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Harm Reduction OD Social v12 - Zero Tolerance

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shot a .2 of some suppeerrr fire dope last night. think it was the best shit I ever had. Im done with the shit for a little while tho. Im ganna try to make it 2 - 4 weeks without but well see. I just get sooooo fucking board on the weekends and the only thing that sounds fun is doin dope. I got a few driving forces to help me though.

- Tolerance is getting RIDICULOUS. its takes the same amount to get my everyday using friends high as it does me.
- Save money
- good friend that I was using with for the past 2 months got on suboxone yesterday and quit dope
- mom found my spoon/rigs on Christmas and I promised her I would quit.

The hardest part is ganna be finding something to fill the opiate sized hole in my life.

snowboarding starts this comeing weekend and it used to be my favorite thing to do before opiates. But thats only during the day. Night time is when I always did dope anyway. Im ganna try to get back together with my pothead friends. I think thats my only hope. If that goes well I honestly think I can finish the winter without opiates. That would be soooo awesome.

If I could undo one thing in life it would be trying opiates. ( idk if i believe that. Had soooooo many GREAT times on opiates )
 
so how is all of OD today? so far I'm feeling a little better. I'm just nursing this pneumonia, and lounging around watching Netflix. I reallly wanna get high though and since I can't leave the house to get any pills or anything all I have is weed that I can't even smoke :(! but someone mentioned firecrackers? does anybody know if these things work? if so... can anybody give me a good recipe for em? I just really wouldn't mind getting stoned considering I haven't smoked since day before Christmas Eve!!! so if any of you wonderful people could help ill be your frienddd :)

otherwise everybody nice and hungover?
 
^you got a toilet paper roll and a bit of alfoil for a makeshift piece? simply mold a bowl/cone piece, cut out hole in toilet paper roll 3/4 down from either end and insert piece. pack piece, hand over the end closest to the piece, light, suck.

you're welcome.

otherwise an apple. an apple a day keeps the doctor away.

shreddedlettuce said:
Ok, I'm just mentioning it for the "competitive" side of things (being in your situation).
So many sportsmen and ex-sportsmen have started playing tournaments (not like your home game, for that competativeness that they describe as just as good as in their own speciality. In tournaments everyone starts equal. And once you run out of chips, that's it.
Rafa Nadal, Sergio Garcia, Teddy Sheringham, Boris Becker are just a few.

Not advertising, just sharing something that might be usefull.
You don't need to deposit anything, but can withdraw by making money if you're good enough. These tournaments are called freerolls, anyway PM me if you want to know more.

It's a nice feeling...winning.
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i've known a few other bler's who have been into the online poker gaming; and i checked it out for a short period (with baybex i think?) but it wasn't really my thing. i'lll hit you up if i do feel the urge, though.

just seeing sergio garcia's name up there has me thinking i haven't even been to the beach this summer! i'm going to have to do something about that soon. is there any decent breaks on the coast you live by that you aren't likely to get eaten by a shark? and kite surfing seems to be making it's way over there, well competitions anyway in northern africa from what i've seen - it's cool shit to watch if you're into surfing as well.

i've been awake since 5am and all that's been on my mind is "doc's appt at just after 10, shoot morphine and eat some valium after". i am going to have a shot but halve my usual dose. no more weed as of today to get back to concentrating on my goals.
 
Awesome new years.. had a bit of a setback in my sobriety... but, hey... shit happens. I'm back on track now and looking forward to 2013.
 
chained the mirror and the razorblade or just the bourbon?

i'm off to go cop from the local GP;) of course today the sun is out bright and it's going to be a steamer. would have preferred laying in bed doing shit all again today, though probably will ha.
 
About the poker, if you know how to play "no limit texas hold'em" you have nothing to lose, the entry fee is 0.
The site use these freeroll tournaments as a "loss leader" hoping people will try it out and get hooked (hey, that sounds kinda familiar), anyways I've used these free tournaments to try and win or finish in the top 20 in all the tourneys I play.
I will swear to one thing, yes people say it is gambling, which is true, but there is a lot of skill involved, I mean you are not playing against the casino, you are playing against some other dude who could be playing online in his underwear.
Finally on this topic, when I play a hand of poker that I know I can't win by showing my cards, but also know that my opponents don't have much in there hand either ( obviously playing live would give you more "tells" eg. pulsating vein in the neck, a guy looking at how many chips he has left etc, but online u pick up trends very quickly.....but getting back to that hand that I can't win if I show my cards...if I know the other guys are weak I will put in a bet size that if they had to call and lose it would hinder their chances of finishing in the money. Anyway (nearly finished), the rush I get when this move works (and 80% of the time I know it will), knowing I made him/her fold their hand by using the skills that I have learnt is a bigger rush than any drug.
Even if I don't collect any money in that tournament, just knowing that that competitiveness is still in me and it floods my mind with a natural dopamine release, I know there is another free tournament the next day.

