What's cracking Peevheads? I'm still off PV, fuck I must be pushing 6 months or longer now. I still sometimes think about A-pvp and Mdpv, I did have some fun times but I've really come to accept that I just can't control my use with these fucking synthetics. Over the past several months I've regained a lot of the things that were taken from me as a result of my chronic drug binging. I've been a little closer with my family and rebuilt my social life somewhat, I still have tons of problems and I'm not really happy but getting off PV has been a lifesaver for me. This stuff is just so fucking weird.
Once in a blue moon I'll think about what would happen if I should order again and give it another go. The answer is nothing good. Even if I tried to have insane willpower and prepare myself not to binge I just know it's impossible at this point, time and time again I've proven to myself that I just can't do it. Once PV hits my brain all bets are off, it's just so fucking weird. I've got a lot to lose now too, my family is obviously happy their son isn't going off the deep end on weird ass speed substitutes and we've gotten at least a little closer. I don't want to lose that.
One good thing is that the drug dreams are FINALLY gone. I dreamt of hitting pv on foil for months and that seems to have finally stopped. One bad thing is that I drink a fucking lot now, beer has been a consistent friend of my mine but it's just nowhere near the same damaging level as PV.
Hope the rest of you guys are doing good. I've had my fun with PV, but I don't think I'll be returning to it ever again. Stay safe everyone.