I went cold turkey two weeks ago, thought I could reduce my doses of Heroin over the course of a week at work after basically a solid 4 months of using everyday (I have a 9-5 job). That went completely tits up when I turned up to work tuesday morning, 12 hours after my last hit, thinking that I'd just brush the edge of withdrawal before getting home and having another smaller dose rather than my routine morning foilery. I felt fine when I woke, got to work then everything went to hell. Started sweating, eyes and nose running like a tap, freezing chills, running out of the office to vomit and diarrhea like there's no tomorrow every ten minutes for about 4 hours before I got sent home from work.
Took a week off and got clean (flushed two very strong grams of #3 down the bog, that literally made me cry and shout at the toilet bowl). I'm on my last warning at work now due to absences, (basically been off ill three times in the past six months) and if I take another day off in the next month I get immediately made redundant, regardless of the cause unless I have a doctors note...
Though naturally i've been lying through my teeth about catching some nasty virus, though I never handed in a doctors note as I claimed I forgot to ask for one though the idea of work getting a note saying "Must be excused for several days due to acute opiate withdrawal" would go down well i'm sure. My mistake was thinking I could take a hit and have it last 24 hours like it did when I first started regularly using.
I did actually go to a Doctor on my second and worst day of withdrawal (not asking for subs, more for addiction advice, substitutes are not something I want) though he was fucking useless and just looked down his nose at me like I was wasting his time, and I could tell he just wanted me out of the room as fast as possible. I asked about counseling and he told me to go and look at the talk to FRANK website.... Jesus Christ, what a clueless twat I thought, i'm in my mid twenties and look younger than my age despite several years of drug abuse by some miracle, so he was being pretty condescending.
I'm wondering what the options are in Manchester in particular for drug counseling and support? I've been pretty good at staying clean so far, though as i'm sure we're all aware it takes only a moments weakness to fall back into bad habits.
I started a blog to try and find something to fill my spare time with and not do drugs, though of course more or less everything I post on there will be about drugs..
Which is here
Just trying to be more creative, i've been drawing alot and am thinking about getting a gym membership to lower the chances of relapsing.