Yeah if you want to get into it (with no risk, seriously) let me know and I will point you in the right direction. It can't do you anymore harm than narcotics or a coca cola for that matter. It might even keep your mind off of them drooogs for many hours. If you want to, give it a go. If you don't then no probs, just sharing a little bit of how it has helped me from becoming a "sober addict" which is not a nice mindset I want to be in.

Jesus Christ I'm starting to sound like Blight12. ;)

There are great surfing spots around where I stay, will post a pic or two to give you an idea.
I don't surf anymore, I did surf competatively when I was younger and did pretty well.
All the decent breaks are on the Atlantic coast, which is freezing cold, so sharks don't usually like cold water.
And the whole shark story is blown out of proportion.
I'm in my 30's now, and am still trying to get that feeling like I got when I went surfing without any worries and totally anti drugs and cigarettes, but that was 17 years ago.

This post is getting way too long for me at this point so I'll leave it there for now.

TL,DR - No problem. Here are some pics and vids instead.

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and here's the video of a different wave, same location (25 minute drive).
[video=youtube_share;dTh08XDavDs]http://youtu.be/dTh08XDavDs[/video]

One more for the feint of heart. Also have pity on the cameraman, I think he was shitting himself.


All these spots are within a maximum of a 45 minute drive.
Or you could just take a kite.
 
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Didn't realize I was going to do heroin today, but ended up shooting up a small amount. Feels pretty good with alprazolam. So glad I got alprazolam instead of clonazepam. A part of me wish it was Temazepam instead. Maybe on of these days in the future I may ask (a handful of months I may ask, even if just for a month for a alprazolam holiday - though I may try to instead just see if my doc with let me have a holiday from methadone (30mg a day) for some oxycodone
 
shreddedlettuce said:
I don't surf anymore, I did surf competatively when I was younger and did pretty well.
All the decent breaks are on the Atlantic coast, which is freezing cold, so sharks don't usually like cold water.
And the whole shark story is blown out of proportion.
I'm in my 30's now, and am still trying to get that feeling like I got when I went surfing without any worries and totally anti drugs and cigarettes, but that was 17 years ago.
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haha. yeah i know the shark thing is highly blown out of proportion; was expecting to get a raise out of you from that;) just friendly banter:)

that's cool you're still surfing, though, man. i never really picked up surfing too well, more of a body boarder or used to catch waves on a surf ski without fins - that shit was wildly fun, shredding 3-4 ft waves on a surf ski. had to keep well out the way of the surfers but they were respectful of the few of us who would carve waves in that fashion; pulling 360's on the face of a wave, or 180's and bringing it back around, nice cuts and everything. that used to get me rushing and i'd be in the water basically all day on occasions.



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Surfing-the-tube-at-dunes-noordhoek-beach-cape-town-south-africa
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All these spots are within a maximum of a 45 minute drive.
Or you could just take a kite.
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awesome shots and that's a decent looking barrel there. some big waves, man. you gotta be confident tackling that kind of surf. haha. are they shallow breaks or pretty safe in general? that's sweet you're that short of a drive from those kind of breaks. i live just over an hour away from the (considered) most northern surfing beach on the east coast of australia, in queensland. it's a nice little back packers place where i've spent a fair bit of time having lived and working there for some time a few years back.

doctors visit was successful :D had my 100mg morphine shot but went a little over board and took 50mg valium. i'll be right and back to keeping on my prescribed dose of 15mg tomorrow onward. i also picked up some fresh calamari and just did a quick cook up. would have loved to get some scallops as well, but will next time i reckon. i love me some scallops, calamari, prawns, mussels and mud crab at this time of the year.

hey cloudy! i saw you wrote you snorted methadone the other day in the DC thread and was interested in knowing why? do you get anything substantially more out of it? my understanding was it's pretty fruitless idea and you're better off taking it orally. is there something i'm missing?
 
^^ it was a long post I know, so by missreading the "still surfing" instead of not surfing anymore, I can't blame you.

Lol at doctors visit - did you get a refill of diazepam aswell as the morphine, I ask this because whenever I get my refill of diazepam I celebrate by taking more than I am prescribed per day.
But catching up during the month should be easy enough,,,,,,,,,, haven't been able to do that since I started many years ago.
The worst though is taking a prescribed dose after the script celebrations, is like taking placebo.


Oh and Guess what :!1111:!

