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TDS Megamerged TDS Psychosis Thread vs. it's all going to be alright

I had a bad experience with DXM once by sheer accident. I was sick and for some stupid reason I drank a bottle of robitussin under the guidelines of "more" is always better.
I went straight to bed after drinking it only to wake up short time later trippin absolute ballz.
Things were definitely a little "abnormal" in the mind.
Luckly I made it back without any permanent damage (that I am aware of lol)
I cant imagine purposely wanting to trip on DXM.
Your buddy may have "blown a fuse".
It happened to a very good my friend in high school after a LSD binger.
His attention span was about 3 seconds.
All he did was babble non sense.
He came to school on a monday after tripping 3 straight days a month before graduation, and threatened to kill the prinicipal. After taking his shirt off and foaming at the mouth, the police escorted him away.
He was always a honor roll student but wasnt able to graduate.
I saw him about 2-3 years later after he got out of prison for stealing a car from his job,
and he seemed to be back to "normal".
Havnt seen him since.
Shrooms always seemed "safer" to me.
They always kept me in a happy place.
Your friend needs to come off his "vacation".
Sounds like he might be still using.
 
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You need to get him into a psyche ward where he can get a professional diagnosis, period, end of discussion. Detox after that and then a 90-day rehab with close supervision.
 
yep, he needs help badly....i also agree this could be early onset of schizophrenia thats just exasperated by the drugs.
 
you're a good friend for being concerned and seeking out insight to his problems. it's really tough to see a friend in such a position. i do hope the best for him, and agree with all the above comments. keep us posted please <3
 
I´m sorry to hear that. That is very altruistic and valuable ..
 
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Wow. As soon as you started describing him I thought of myself minus the dxm addiction. His Facebook post sounds like some of mine, definitely ego driven. Another thing is how he has a "diabolical" laugh when confronted. I'm not trying to make this all about a comparison to me but its uncanny. Only difference is I'm not really psychotic I just have tendencies and pretend to be more insane than I am. My advice would be to get him into an institution so he can get off the stuff. I couldn't imagine taking dxm every day. Would definitely detach from reality. Tell your friend to get into a hobby like making music. If he has talent it would be a good thing to channel his ego and he could possibly go somewhere with it.
 
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I'm on 4 mg of risperdal and when I have tried to lower it I get the worst withdrawal symptoms....I was on Invega and had really no problem getting off that but that was also after surgery where I was given a lot of pain killers.......so that mostly masked the withdraws.
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How long were you on invega? I've been on it for 5 years at about 3 mg/night. I'm trying to ween off onto 1.5 mg/night, but I have this impossible insomnia.
 
Any updates on this friend? I've only had 3 experiences with DXM (pretty insignificant experiences compared to this) during an experimental phase when I stupidly abused cold meds. Third time made me extremely sick so I haven't since... Remembering how I felt at the time.. Ugh, I can't imagine what it'd be like to be him. I hope all goes well!
 
ehhh well the update would be he now has a girlfriend and he is still using dxm the same amount and now his master plan is to get her pregnant. Mind you hes 26 unemployed and lives at home and the girl hes with is 23 unemployed at home with one kid. But he says hes doing it because her family has "good genes" and with his genes and hers combined will make a "superior human" or something along those lines. I told him how crazy it is and told him its just him being psychotic on dxm and he doesnt know what hes doing soooooo yeah. Oh and since the last post he got a dui for fucking DXM. I mean ive been on dxm driving and its not too too hard but he said he was on 1300mg spread out over two doses. So i could imagine he was bad. I thought it would be a wake up call but i guess not.
 
