November is starting off nicely for me, which I'm grateful for. I sank into a pretty deep depression when I relapsed, and it went on for weeks... it sucked, but it also made me realize what I have to do (and NOT do lol) if I want to stay at peace with recovery and be successful at it, so I'm choosing to just look at it as a learning experience.
Oh yeah!! I've been wanting to go back to school, so I decided to take a page out of the book of CaseFace and check out that Khan website. It's a pretty legit lil site!! I love learning and the idea of having college-level courses available for free whenever you want them is one I can definitely roll with :D So I'm using that to study for my math placement exam. Math has never been my strong point, although I have gotten better at it as I've grown to appreciate it more, and last time I tested (about 5 years ago) I was placed in pre-algebra, which means I would have had to take 5 consecutive semesters of math in order to meet the graduation requirement, which is annoying because to me those are just time slots that could be put to better use. So I'm using this website to brush up on my math skills so I can hopefully turn 5 semesters into 2 or so instead, I think I'll be ready to take the test within the next couple of weeks!!
Anyway I've been having trouble keeping up my momentum getting clean this time around, but now that I've managed to get motivated again and my mood has brightened, plus having an actual goal to work toward again, I'm feeling a lot more hopeful about all of this