Another thing noted, I get an afterglow from DPH, but not in the sense like when you do DXM or smoke a ton of bud; the day after a DPH trip (heavier doses induce it more often) I seem to deal with people and situations better, I am more "me" all my social anxiety is nulled, I feel like I am "home" in a sense, I can slow my thoughts and deal with the troubles In my life, i'm not rushed, and things will indeed be alright. This feeling fades off over the next few days, and is the biggest reason i'm finding it so hard to quit this substance. It crushes my depression and allows me to view the world optimistically unlike any prescribed medication ever has. It troubles me, because I know how destructive this drug is on my mind and body in the long run. I don't really know what i'm asking, other than, is DPH bad enough to make once a week, or even once a month too frequent? I've justified my use in the past, as I couldn't see the troubles it was causing in my life because I was in a state of denial (I used it daily at 400mg+ with periodic week/month long breaks due to rehabs, over the course of two years)