection between these things simply isn't as clear cut and one-way as you're portraying it.

This isn't a moral issue - if someone's optimal state of happiness is genuinely getting high every day, then good for them. But for most people, that simply isn't the case, and addiction is an attempt to self medicate external environmental stressors and internal psychological dysfunction from past trauma. But it isn't the case that drug addiction is the only (or even most effective) way to deal with these.


I'm sorry but its not true. Like I said before I was talking to a senior Addiction Medicine specialist who said that they used to believe that but when they started getting people in their 50s and 60s coming for help to treat their addictions they realised the idea that people who have "quit" drugs in their early life were really just ticking timebombs, waiting for a series of terrible events that would see them end up using again.

I suspect another reason is the huge crack down on doctors on prescribing opiates. See in the 60s, 70s, 80s and even 90s doctors would hand out to older patients powerful opiates with little to no regulation or control. This meant that huge swathes of our older population were basically getting cheap subsidised dope.

But with the crack down of the last 16 years, and the death & retirement of the older baby boomer doctors, these older patients are no longer getting access to their legal opiates. Hence why their now swarming drug addiction services.

See above.

So on one hand you accept my argument and then you go, without any evidence to argue that a person can somehow (but you don't describe how) reduce the pain created by inflammation cytokines.

How exactly? Good diet? Exercise?

I don't know about the specifics of inflammation cytokines, but it's absolutely possible for people to go from a state of active addiction into a state of, if you will, remission.

Diet and exercise would be a great start, but I don't think they would be generally sufficient in themselves. But throw in medication (both in the context of treating psychological ailments and in managing dependence and the withdrawal process), psychotherapy, CBT, the support of people around them, meditation/mindfulness/other self development practices, and, most of all, determination and motivation, and I think they stand a pretty fucking good chance.

I think people are deluded into thinking that once they've "quit" using heroin, and gotten past the first 1-5 years that there in the clear. Life I've discovered has an ability to throw at people some fucked up events that make it difficult to eat healthy, exercise regularly and all the other things that you'd imagine might help mitigate your bodies response to inflammation.

But at the end of the day lets not pretend we live in la-la land.

Again, see above. I would just restate my point that if someone can go 1 - 5 years without heroin once, then they can absolutely do it again. Maybe they'll relapse a few times in their life. Hell, maybe they'll relapse every 5 years like clockwork. But that doesn't mean they should just throw in the towel.


Well actually there are several countries that have prescribed heroin, Canada being the latest one. There are also several countries that have either decriminalised or are looking to decriminalise all drugs. Its only a logical step to legalisation/clinic prescribed heroin programs from there.

SO no i don't think its a fantasy to believe that one day legalised heroin will be available in Australia.

Considering we have suboxone and methadone I would argue that we're 1/3 of the way already there.

I'm aware of the programs you're referring to, and a strong supporter of them. But I think there are two points to be made here.

The first is that no matter how great things might be in Canada (which actually isn't that great - their program is highly limited in scope and they still have a massive problem with addicts using street heroin and illicit pharmaceuticals) or Switzerland (which, from what I can tell, actually is pretty damn great in relative terms, but definitely not perfect), or wherever else, we're not talking about those places.

"Well, some addicts have access to legal heroin in some other countries, and it will probably happen here too in the next few decades if the current trend continues" is not a satisfactory answer to someone from Australia who comes to this thread (in, you know, the Australian sub-forum) saying "I'm addicted to heroin and it's ruining my life, what do I do?" All it is is an abdication of responsibility.

The second is that still isn't enough for some people. I'm sure there are people who are perfectly happy going to a clinic every day, shooting up, and then going about their life, but that's not the case for everyone. It should absolutely be an option, but it isn't a blanket solution to the issue of opiate addiction (and of course, there's also the issue of addiction to all sorts of other drugs where pharmaceutical supplies or substitutions are even less viable).

The third point I want to touch on is the one Spacejunk articulated earlier in the thread. I can't speak for everyone, obviously, but it's been my experience, and my observation from watching those around me dealing with addiction, that the self medication aspect of addiction has the effect of causing a very real type of arrested development.

For some people it may be the case that the pain which causes them to seek out relief in drug use is simply unalterable, that's an unfortunate fact. But it's also the case that for many people, the pain caused by poor living situations and psychological trauma can be articulated, processed and either eliminated or more effectively managed through a variety of therapeutic modalities.

