☮ Social ☮ [PD Social General Talk Thread] Observation Tank for Fractallized Redundancy Modules

[Xorkoth]

^Yeah, that's a definite upside. I tend to recall my dreams pretty well, have always been a very vivid and involuntarily lucid dreamer, but no weed makes the dreams way more intense, real seeming. Totally disturbing to.

I had this dream the other night where I was watching this naked, filth-covered women in a kind of dimly lit cell, chained up and spreadeagled, screaming while she gave birth to this enormous, thick torrrent of what looked like spaghetti and blood and bolognaise sauce which would plop wetly to the floor and I could see it writhing around. It was so vivid and fucked up. Sickening.

I had this other dream where I was basically floating in this incredibly windy, dark void of nothingness with heaps of other terrified people. With some regularity they were being suddenly sucked screaming away into the darkness. I could actually hear the doppler effect on their shrieking voices as they receded rapidly into the outer dark. So disconcerting.

That sounds really horrifying! Did you feel terror as you would if that were real in your dreams? I find that except for a few cases in my adult life, when I have dreams that are scary, they don't scare me... it's like it might scare the dream-me but I am observing it as if being told a story or watching a movie so it doesn't actually make ME feel fear. As a kid though I definitely sometimes had terrifying dreams.

 

[Img_9999]

. I've never known a drug to have that weird awkwardness inducing feeling that weed can have. Recently, I needed to grab some cash from Miss Willow as I'd left my wallet at work. I seriously planned how I was going to ask her for about 45 minutes. I don't know why I was so awkward. Weed can make me really shy, even around my family. I can usually talk my self out of this feeling, but it makes socialising or any interaction much harder than it should be... For me, weed is something I like to do alone.

Yeah, I fee the same. Weed makes me so socially awkward. Even buying stuff at the grocery store becomes challenging. I can only communicate comfortably if I know my interlocutor is also under the influence. I used to need getting high, in my late teens, before going out at parties and such. Now I only smoke when there's live music involved, other wise I prefer being sober unless everyone present partakes in the cannabis ingestion.

 

[jammin83]

You guys have problems with weed even if you just toke once a day? Can be nice with no tolerance but can also make me feel schizophrenic but depend on the strain. I prefer a little tolerance myself. One bong hit at the end of the day does me well. I still get high off of one binger and I don't think it effects me much. Clarity is nice though. Most of the time I try to avoid too much of that if possible. I kinda wish weed made me tired. nothing does really. hyped up all the time. life after anti-psychotics. sigh.

Stoked about some goods. been a while since I had a proper trip while being somewhat sane to begin with. See if this OS is what I think I had before. So excited. Tabs are 125 mics. Gonna start with 1.5 for a medium trip. Got some reserves but want to really really stock up and never have to worry again. The internet drug hoarding gnomes are getting to me. have to resist but so tempting. love lysergamides. al lad and eth lad to try too. dang.

Anyone try O-PCE? Word on the street is its the next MXE replacement. Curious and my guy has me covered. damn gnomes.

 

[Xorkoth]

I haven't tried O-PCE yet, but I hear good things.

I smoke daily, in the evenings usually, sometimes during the day too, but I don't do that "stay high" pattern I did when I was younger. I found it detrimental when I smoked constantly, but even daily smoking seems fine to me. It doesn't make me socially awkward anymore, it certainly used to but I worked through that. I also used psychedelics for a while to help me work through the social awkwardness they can cause. Nowadays I usually feel comfortable around anyone while tripping too. I used to be a really awkward guy as a kid, got picked on a lot, etc. I looked at the social awkwardness from drugs as a challenge to meet, and it actually really helped me to become more confident.

 

[Crashing]

Self confidence is an interesting thing, fortunately drugs make it an optional character trait. Sometimes I get high-shy, but holding a lighter under one butt-cheek for a second makes me snap out of it.

 

[spacejunk]

Self confidence is an interesting thing, fortunately drugs make it an optional character trait.

A most concise and eloquent observation. If only it were as simple as that...but there is more than a molecule of truth to it.

 

[swilow]

That sounds really horrifying! Did you feel terror as you would if that were real in your dreams? I find that except for a few cases in my adult life, when I have dreams that are scary, they don't scare me... it's like it might scare the dream-me but I am observing it as if being told a story or watching a movie so it doesn't actually make ME feel fear. As a kid though I definitely sometimes had terrifying dreams.

Yeah, full terror response. I woke up after the 'dark void' dream and I was sweaty and covered in goosebumps. The 'birth of spaghetti' dream had me simply feeling really fucking sick.

