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Hello all... I am trying desperately to quit oxys... Wednesday was the end of my run I used 150 to 180mg daily and tried to taper back. My use has been up and down for the last few months. I managed to go 20 days in September before caving in. For the last several weeks I go 2 to 4 days then bang Up 60 to 90mg then start the insanity again. I made it through Thanksgiving without using through yesterday. I failed again. Today is day one. Kinda I scrounged up 2mg of sub this morning to take the edge off but even doing that I feel like a failure. Im exhosted by the chase. I HOPE that some how today will be the end of this nightmare and the begining of something new. Im all familiar with the pending suffering but im willing to surrender. Someone please pray for me. Im new here but thank you in advance.
J.
Hello all... I am trying desperately to quit oxys... Wednesday was the end of my run I used 150 to 180mg daily and tried to taper back. My use has been up and down for the last few months. I managed to go 20 days in September before caving in. For the last several weeks I go 2 to 4 days then bang Up 60 to 90mg then start the insanity again. I made it through Thanksgiving without using through yesterday. I failed again. Today is day one. Kinda I scrounged up 2mg of sub this morning to take the edge off but even doing that I feel like a failure. Im exhosted by the chase. I HOPE that some how today will be the end of this nightmare and the begining of something new. Im all familiar with the pending suffering but im willing to surrender. Someone please pray for me. Im new here but thank you in advance.
J.
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