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haha yeah, got my diazepam and morphine. my codeine refills are in another fortnight.

i'm the same, i'll usually take 3 times or so my prescribed dose then take a day or two off so i'm square again and use my prescribed doses the rest of the month, maybe a few 20-25mg doses. it's just that initial, first hit of the prescription where ya kinda take a little extra to get a little more funky. you obviously know what i mean haha.

i hear, it sucks having to readjust back to normal doses after a bit of a binge but the good thing is actually having the drug there to be able to do it painless as possible. and not just having blown through your script, counting each day down to refills :|
 
With me my tolerence to benzos skyrockets when I do what I do every month - it's insane, I know what is going to happen but I do it anyway, classic case of insanity.
Lol, but honestly who actually wants to be sane in the world we live in.
It reminds me of a short piece of writting by the late HS Thompson, he wrote it when he was only 19 years old. lemme go find it, it is a "must read".
And you will be seeing Thompson being compared to Hemingway, maybe even better. I man born 2 decades too early IMO. (Oops, he was 18 and a High School Senior when he wrote this.

Security

by Hunter S. Thompson (1955).

Security ... what does this word mean in relation to life as we know it today? For the most part, it means safety and freedom from worry. It is said to be the end that all men strive for; but is security a utopian goal or is it another word for rut?

Let us visualize the secure man; and by this term, I mean a man who has settled for financial and personal security for his goal in life. In general, he is a man who has pushed ambition and initiative aside and settled down, so to speak, in a boring, but safe and comfortable rut for the rest of his life. His future is but an extension of his present, and he accepts it as such with a complacent shrug of his shoulders. His ideas and ideals are those of society in general and he is accepted as a respectable, but average and prosaic man. But is he a man? has he any self-respect or pride in himself? How could he, when he has risked nothing and gained nothing? What does he think when he sees his youthful dreams of adventure, accomplishment, travel and romance buried under the cloak of conformity? How does he feel when he realizes that he has barely tasted the meal of life; when he sees the prison he has made for himself in pursuit of the almighty dollar? If he thinks this is all well and good, fine, but think of the tragedy of a man who has sacrificed his freedom on the altar of security, and wishes he could turn back the hands of time. A man is to be pitied who lacked the courage to accept the challenge of freedom and depart from the cushion of security and see life as it is instead of living it second-hand. Life has by-passed this man and he has watched from a secure place, afraid to seek anything better What has he done except to sit and wait for the tomorrow which never comes?

Turn back the pages of history and see the men who have shaped the destiny of the world. Security was never theirs, but they lived rather than existed. Where would the world be if all men had sought security and not taken risks or gambled with their lives on the chance that, if they won, life would be different and richer? It is from the bystanders (who are in the vast majority) that we receive the propaganda that life is not worth living, that life is drudgery, that the ambitions of youth must he laid aside for a life which is but a painful wait for death. These are the ones who squeeze what excitement they can from life out of the imaginations and experiences of others through books and movies. These are the insignificant and forgotten men who preach conformity because it is all they know. These are the men who dream at night of what could have been, but who wake at dawn to take their places at the now-familiar rut and to merely exist through another day. For them, the romance of life is long dead and they are forced to go through the years on a treadmill, cursing their existence, yet afraid to die because of the unknown which faces them after death. They lacked the only true courage: the kind which enables men to face the unknown regardless of the consequences.

As an afterthought, it seems hardly proper to write of life without once mentioning happiness; so we shall let the reader answer this question for himself: who is the happier man, he who has braved the storm of life and lived or he who has stayed securely on shore and merely existed?

Online Source - I got it in one of his books, I've read only half of the last book he wrote, just knowing that there won't be anymore I think I will finish it when the time is right.
 
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Didn't go out to the bars for NYE this year. Instead, I stayed at a good friends house, we had a small party & got shitty drunk. Then, I almost got a DUI on a snowmobile, but the cop was cool as fuck. Lol.
 
smokemctoke420 said:
WTM has been gone for a little while. Dick face Corey didn't wanna pay for it anymore and when that notice went up the next day the forum got taken down. There's some members on a wtm group on reddit but that's not lasting long either. It sucks its gone. There goes my 4.5K posts and there was a lot of good info there.

Your obviously a dude and not gypsy from the old WTM days. What username were you on WTM
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Glad that finally got cleared up for me. I was wondering what the fuck happened to WTM. I was a member there since '07, but barely ever posted other than a few times in the 'Show your drugs' thread which is really what I miss the most about WTM.
 
WTM was the shit. hands down the best forum i was ever a part of.

im in delaware at my parents house and my brother in law just called me and said that yesterday at 2pm the corner store that i walk to 4-5X a week and can see from my house was robbed by a guy at gunpoint and 2 shots were fired but no one injured. also, there has been 8 armed robberies in my neighborhood in december. i knew it was bad but i had no idea it was that bad

shit, i just walked to 711 at 2am the other day and now i hear about this shit. being 125 lb skinny white boy makes me now reconsider walking to that corner store. fuck this shit
 
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