I sometimes feel like dreams are just templates with which to experience raw, singular emotion. A way of releasing some pent up shit. The two dreams were actually awesome in their intensity but just haunting in how they played out. The void dream was probably worse in terms of sheer fucking existential terror

Hey xorkoth

It also feels like there's nothing to look forward to every night any more. When I can get stoned, I have the pleasure of knowing there's a high point to my night, that no matter what I'm gonna feel good at some point. Now I just ride a constant wave of mediocrity through my day and into my night, and it just feels so flat... I can't wait for it to be over.

Yeah, I know the feeling. I had that flatness for the first few days but I kept reminding myself that I was choosing to not smoke, that it wasn't forever and that my tolerance was decreasing so I could look forward to getting really fucking stoned when next I chose :D After a few days, I got used to it and it's no longer bothering me. I just read and listen to music, maybe watch some shit on netflix, go out for dinner, whatever. A lot of the times, being stoned was intefering with my desire to even do these things so I felt this break was needed. I want to rethink my use but couldn't do it very well when stoned constantly.

I have quite a bit of weed lying around which has been tempting. Somehow I have avoided that sirens call...

You guys have problems with weed even if you just toke once a day?

I get no real issue if I smoke once a day but historically when smoking its always more than once. I get weird symptoms if I smoke more than about .5g a day, night sweats, nasuea, increased anxiety, etc.

When I begin smoking again (which will probably be tonight) its going to be once a day and only on 3-4 nights a week.

 

[Delsyd]

Hi Swrillow I love to see you post.
Your weed smoking plan seems ideal.
I smoke once I get home from work and then usually smoke another bowl before bed. On the weekends or when I'm hanging out with friends I'll end up smoking a bit more.
I don't get too many negative effects from smoking, maybe the occasional awkward interaction or just being quiet and keeping to myself, but that doesn't really bother me much. I really wish I didn't spend so much money on it though.
I don't really ever see myself not smoking. It's seems like the least harmful of my bad habits but I hope in the future I don't keep smoking as much as I do now.

Now I must pack for my trip. I'm getting pretty excited and also nervous about it. I only see my parents once every 2 or 3 years so it brings up some weird emotions in me. And seeing my friends I grew up with but haven't seen in years will be interesting.

Many swirls and good vibes to the PD tribe.

 

[Help?!?!]

Haha I haven't smoked weed or hash everyday/all day since high school. I pretty much follow Del's method of once after work/doing something, then once before bed because it's really the only thing that helps me sleep anymore! On special ocassions I'll get stoned a bit more of than that, like if I'm tripping but not to often these days.

's brothers!

 

[Speed King]

Hey guys, help me out. I finally ate some real acid, for the first time in like 13 years. Long story short, for about at least eight hours, everything was I don't the word but face outlined changed shape, colors lightly kept changing, my phone kept bending and it was hard to type. It was fun as fuck, but I could easily double it. In hind sight it mud have been week, but it was clear and smooth. It was supposedly three hits, taken over at least eight hours. What do you think. Body buzz the whole time. My bed kept moving like waves. I never got paranoid once. Silkey smooth .

 

[swilow]

Hi Swrillow I love to see you post.

My dear friend I love to see you post word things too!

How is your lite-love going? Say hi and potato from me to her...

Many swirls and good vibes to the PD tribe.

Enjoy your vacation buddy

Hey guys, help me out. I finally ate some real acid, for the first time in like 13 years. Long story short, for about at least eight hours, everything was I don't the word but face outlined changed shape, colors lightly kept changing, my phone kept bending and it was hard to type. It was fun as fuck, but I could easily double it. In hind sight it mud have been week, but it was clear and smooth. It was supposedly three hits, taken over at least eight hours. What do you think. Body buzz the whole time. My bed kept moving like waves. I never got paranoid once. Silkey smooth .

What do we think about what? It sounds like a beautiful time was had by all effected neurons....

 

[Speed King]

What I guess I was getting at, was that weak acid? I was told it was 3 hits of 150ug each. The main point I get was it was a beautiful time. Could the dose I was told be true. I'm trying to learn how to dose correctly. Honestly, the dose could have been a little higher. Overall, an A+ time.

 

[swilow]

450ug would be a hugely intense, possibly overwhelming experience that would last for over 10 hours IMO.

Sounds like you took less than 450 but doesnt matter. 'Lower' doses are much easier to handle IME. Glad you enjoyed, its a great drug

 

[Xorkoth]

Now I must pack for my trip. I'm getting pretty excited and also nervous about it. I only see my parents once every 2 or 3 years so it brings up some weird emotions in me. And seeing my friends I grew up with but haven't seen in years will be interesting.

Have fun dood! I'll say hi to your puppies tonight when I'm over there.

When I begin smoking again (which will probably be tonight) its going to be once a day and only on 3-4 nights a week.