If someone makes the decision to simply self medicate the surface manifestations of these problems, then they generally do that at the cost of the opportunity to address the root of the issue. And that's their decision, but not everybody is going to choose to simply coast along relying on chemicals to feel comfortable with life, and I think it's important that we acknowledge that it's both possible, and a valid desire, to unwrap the cause of addiction in any given case and address that cause.



Ok i never said anything about Benzos but outside of people with Kidney issues opiates are extremely non-toxic. Look at the LD50 50 mg / KG / 10M. Gastro dysfunction as I said boils down to constipation which can be mitigated through all sorts of measures.

This isn't about toxicity, this is about side effects that many people experience from opioid use even at optimized doses. Your "all sorts of measures" in reality boils down to spending a lot of time and money on imperfect treatments which have to be continually administered and very often come with their own side effects and long term damage. It's just not possible for some people, and it's not desirable, I would imagine, for very many at all.


The phase 2 and 2b trials for ibudilast have proven it to be an effective agent in reducing tolerance (which only goes to reinforce my argument that heroin and drug addiction, tolerance and "withdrawals" in general is caused by an inflammation response).

Once ibudilast is available you'll be able to take it with your heroin, which means;

- no more gram a day habits
- being able to quit with little to no opiate induced sickness.
- improved analgesic effect from opiates.

This sounds more like "la la land" to me.

So we're not only holding out for Australia to institute a Swiss-style heroin clinic program (which still causes severe lifestyle restrictions), we're also holding out for an experimental drug which isn't even available yet to be integrated into the treatment protocol on the hope, based on a few early clinical trials, that it will remove all of the negative effects of opioid dependence and withdrawal without causing yet more problems of it's own?

Look, if that happens, I'll be the first to applaud, but until it does, we have to live in the real world, and in the real world, tolerance exists, withdrawals exist and side effects exist.



I saw the movie.

Only the uneducated who fail to follow appropriate Harm minimisation and IV best practice end up with fucked up veins. There are thousands of people out there who have to inject non narcotic substances. I myself have been using for good on 6 years (like every day) and had only one adverse vein event (which was easily solved by rotating a little earlier then normal). I had several creams that I used that would quickly help heal the wounds.

It takes practice and care. But shit here is the thing. Heroin legally costs like $20 per gram. At that price you could simply drink, snort or shove it up your ass. You don't need to inject it so its a false choice to claim that in a fantasy world of cheap and accessible heroin that a person couldn't use regularly (because their veins would collapse).

My argument as i've expressed else where is that herion would be made available from clinics and approved chemists where patients would be required to be certified on best IV/ROA practices, be required to dose at clinics if they were dysfunctional whilst functional users would get takeways from their clinic/chemist. (just like with suboxone/methadone).

The events I'm describing were cut out of the movie adaption, if I remember correctly, but my point was more related to the tolerance issue than the vein one (although realistically, not everyone is going to practice ideal HR when it comes to veins, and this has to be factored in).

I'd like to reiterate the author as an example of someone who had an extreme heroin addiction and yet managed to cease using the drug and then lead a productive life, because he's an example both of what would be lost (in the form of a gifted author and poet) if everyone gave into the kind of neurochemical determinism you're espousing, and because he's an example of exactly what I've been saying, that there are real people out there who were once severely addicted to drugs, and then managed to escape their addiction without living in constant misery and pain. Even if he relapsed tomorrow, returned to his old lifestyle and never wrote another thing, I'd argue that his literary output during the 20+ years he's spent sober was worth the effort of his ceasing his drug use.



huh but that's my point. Without drugs your exposed to pain and stress. The problem is in glia damaged individuals this pain is magnified because your glia and the TLR4 are far more hyperactive when activated. Causing greater levels of cytokines.

My point is that even if you take varied levels of "glial damage" out of the picture, everyone who exists on this planet experiences suffering, pain and dissatisfaction. It's the human condition. You're over-pathologizing one of the fundamental tenets of reality - that nobody is happy all the time.



Lol

Your choosing to deny science because you think i'm unhappy? How do you know i'm unhappy? Because i worked alot 5 years ago. I like my life. I'm having a good time. Nothing going on here. Really. I've got a good job, pays wells. I work from home 3-4 days a week. I get to see my kids far too much and i've got far too many animals. No one is dying yet and apart from the odd issue no one fights or yells. In fact I barely even fight with the wife these days.

