I can't notice any effect from 5mg valium on my anxiety which is why I'm exploring more options. Plus my doc won't extend any benzos he gives to me longer than a month so that's a dead end right there. I hate being at the mercy of other people. I'm imagining myself experiencing severe rebound anxiety because I can't get my fix and then hear my doc atoning for fucking up my mental health earlier by saying he's trying to prevent me from getting addicted to benzos. It's a real shit show so I must maintain freedom of choice as much as I can. Phenibut is legal so I'm not dependent on anybody for it but I heard this shit is just as addictive as benzos and must be used sparingly. The container itself advises to take breaks.
I've found caffeine (as well as any stimulant really) to increase my anxiety so I avoid it. I already have E pills when I want them but my anxiety has gotten so bad that I can't get past the come-up. I'm hoping phenibut mixes well with molly but first I have to figure out if its useful for me at all.
If it's unsustainable I might have to figure out how the fuck to get pregabalin for anything less than a fortune. Feedback is always welcome. One thing better than a lonely schizo junkie is having several junkies for comfort and support.