I'm sorry -- and you don't know me, and I don't know you. I've been around a little while, and you might not like me for posting this, but, who asked you?
Who asked you to be sooo captivated by her? Who asked you to want to be her?
Certainly not her, but maybe I'm wrong.
I hate it. I hate it when someone tells you good things about you. Like there is "something" captivating that makes people want to be around you. Like you have to be careful of that, like you have to be careful of not destroying that within yourself. When you don't even know what that is.
And then you change for some reason, maybe you don't want to maybe you do. Maybe it's just natural evolution, logical progression. But now you've fallen off of this person's pedestal, like you've dissapointed them. Like you owe them something. But you don't. It has nothing to do with them.
You don't owe anyone anything.
I don't know.
I'm wrong though, it has everything to do with them. Not to you but to them. You've touched them, even if you didn't mean to. Even if you didn't ask for this connection. It's there in some way.
I just hate that look in people's eyes like you let them down, like you can be better than how you are. Simply because I never asked you to care about me.
I know this might sound hostile, but
I know this is meth, but
And I don't know this experience with this girl that you have specifically. It might be really bad, but
I don't know. If it really captivated you, made you feel something, it's probably still within her; latent, dorment. I don't know. I think you should have more faith in her, though.
That's it.
"Everybody gets corrupted. You have to have a little faith in people."
- Manhattan
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"It's dangerous to confuse children with angels."
-Magnolia
"Man is what he believes"
-Chekhov
[This message has been edited by sparklr (edited 23 October 2000).]