I used an older example to explain the pain and anxiety I used to feel and how that (and I wasn't even using then) it was insanely bad.

I'm not denying science, I'm denying your personal and extremely one-sided interpretation of a certain set of studies.

As for the rest - if you use old examples without qualifying that they're no longer relevant to your life situation, don't complain that people make statements based on those examples. If you're happy now, that's awesome.



No what i get upset about is when people come onto harm minimisation sites and make it sound like the only option is to quit drugs, and that (edit) its all about being "clean".

I've never said anything of the sort.

A drug addict is going to try and get through his or her life without using but considering the fucked up past most of us have had (the ones that have faced physical and sexual abuse) we're fucking sponges of pain. Everyone has their breaking point and when it happens and they end up up using again they'll read your words and think fuck if Crankinit can quit drugs then what sort of person am I who fails.

First of all, I've yet to actually quit drugs, technically speaking, so I might not be the best example :p I have made substantial progress in terms of reducing my overall intake of drugs and my exposure to the damaging effects they cause, in reducing my dependence on drugs as a method of dampening emotional turmoil (which I think is probably a fairly good defintion of "addiction" in my personal case) and in understanding and addressing the emotional turmoil and physical pain which lead me to self medicate with drugs in the first place.

And I want to reiterate, because I think it's important, that it was only once I managed to stabilize enough to stop the constant self medication that I managed to make significant progress in the last part of that.

But even if I never make a step of progress beyond where I am now, I still think it was worthwhile.

My answer to your question from this hypothetical poster would be that they're human, that any process of healing and self development is an ongoing one, with periods of progress and periods of setback, and that just because they're currently in the latter doesn't mean that they can't get back into the former. That, in fact, the periods of setback are part of the process, and that everybody goes through them.

One of the problems here is the language we use. We talk about "relapse" as though it means an instant dive back into the worst of the individual's addiction. Maybe it's just a "glass half full/empty" situation, but if somebody ceases their drug use for a week after months of non-stop use, only to use the drug again at the end of the week, then I'd say it's just as accurate (and far more productive) to view that as "progressing from using seven days a week to using one day a week" instead of viewing it as "progressing to being clean for a week then regressing back to addiction." Any kind of positive self change is a process of taking steps forward and steps back - what matters is doing your best to make the steps forward outnumber the steps backward.

Personally, I think your neurochemical determinism is orders of magnitude more harmful to people in that situation, because it will just lead them to ask why the fuck should they even try to improve their lives if their brain is permanently damaged by something they had no control over and as a result any attempt to scale back their addiction will result in nothing but suffering?

I read countless stories of people quitting. Shit I was like that 16 years ago. I quit heroin. I said the same words you said crankinit. But I came back to my real wife and it was weird because at the time I didn't even realise how stressed I was.

It was only in retrospect when I had that shot again, thinking that I could control this bucking bronoc, only use once a a fortnight, (and then once a week, and then only weeks, and then only fridays and weekends and so on) that I realised that I had never quit.

First of all, that's bullshit. You did quit. Even if it was only temporary, you managed to go for a period of time without using drugs.

What you didn't do is address the underlying cause of your drug use, which is why being re-exposed to environmental stressors resulted in your resumption of heroin use.


I don't have fatigue, indigestion or constipation from suboxone (well my stomach was always pretty slow so its no bother to me). I don't take Benzo's so I really can't comment on that. Re hormones I find the number one issue that dictates hormone levels is physical activity. I like to think i keep myself busy enough. I definitely noticed higher hormone levels when i've been doing a lot of stuff.

Which is great for you, but it's an undeniable scientific fact that a certain portion of the people taking a drug will experience the side effects of that drug.

There is nothing wrong with suboxone

Maybe for you personally, and if that's the case, all the more power to you for making it work. I'm not ripping on suboxone here - it did a lot of good things for me in terms of helping me understand the process of craving, relapse, withdrawal, etc. It provided some stability and craving relief when I needed it, and relief from physical pain when I also needed it. But I no longer need those things as badly as I need to be rid of the side effects and restrictions suboxone brings into my life.