Hi all. Phew, this is hard. I haven't admitted my drug problems to anyone who didn't know me when they were happening, and avoid the subject even with people who knew me when. I moved to a new state and started a new life when I got clean, and cant even admit my past to therapists (ive tried, i just cant do it, im so freaking ashamed).
So I was a tweeker for two years. I started shooting for a minute when I started dating a dealer who was a total pos. He would not let me sleep and beat the shit out of me and tore me down and tried to get me to take part in his delusions. After I started shooting (it only lasted about a month total) I completely lost it. I had a total psychotic break. I was living in the Truman Show, everything everywhere had triple meanings, I was controlling the cloud formations with my thoughts, really scary shit. I quit cold turkey and have not used in 26 months. It took 6 months for me to stop being completely schitzophrenic. It took a year for it to stop being a frequent thing. Recently, it has hardly been a problem. I have noticed though, that anytime I am even a little bit stressed I start to have psychotic thoughts; comments made on television will be directed to me because the person controlling the Truman Show doesnt want me to forget this isnt real. It's fucking terrifying. I dont want to be crazy again. The issue is I've developed such bad social anxiety that I have become a recluse and somewhere along the line this psychosis has taken away almost all of my social skills and although I lead what appears to be a relatively normal life, I am so alone. Even when I am completey not schitzo, I don't even know how to behave around people or form connections anymore. I don't know what to do. I am too ashamed to ask for help anywhere not so anonymous, and I am so afraid that I will never be able to have normal human connections again and deal with real life, normal stressers without becoming crazy. And I would rather die than live like that again.

Has anyone else had this kind of issue? I just don't want to be the only one. I think that scares me almost as much as the issue itself.

Has anyone done the 12 step program? I've considered going to meetings just to be able to share and get it off my chest but I'm afraid. My social anxiety is incredibly high and I don't want to be around other people who may relapse because I dont think I'd come back again if I started using again, I think it would break my brain all the way. I'm also afraid to be judged, even by other people who have similar stories.

Ugh :-(
 
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your gonna need your docs, maybe some benzos.u don't have to tell them about your mistakes in life just tell them about your anxiety.
 
My anxiety is managable 99% of the time (but then again I avoid ALL stress and that just not practical for life. . . ) I don't want any kind of drugs in my system at all ever again. I have been diagnosed with PTSD :-/
 
ptsd can morph into bipolar.best get it under control now.it happened to my brother.best of luck 2 u wing.
 
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This happened to me,too. I should have know better, cause I've already had psychosis issues in the past from drug use. It has never really gone away,I just kinda deal with it. I take prescribed buprenorphine and that helps a lot. Anyway, I used apvp,basically methamphetamine, for a period of about 6 months,and on my freaking God,the psychosis was unreal. I'm still dealing with the backlash 2 years later. I have to be very very careful about stress, and dopaminergic drugs. Long story short, I feel ya. I'm in the sane boat with the social anxiety, inability to connect with others on a meaningful level,no friends, reclusive, poor thought train..try l-thenanine, and there's a few other nootropics that help with the worst of it,namely, phenylpiracetam. Which is odd,because they claim it affects dopamine. I do know it takes the psychosis right down a notch or two.
 
Hi guys-

Been looking around this site for a few days now. I'm in desperate need of advice or support, regarding one of my dear friends. She has relapsed with meth (last biggest life fucking relapse was 4 years ago) and has been using (smoking) strong for the past 3 weeks. I don't believe in letting people "hit rock bottom" and stepping aside while they crash and burn. Especially, not with 3 children in the home.

I'm torn between needing to protect the children and not wanting to get any higher 'authorities' involved. I don't want to turn her in, but her kids are in danger and they don't deserve this bullshit. I've been visiting this past week and even staying the night, to help out and try to bring some sort of normalcy to the kids. She's off her rocker, from believing people are entering the home at night drugging/raping her and her children. Gas company is pumping poisonous gas underneath the home, people are breaking in every time she leaves the home (which is rare and no longer then 30 mins), the Russian mafia is out to get her and all the people involved sex trafficking. It goes on and on. Just this a.m when I called, I let her know I was coming over tomorrow and she told me, she is getting ready to board up the home. That I could come as long as I don't mind being locked in. I said this fine, I would be there anyway. I'm her best friend and the only person she has any trust for. Everyone she knows is against her and involved in her conspiracies, but me. This is working to my advantage, but I know it won't last.

