I also stopped using cannabis reguarly since last year the only time i smoke now is only a few times on acid or shrooms if im really wanting to push myself out deep into the unknown but this usually backfires and results in a very dark trip til the weed wears off.
I can fully relate to this. In a lot of ways I can relate closely to your experiences and general ways of regarding certain things. I still use cannabis regularly but long have I needed to make huge changes with how I use it in particular I should stop vaporizing and just stick to edibles but cannabis has been the only drug I have been able to tolerate over the years and I have used it as a coping tool rightly or wrongly for severe depression and anxiety and just generally an empty and otherwise boring existence.
But I'm getting much closer to envisaging life without using cannabis the same way any longer and I have been cutting down and feeling less mentally dependent.
My real wish is to trip regularly but I really cannot get myself well enough to face it currently. The irony is it would help me so much to do it but I'm in too much of a bad shape to face the initial ordeal. I mean if just waking up each day feels unbearable how can you take acid on that same day? So it's a Catch-22 and I think I'm going to have to start the microdosing first because this I can approach and will probably resolve my situation if it can work for me as it has for many others.
But on this point you make about cannabis I have always struggled with the idea of not using cannabis when I trip it just wouldn't feel right to me. Even though I totally agree with what you say about the effect it has and it certainly is not entirely positive but even the complete opposite as you report.
I still feel as though it adds so much to the acid and I really like the intensity of it without having to take huge doses of acid in the first place. So I can genuinely see the point in my life in the near future when I do not vaporise cannabis but only use edibles for digestive support but this can actually feel like you are not even using cannabis you are always on a certain baseline.
And that is why I do vaporize weed because I barely notice the high from edibles when used daily.
It's a bit of a tease it would be easier to not have anything. But I am determined to improve my life and the microdosing may help me to to at least take frequent days off of cannabis vaporizing.
So then I will trip eventually, and I expect like yourself I will often want to experience that intensity and probably it will be more intense and darker due to a lower tolerance do cannabis vaporization.
But at the same time, it will be better, with greater appreciation for the weed, better overall health and mindset. I would then be able to let my hair down and enjoy the weed for several days enhancing the Afterglow of the trip as it does for me very strongly for up to a week.
That is the sort of plan anyway if it comes together.