That's me personally, but I'm not the only one. That's the point I'm trying to make. Not passing moral judgement, not claiming that pure sobriety is the ideal state for everyone, not passing moral judgement on people's drug use or lack thereof, simply pointing out that eternal self medication or maintenance is neither desirable nor sustainable for everybody.


I've used for over 23 years. I've had breaks sure but i've always come back to it. Even when I was confident that i had fixed the issues in my life, made breakthroughs with therapy, and reduced my stress levels. Even when I told people I had quit and that quitting, the withdrawals, the desire to get high was beaten i guess my cockiness came and bit me on my ass.

I only recently stumbled upon the research that I linked above, and its taken me a good 1-2 years to understand a fraction of it. It's clear that the drug addiction world is utterly in the dark to the ramifications of it. Users, doctors and the public seem to want to believe that drug addiction is something that can be solved with gumption and hard work.

There is no care or consideration given to the fact drug addicts are born deformed. I know its a brutal awful truth but if you think a good diet, no stress and exercise is all you need to quit drugs then i'm sorry but your deluding yourself.

No one quits being a drug addict.

I think you're indulging in false categorization here, with this idea that people born with over a certain level of in utero stress hormone exposure are addicts by definition and will be so for all of their lives, and that people born without that exposure get off free and live their lives in some completely different manner to the addicts, just cruising through without worrying about pain or suffering or trauma.I don't buy it. The reality is lot messier and a lot more complicated than that. We are products of far more than the chemicals we were exposed to in the womb, and addiction is far too complicated a phenomenon to boil down to something as simple as stress hormone levels.

In the end, "drug addict" is a label for people who indulge in a certain set of behaviors. We can argue about the meaning of that label, what it does or doesn't apply to, all we want, but at the end of the day, what it boils down to for me is that people have far more power over their lives, their bodies and their destinies than you seem willing to give them credit for. It's not fast and it's not easy and, as you've pointed out, it's not always permanent, but people can absolutely work to become happier and healthier and to reach a more meaningful place in their life.
 
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Crankinit: you've made some fantastic points here. For anyone relatively new to substance use/abuse: This is what it sounds like when a person has experienced the depths of addiction/dependence while maintaining self-awareness. This is really valuable input. Thank you.
 
Clonazepam tapering advice

Hi all!


My name is nick and I am new here. I have been on clonazepam for 2 and a half years, 1mg a day every day and on very rare occasions 2mg if needed. I can count on one hand how many times I felt that 2mg was needed. Anyway, my Doc recently found out that I have rarely needed the 2mg and asked why I was not taking it. I told him that I took the 1mg every day when my anxiety was so high that I could no longer tolerate it. I have anxiety and bipolar issues. So I told him that I did not wish to become addicted to the clonazepam hence the reason I rarely took the 2mg and just stuck to the 1mg. He looked at me in surprise and informed me that since I had been taking clonazepam longer than a few weeks that I was already addicted to it.

This did not sit well with me. I have been learning some new coping skills for anxiety and had planned to get off the clonazepam soon anyway. However, I did not expect to be told that I was addicted. I wish I had been told this when it was first prescribed. So after researching benzo addiction and withdrawal, we decided it was time to come off the clonazepam and I needed to taper off. So my Doc set up a taper schedule of

Weeks 1-3 take .5mg in morning and .5mg in evening (still taking 1mg a day but getting my body used to a smaller dose instead of 1mg all at once)

Weeks 4-6 cut out the .5mg in morning and only take .5 in evening

Weeks 6-9 take .25mg in morning and .25mg in evening

Weeks 9-12 take .25mg in evening

Weeks 12-15 take 0.125 mg in morning and 0.125mg in evening

Weeks 15-18 take 0.125 mg in evening

Off after week 18.

So a taper of about 4 months. Is this a safe taper? Is it long enough to help prevent most withdrawal symptoms? Since I start the taper tomorrow I am somewhat nervous and would like some input. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you,

Nick
 
Hello Everyone. I'm new to this site so I apologize if this is in the wrong place but I'm in dire need of insight and info.....

I've been on suboxone for a year and a half and now my insurance is no longer covering it so I need to get off of it quickly. What is the best way to do this without withdrawl? Quitting cold turkey is not an option. I've never tried to get off subs before, but I know what it feels like to kick heroin. The last time I slipped on H I used the 5 day suboxone to kick with and I was highly impressed. I only took small pieces for the 5 days and by the 6th day I was fine. NO WITHDRAWL symptoms at all!