That sounds like a nice rate of use. I tend to smoke a single hit partway through the work day, since I work at home. Sometimes that's quite nice, and sometimes I end up wishing I hadn't just because it doesn't really add anything, it's because I get bored.

Welp, on Saturday I'm hopping on a plane to go visit my parents for a few days, it's my mom's 60th birthday on Monday and I'm showing up for her surprise party. I'm looking forward to seeing them, and they will have never seen my hair or beard this long so that'll be fun. I always find myself wishing I could split into 2 people at once when I leave here in the Spring/Summer though... it's supposed to be in the mid-70s, and Karl Denson's Tiny Universe is playing a show at my favorite venue that I'm gonna miss. And my bass player friend who is always traveling and playing music on the weekends now is actually going to be around for the only time in who knows how long, so I'll miss a chance to do a river hike with him. Oh well, your mom only turns 60 once.

 

[Xorkoth]

Man, I STILL have a great afterglow from that 3-MeO-PCE. I did also take like 4mg more yesterday, none today though. Good stuff.

My girlfriend has been basically living with me for about a month, her car was broken and having major repairs (new engine), so she stayed at my house and we basically lived together, went to her house a few times too. It was really nice, in fact outrageously nice, even spending so much continuous time together and cohabitating, it's just as easy and peaceful. We talked about how easy it has been and how that's a great thing. She's super helpful too, she cleans the house and we have been making plans to build a screen porch on this second-story balcony deck area I have. Also we've been turning my front yard into a nice partial-shade garden, we already have a bunch of stuff planted and we thinned out the front of the forest to make more hours of light. I'm going to be putting in several unusual fruiting bushes in, and I already have 2 small blueberry bushes and a black currant, and a bunch of native raspberry (wineberry actually) vines, and some blackberries. We planted strawberries too. It's been a lot of fun, gardening is her favorite pasttime and she's really good about it and she knows more about plants (especially native ones) than anyone else I know. She's just so fucking perfect, it blows my mind. Every time I look at her it makes me smile and feel warm. Everything she does and say agrees with me energetically, and she's so sweet and caring and supportive, and she's really fun to talk to and hang out with, or just sit and be quiet with, and she feels the same way about me. I feel so lucky that she happened to want to try Ok Cupid when I was, even though she hates that kind of stuff, and that she'd randomly find my profile and message me, and that I didn't decide not to answer (because she had no information or profile on it and one weird picture), and that I didn't decide on the day we first hung out that I was too hung over to meet her (which I very nearly did). Like, whoa. I wouldn't have known it had that happened, but it would have been a damn shame.

Babble babble, I'm on a love high, and also a little afterglowy.

In other news, I'm writing my first song for the band, and I made some real progress with the lyrics this morning.

 

[Crashing]

Just got back from bringing my girlfriend to work, who similarly has been sharing a house with me for a little over a year now. She likes to garden also. I love gardening too, but I work a lot and haven't really begun to make my stake yet. Been more into cooking so far this year. The two go hand in hand pretty nicely though, i might say.

Again, similarly, and as I'm sure you can imagine I've got a pretty strong afterglow going on right now. I like that term, afterglow. Yet, one might argue that the dose I'm waiting to take later in the day would prove my current state of existence to be a mere bridge across a series of time warps. It's all a matter of perception I guess, time is only relative after all.

It's awesome you're doing the planting out in the front.. I so miss gardening in a temperate climate. Down here in the sub-tropics, our backyard has a nice patio arrangement of small Floridian potted plants, we've got a few successful vegetables and herbs and quite the pineapple patch. But it's just not.. LUSH... like it would be up in the Carolinas or New York.

Anyway, gonna enjoy the other of my two days off fending off this cold, figuring out what i can create for dinner today, and listening to this band I recently discovered:

 

[Speed King]

450ug would be a hugely intense, possibly overwhelming experience that would last for over 10 hours IMO.

Sounds like you took less than 450 but doesnt matter. 'Lower' doses are much easier to handle IME. Glad you enjoyed, its a great drug

Great answer. I'll take it for what it's worth. I had a truly beautiful time regardless of dose. Next time, a little stronger, but loved every minute of it. Thanks willow11.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Guys, I just smoked some hashish after 15 days off thc. Holy shit. It's so psychedelic. I took like three hits and I'm on cloud 9. Oh my dear god.

Oh my goodness!

 

[Xorkoth]

Haha nice, you did it. Yeah, THC when you have no tolerance is an intense drug.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Stopped by a smoke shop, brought 70 cents to the counter and said, "Could I get a couple screens?" hahahah.

I broke out my bubbler and toked some year old hash my friend had cleaned outa his grinder and didn't want. I have some grinder wash just sitting around, I'm thinking of pressing that in some wax paper and then having that too.