Well, I’m going to tell you from experience that methadone is a double edged sword. I’ve been on it for 17.5 years. It has undoubtedly saved my life, but it has also held me back from doing the things I want to do in life career wise. When you go to a clinic once every two weeks, you can’t really have a traveling job.
Anyways…you sound A LOT like me! You want to feel a little something every day from your methadone or subs. I will tell you that I’ve been chasing that for 17.5 years now. After all of this time, I have finally just become tired of it all. I’ve chased the methadone high for so long that I’m just sick of it all. I don’t even care about feeling high anymore, but it took over 17 years to get there. By some crazy circumstances, I fell into an unlimited supply of methadone. I’ve taken so much that I’m to the point that I’m tired of the methadone high. It’s a dead scene to me.
You will continue to gain weight. There’s no controlling your diet or sugar cravings on methadone. It’s completely out of control. Also, the more you’re on it, the more you are content with just laying on the couch watching tv all day and night. Your sex drive will get worse. I haven’t had any sex drive for probably 7-8 years now. Of course, this is all dose dependent. The more you take, the worse it gets. Everyone is different and might not have these side effects, or as extreme, but a lot of people do.
I don’t know what your opiate use history is, but from someone who has been on methadone this long, let me tell you my opinion….methadone is serious. There’s no reason I should’ve ever been on it. Not for my joke of an opiate addiction back in the day. Unless you are a serious addict and no other option will work, go back to the subs and try and do it right. Somehow try and figure out why you need to get high and use, and deal with all of that through rehab and therapy. This whole chasing opiate highs using methadone and Suboxone programs will only lead you down a several decades, or perhaps, a life long clinic patient. Some people will be lifers and there’s nothing wrong with that for some people. But if you don’t have a severe addiction, go back to subs and do the program right and eventually get off everything and live a good life. It’s been a long agonizing life for me on this shit.
By the way, yeah, don’t just skip your clinic dose. You will be in a world of hurt. Methadone has a very long half life. Withdrawals go forever. If you want to get off, taper off. If you stop abruptly and try to take oxy as a substitute, you will go through withdrawls. You would need to take a lot of oxy to jump over the methadone.
Also, I’m not trying to preach or tell you what to do. I have a lot of regrets when it comes to methadone. If I would’ve only known what was ahead. Like I said, it saved my life no doubt, but it also had its downsides too.
Take care!