She said she was going to stop using when she finished her last shit up, but I found out today, that she has more now. She believes she is functioning really well and that I'm blaming the drugs for her behavior (which, HELLO, I am) and that I think she is crazy and that I don't believe her. I don't tell her I don't believe her, I'm not that stupid. I know that this is her paranoia kicking in.

My current plan for tomorrow is to go see her, gently and persuasively get her to let me take the kids for the weekend. She thinks she is protecting them, when in actuality she is the biggest harm to them. I tried the other night to take them and they wanted to come, but she said she had to keep them, in case they had to pick up, get new identities and flee.

I'm at the point to where she either lets me take them or I call her in. Which would be a huge deal. The ex's are fucked up and abusive as well. So, they are not an option. I just don't know what to do. I have to do something though. I don't know what the best approach is with her. I love her dearly and I believe in her and always have. I don't know if I should be firm and just take charge with her in regards to her kids or what. We are very close and I'm very close with her kids, so me having them or taking them for periods of time is nothing new.

Has anyone else experienced this with a friend?? Are there things I can say, that can make an impact? I'm frustrated and trying to keep my anger under control as well, because I'm pissed and disgusted. I also want to beat the shit out of her neighbor who is selling her the shit. Fucking toothless fucker.

I want her to have a chance to stop using without her kids being taken and her life turned upside down, but I don't know if that's possible. I don't know how to help her or what to say.
 
dont call authorities mate i wouldnt she'l never forgive u. unless they r in actual danger. Its bad for the kids yes but thats there mum and they will want to stay with her, its only temporarytill she gets her head togethe,r but u taking them is for the best i agree. try and persuade her to let them stay wit u. dont threaten her with authorities tho, that will just piss her off. her heads gonna be fucked and she will be super paranoid so tread carefully. Think of a way to do it nicely. Maybe say your taking themm out somewhere saturday. hope this helps arkward situation dude
 
Yes, I really don't want to call. It is an "awkward situation". I'm going to try and get the kids and hopefully she agrees. :( Thanks for your comment da man.
 
i don't know if you are a guy or a girl... but i am a guy and this is what i would do.... Tell her your ultimatum ... that she let you take the kids for a bit, or you call child protective services........ and then I'd pay a visit to that toothless fucker and tell him you are gonna put a fucking bullet in his head (or just threaten to call the cops) if he sells even a speck of meth to your friend.


If you feel very passionately , do what you must, but you might consider getting a pistol or some guy to protect you a bit... tweakers are generally not nearly as dangerous as they appear, usually they are feeble , slow, and their bark is worse than their bite.. .I've beat this shit out of plenty of tweakers who would probably have killed me in real life.
 
I'm female. As for that toothless fuck- I will be doing what I can to get him busted, not a problem. I'm already lining up a plan of attack for him, nothing illegal or violent, though, unfortunately. He's a nothing in the neighborhood and I'm not afraid of him. I met him the other night, when he came over and I treated him like shit. He's a coward. He was checking my girlfriends gun two feet from my face and I lost it. I yelled at both of them and told them to 'move that fucking gun out of my sight, RIGHT NOW". She messed the gun up, so for now I don't have to worry about it. But I did come down on her about the weapon/her condition and the kids being around. She can't be trusted at all in her state of mind. I made sure the gun was taken apart and in a safe location and now she lost parts, which of course is 'someone' sneaking in and doing that.

What you suggest is something I've been thinking about. As far as giving an ultimatum. I'm thinking I want to start out nice, but if she refuses to let the kids come with me, I think I will need to be firm. As in, " You have the option of taking charge of what happens to them right now or you can let the authorities make that decision for you". It is seriously only a matter of short time before the cops are called, even if I don't do it. She already called her landlord bugging on her and he landlord said, " Can you hear yourself?" and hung up on her. She is quickly burning bridges. She is skin and bones as well.

Thanks for your comments and suggestions motiv311! I can't really talk to anyone else about this.
 
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