So here's my question. Can I switch back to H for a week or so (after waiting 48 hours after taking suboxone) and by day 7 the suboxone should be out of my system right? Then use the suboxone for the short 5 day detox method again. Or do you think I would be fine just to use H for a few days and not have to do the suboxone detox by then?

Has anyone gotten off suboxone with H or other opiates successfully. I don't see why it wouldn't work. All your doing is reversing it. Please note that I'm mentally strong and have 100% confidence in myself that I can do this strictly to get of the subs. I had 6 years clean under my belt until a year and a half ago when I messed up with pills my doctor gave me and got strung out. Hence why I got on the suboxone. Wish I would've not listened to the doctors and just done the short 5 day detox with subs instead of keep taking them. Here I am a year later hoping desperately to get off ALL of this stuff!~

Please help or advise! Thanks in advance!
 
This is really good to know! I had no idea that it was possible to have withdrawl from clonazepam or xanax.... So how long do you have to take it to be addicted?
 
gizmo22 what you are suggesting is theoretically possible, I even considered it myself however I never went through with it so I couldn't comment first hand.

Here is what I can tell you for sure.
After being on suboxone for 18 months it will be very difficult to come of without any withdrawl symptoms.

The dose that you are on will have a big impact on how long it takes to leave your system, as a general rule however you are looking at longer than 7 days of physical symptoms, it is hard to say how long you would need to stay on the short acting opioid but I would think more like 3 weeks but even that is really just an estimate, as I mentioned the dose you jump from is the biggest factor in relation to the duration of physical symptoms.

It would be helpful to know exactly how much time you had to do this.

Have you considered a fast taper down to the lowest dose possible in your time frame and jumping from there with the assistance of meds such as clonidine and diazepam, if you are mentally strong and motivated to do this I think that is the way I would go about it.

I completely understand the theory of swapping back to a short acting opioid until the buprenorphine is out of your system and then using the sub for 5 days like you did previously, in my opinion that is definitely the least painfull way to come of opioids and the long drawn out withdrawl from suboxone is not an attractive option to say the least.

In the end the reason I never went through with it was the uncertainty regarding exactly how long I would have to stay on the short acting opioid and the fact that I simply would not be able to afford to do it.



Regarding your question about clonazepam and Xanax/alprazolam everybody is different, for me if I use benzodiazepines for more than a couple of days in a row I always titrate the dose over a couple of days when stopping if I don't do this I tend to get some rebound anxiety.

If you have access to these meds the clonazepam could be very helpful in coming of the suboxone, I would favour the clonazepam over the Xanax as the Xanax has quite a short half life.

Definitely be aware however that benzodiazepines can be extremely addictive and in fact cold turkey withdrawl can be very dangerous.
Usually if you only used them for a week to get through opioid withdrawl you would be fine but I would always exercise extreme caution with benzos.
Sorry for the lateness of this reply considering you are short on time I hope this is of some help to you.
 
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I had no idea that it was possible to have withdrawl from clonazepam or xanax

I feel like benzodiazepine withdrawal is still a relatively unknown quantity compared to other substances. I guess lots of people think of heroin withdrawal as the 'gold standard' of hellish withdrawal experiences, but in my own experience benzo withdrawal is the worst of the whole bunch. Phenazepam and clonazepam caused more extreme symptoms than any of my WDs with heroin, opium, and even fentanyl and a bunch of other opioids (opiates/opioids are my DOC). Fentanyl took the death cake for acute pain but I feel like anything is manageable if it's short lived. Benzo WDs (especially long acting ones which have anti-convulsant properties) are hell and they go on and on and on.
 
Slightly urgent adice

Hi, I recently got off codeine for 5 weeks., I took approximately 200 last night, and I have woken up with major hip pain and neck pain! Am I now detoxing again in just one night ? If anyone has any advice that would be great, I don't want to go back to rehab! Is buprenorphine a good idea? Thanks in advance, me.
 
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I really doubt a single dose of codeine would send you back in w/d after 5 weeks. Might cause the PAWS to flare up a bit. Or the pain could be unrelated to the codeine - maybe you just rolled over the wrong way while sleeping?

I'd just ride it out for 24 hours, take some panadol and ibuprofen. See how you feel then.
 
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