Randomer, if there are is one person I would listen to on bluelight, it is Fastandbulbous (and blowmonkey), he knows what he is talking about, a lot better than you do, I have taken datura, which, comparatively mild compared to BZ, is still VERY unpleasant, and not a drug to fuck with.
I can more or less guarantee, that if you were to aqquire BZ, one of two things would happen.
A: you would be found out, and be jailed for a LONG time, for BZ is not a drug, its a chemical weapon, and I believe, banned under the geneva covention as such.
B: you would take the BZ, and either lock yourself into permanently confused, delusional thinking, not knowing if you were still tripping or not, or do yourself some permanent damage and end up a drooling, incontinent vegatable, or possibly kill yourself whilst in a nightmare world of hallucinations.
I really would trust Blowmonkey and F&B on this one, you will seriously regret it if you don't, I guarantee it.
Fastandbulbous, I agree with you about the E&W forum in part, though I don't think all the people there are nescessarily deviant, there are some good people there who the subjects merely interest, I used to be a member there under the name Lestat (I imagine you might know Ibee under that name from another forum I used to buzz around before it went down too
), although I never posted due to problems with my email or somesuch computer problem, and I saw threads that disturbed me greatly, and some sick shit about people killing innocent animals which I despise, but there are good people there, its only the minority of sick fucks, that ruin things for the rest.
I myself have done stuff like is posted on there, I experimented with very small scale synthesis of sulfur mustard, merely out of interest, and the "thrill" of doing it, didn't mean I ever tested it on a living thing.