...last week I got news that I will get the chance to push my academic/professional career to a level I could only dream of for the last years. psychedelic research. can't say more. I'm so sorry...
I celebrated with 600mg+ of p. harmala extract, 300mg+ of DMT and a lot a ganja (all smoked) shared between a buddy and me. I didn't touch this combo (or a serious dose of DMT) for 2 years but never hesitated to state that this it is the best psychoactive I know - and will probably ever know. actually kind of forgot why. didn't take long/much to remember..
it was my buddies first contact with dmt; he made a conclusive remark after we'd been drowning in vaporous psychedelic decadence for a few hours: "smoking this is 'ok'. the hard problem is: how do we get this stuff into the water supply?!"
it's just that good. the first rush (iirc 3x10mg in 10-15min) shocked us quite profoundly. for me it was like a divine power forcing me with love to stay on track, to treat myself well. but the force was there and it does punish you if you don't comply...just rips your ego apart (you can feel it
physically) and tortures your soul if you dare to dwell in thoughts it does not approve. it does not approve contents like depression, neurotic thinking, judgment, mental&emotional excesses of all kinds....it just forces you with love to love. it's the most powerful tool and the wisest teacher I know.
after that first rush there was a change in setting and we paused for ~90min - which was actually perfect as it gave us the chance to integrate and prepare for the next round.
the 'next round' came out to be some of the smoothest hours I ever had. after some time you get so accustomed to the state that you might actually forget that you are under the influence of any substance at all. not because of tolerance (it does become an issue after a few hours though
) or delusional thinking but because it feels so absolutely natural and healthy. once you accept the state, it is completely devoid of anxiety, doubts, dualistic thoughts (...). you can pick out issues in your life and actually try to force yourself into trouble - it is not possible. it guides you to go to the root of the problem and allows you to find solutions - in a way that borders feeling trivial. besides the actual peak effects ~5min after a high enough dose, that usually force you to lay down, the structure of your consciousness remains pretty much untouched. as in: I could talk to my mother without her suspecting anything (reminds me of aMT in this - and also other - regards...).
MAOi+DMT is qualitatively different to DMT alone. it's more like an ultra clean, lucid and controllable (not only due to the ROA) mushroom trip. the entities of your personality, your cognition and emotions remain completely intact (to the extent that I could feel the slightest hit of weed fogging my emotions at the core - it is obvious that this state is perfect to beat addictions or any mental health issues, that is...). everything is just much, much, much, MUCH more evident and accessible.
there is simply no side-effect or unwanted aftereffect. I'm hesitant to say this but: this substance is perfect.
..ok, ok: maybe the roa is not. the act of smoking it (+the immediate rush) is cool at the beginning but becomes annoying after some time. maybe I go for oral next time. (only tried ayahuasca and am not willing to try this again) dose suggestions anyone?
only wanted to write a short notice but DMT carries you away even days after you've had contact with it... :D
